When Mary Shelley said - 'At the age of twenty-six, I am in the condition of an aged person. All my old friends are gone. I have no wish to form new. I cling to the few remaining; but they slide away, and my heart fails when I think by how few ties I hold to the world.' - I felt that.
Di pertengahan bulan Maret, aku genap berusia 26 tahun. Ulang tahun kali ini terasa begitu kosong dan sepi. Aku telah merencanakan berbagai hal. Tapi kemudian, seperti rencana-rencanaku yang lain, aku selalu menggagalkannya. Alhamdulillah ada satu rencana yang berhasil. Tapi tetap memalukan bahwa rencana yang aku koar-koarkan kepada orang tuaku justru gagal. Sigh. Aku sebenarnya kecewa dengan diriku sendiri. Tapi terlalu malu untuk mengakuinya.
Being Twenty Six
Means a lot to me. Not only I already passed the quarter of my life, but also its the time I start to realized many things.
Berusia 26 tahun membuatku khawatir. My anxiety kinda getting worst and I hate that. I am a medical practitioner so I know how that kind of ‘thing’ work. Being depress is just like some dark smoke who come to you slowly and without you knowing but then when you realized it, your room already full of it and you cant do anything except being suffocated by it. And I’m afraid. I am afraid that I cant organized my mind anymore. I am afraid to fall to the darkness. I am afraid.
Today marks the beginning of another year in my life.
Time flies faster than I ever imagined. Oh well, I’m still undecided about my future... I wish I could do something to change that. Despite this, I remain optimistic, full of hope and [a little] determination.
Now that I just turned 26, I’m still the same Keihancarl as before. The only difference is just the age, that’s what I think. But does that really matter? Come on and let’s celebrate being young and single!
I’ll conclude this short post with a greeting: Happy 26th birthday to me, Keihancarl! Wish me luck, happiness, and determination in my upcoming endeavors to a successful life!