#been so drained

[ihadmysightsetonyourightaway]

Ffs literally the most simplest things my mom says to me been irritating tf out of me lately.

“Is your brother awake now?”

“Does he want some food?”

Like I don’t fucking know lmfao 😂

Instead of asking me properly to message my brother she asks me these dumb ass questions like as if I know the answer to them 💀

Or if she wants me to do something she says “you know what you should do?” “You should blah blah blah” or she will get upset if I’m playing video games or on my phone, or if I am not in the same room as her. It’s like she won’t leave ma alone. Idk. I feel so drained and like forced to talk to her specially when I don’t want to talk and she knows I don’t want to talk she will keep talking to me like make me talk to her but when she does talk it’s just about what she wants me to do or what I should do or should be doing with my life. Idk makes me feel like I need her to tell me simple shit when I don’t need her to do that at all.

I just wanna be myself without having the pressure of feeling like I am disappointing my mom every single day.

I know she loves me and I love her but I wish she would love me in a way that isn’t so I don’t even know a word for it. Like controlling I guess. Idk but that’s all that’s been on my mind lately and I need to get it out or ima drive myself so fucking crazy.

[murdocket]

I miss writing.

[cruciatusxxcervus]

[from quartz for the most attractive feature] "Everything. You're just... So pretty."

“Quartz..” It was still difficult to grasp, to think anyone could see her as beautiful. Yet, the ice-jin looked through all her scars, dents; her biting bitterness, and her silence. She saw her as something beautiful, and Eden had seen Quartz only as beautiful. 

Her scaled hands lifted, gently cupping her glacial purple chin. “Throughout my imprisonment, you were the only light in the darkness of space. The only light I found comfort in.” Her thumbs stroked up and down her cheeks. “The gentleness, the warmth in your eyes, they’re as rare, and beautiful as gemstones.” Her gaze softened, a look that had grown scarce, unless she set it upon her companion. 

“Your heart, your face, all of you,” Her face burned, all of this must have sounded overly sweet. It felt strange for such words to flow over her tongue, yet being with her made it easier. “Everything about you is beautiful.” 

@galactxc