It’s been a month since I broke up with my ex. Happy Liberation Day to me...
I can’t believe how much has gone on since that time.
I’ve spent a week with my closest friends sorting out my thoughts, another week looking at places and yet another one looking at jobs and even going on an interview!
All the while things changed at work, between Dancing Girl revealing that Dante is her new guy and just getting back in touch with other people that I haven’t spoken to in a while. Specifically, one special person whom I’m so grateful to have back in my life.
It’s a very long story. People are complicated. But I’ve always had a friend that I met through the web that has been close to me. Even at the risk of hurting our own relationships... It’s neither here, nor there anymore. Through the years, we’ve had different partners and different levels of flirting when either of us have been single. As the boundaries kept fading away, we had a strange bout of drama back this past October and decided that it was best to part ways at the time. It was really hard for me at the time, but we both thought it was for the best because My Neediness of their attention was particularly draining on the friendship.
I remember being REALLY hard on myself and hating life for a solid month there. Then the healing began, as my own relationship continued to dwindle apart. One truly had nothing to do with the other. My Ex has been out of it. For so long! And I can’t help her... As much as I want to. She needs more than me. She needs to work on herself. And then she needs to find someone who better fits into her life. That’s the peace I’ve made with it and I’m moving on from there.
Since my own introspection, I decided to take a chance and simply inform my old friend about the news. Simply out of courtesy. What followed I never expected.
Since reuniting, we’ve had a couple of FaceTime calls, and I finally met their significant other. This person knew about me, but didn’t really care about our close friendship, because it didn’t affect anything one way or the other. But now, here we were! Just me, the single dude who’s finally meeting the true couple at their core. They were both there for me as I vented about my ex and life in general. And the two of us could hold a really great conversation, without the buffer of our mutual friend. We even have a decent bit in common. They respect me... Both of them.
[Also, I’d be remiss to not mention that my old close friend is so comfortable to even change in front of me, with the significant other in the room. They’re both legitimately that cool!]
Then, I’ve come to find that they have an open arrangement and have had three-somes with a best friend, and I was just flabbergasted. I think it’s beautiful. The person even went out of the way to tell me anything regarding me. “So long as it stays on the phone, I don’t care.”
Keep in mind, I expect nothing.
But I also know how flirty we’ve been in the past. And we always towed this line of, “whoop.. let’s not go there.” “hmm, let’s change the subject.”
It’s hard to explain. Without ever overstepping any bounds, we’ve always just had open talks about our sex lives, and I’ve certainly envied their stories and complained about my woes. And since it was okay at the time, we’d pornshare. That was like, our solid compromise.
Well, now... I literally have nothing left to lose. And like I said, I wasn’t expecting anything. But let’s just say that.. last weekend, we finally went there. The significant other knows about it and has been ridiculously super cool with it.
So that’s it!!
I’m in a Completely New Place 1 month into being single.
Now I’m just a single dude, waiting for my next place to come through. I’ve moved all my stuff out of the apartment, save for the furniture and am more-less move-in ready. I’m talking with my close friend again, which fills such a void that’s been missing in my life, it’s not even funny.
But even more than that, now I feel like I’ve gained this new special bond with the two of them as a couple.
I’m still very much an out-of-place component to their relationship. Just a dude from the internet. But the fact that they’ve even let me into their lives to this capacity... Honestly, that’s all I need right now. And I am so grateful for this Beautiful Friendship that I’m a part of.
I remember seeing all the meme during my weeb phase and not getting into the games till years later thanks to the fighters. In fact, Touhou actually got me into PC gaming.
you had kind of a late weeb phase. touhou was the latter part of my relapse into weebdom, after I was staunchly anti weeb after the horror that was middle school
