#beingemotional

[zenwords]

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[lesucremygic]

13+13

It's as if the title is going to give you a glimpse of everything terrifying. It's not haha, or maybe it will? Being past 25 is quite terrifying to me.

But I'm very excited about turning 26. The age does feel like I have a new start. I mean technically, I can always make my new start regardless of the time. It's up to me, what is it the society gonna dictate me for again? They have demanded a lot from me.

But walking away from the big number of 25 does feel a little bit like an accomplishment.

I guess life is not always this leisure, but after being in a fight or flight mode for quite long, to be able to taste the mediocrity, the mundane of slow life I can assure you, I can see more clearly.

Last year, I realized that I have never really celebrated myself properly, it was quite a revelation that rendered me speechless. I actually didn't know how to appreciate everything that I have in me without looking at them from the glasses of social expectation.

For someone who does have quite a principle, I always have some kind of battle with myself. But then I realize, those fights are my way to learn, to be a better version of myself. It means that I am still walking despite getting stuck a lot here and there.

One of my ways to celebrate myself and satisfy my teenage self is getting a self-portrait as it was a medium for me to celebrate my existence. I can see myself clearly as someone who does think, who can implement concepts and ideas into something tangible as photographs of my own being. I thought it was going to turn cringe, but apparently I’m happy with the way the whole concept turned out. I can see myself as… you know, me.

Birthdays used to always feel like gloomy revelations that your time is running out, that the clock keeps on ticking like crazy, that you have to run even aimlessly despite how blurry everything is in front of you. However, I decided to change the way I think about that bitter point of view since I realized, our minds sometimes are the cage. 

I’m the one who trapped myself inside it. 

To feel lost and gloomy is very normal, there is actually nothing wrong with that. 

But to dwell on something that is actually proven to be as temporary as life, instead of joining the chirps of the birds and nature singing for their purpose is one big loss that somehow I regretted for not doing sooner. 

There is so much to appreciate about getting older. You get wiser, you get calmer, you get to think from a lot of resources you have collected all of your life, you get to solve stressing situation without feeling like you need to be decapitated exactly at the moment of crisis, you get to experience the joy and the flow of having to live as you are in spite of still searching for your purpose. 

Life does get crazy, as you get older you actually understand that it’s never going to get easier. You just have to accept your situation and walk with determined steps, it can falter sometimes but that’s also okay, just rest for a few moments before taking another. Big steps, small steps, it doesn’t really matter, take the steps even if it’s just a centimeters wide. 

All you have to know is, you did walk, you survived, you celebrate you for existing when it gets too tired, and life does go on. 

To all of my platonic, familial and remotely romantic loved ones, all of my thanks to you for joining me in my journey to go on. My deepest gratitude for helping celebrate myself in ways that resonate a lot with me. 

To all the years ahead of us, I hope we can always remain healthy and sane.

Haha.

To 26, to getting older, to living life. 

L.

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Happy birthday you pocket sized environmentally friendly human with a barely retraceable carbon footprints who loves the wonders of sea even though you're scared of the deep waters.

[shaileshbox]

Enough is not Enough. Sometimes little extra is also not Enough. This will keep going, being Emotional. Being Intelligent, nothing is everything. #freeworld #beingintelligent #beingemotional #letsbegunthewar #behappy #f #u

[daniellemarie1985-blog]

Had a great time at family swim tonight! Arabella made a new little friend and made some new swimming accomplishments all while Kaleb was surrounded by girls that he called acquaintances. Had me thinking that there has been lots of changes lately but they are all good changes, and I am so blessed and proud to have these smart, beautiful children in my life. What I did to deserve these guys I don't know but they make me a better person, my life have true meaning and the world a better place. I couldn't imagine nor would I want to imagine life without them. #proudmomma #preciousmomments #changeisgood #blessed #bestgiftinlifeisbeingamom #beingemotional

[ihopeyourbuscomesearly]

Why does life get in the way of all the fun things?

[timewalker1998-blog]

Sometimes people failed to see those, People who smile the most, Are people in pain and lost.

-timewalker