#belittled

[poetrybyonur]

Love is not something we can shut off and on like a water tap. We don’t unlove someone overnight. But a person can certainly unlove another little by little. When you love someone who emotionally abused you over time, you begin to unlove the person bit by bit, as they chip away at your heart, piece by piece, with each uncaring word, each lie, each insensitive act, each attempt at gaslighting, until there’s no more heart to love them with. All that’s left is nothing. You nothing them.

I am in the process of redoing my older pieces to give them fresh life. This one is from 2021.

[maruendz]

For every ten things I do great, I make one mistake.

Why do you only focus on my wrongs, for fucks sake?

All my efforts to be my best for what? For you to go put me to shame?

Do you think before you point the blame?

Can't you tell the difference between wrong and right?

Your words have me considering starting a fight.

You're lucky I have a mind with urges it resists,

Your face is something I loathe to miss.

I'd rather display a smile,

Though, the fury I feel is absolutely vile.

I hate you,

No kidding, I honestly do.

[lessoneislessthannow]

[bibibibuckleykinard]

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[peachesannndgravy]

Louis Tomlinson deserves a chance.

[pointless-letters]

"Of course, there's always those people who say parents should just love their children no matter what they choose to wear, and make them feel loved and accepted for who they are. But no. Fuck that. I'm not having it."

[i-could-be-so-much-more]

This is the second job where my physical health has been the cause of my being shouted at... Because of my Hypermobility I am sometimes slow and clumsy. This is because, 1) I have always been unsteady on my feet, it's like my brain can't quite grasp that my legs are longer than they thought, 2) because of my Hypermobility my knees are absolute shit after working overtime to keep me upright, 3) after anymore than about 2 hours of being on my feet, constantly moving, bending to work on counters that are too low for me, I end up in a looooooot of pain, like my spine is excruciating, my knees want to buckle, my ankles ache, my shoulders are heavy, it's impossible to work fast like that... and I don't know if it's my physical or mental health, but once I'm in pain and tired/hot my brain doesn't work anymore.. Maybe I should've chosen a better job where I'm not expected to be so fast, were I'm not in a hot sweaty kitchen, but this is where I've ended up, I don't want to be there... and it's fucking infuriating being called lazy and being shouted at for not understanding vague instructions, and essentially being patronised, because of my physical health. I didn't ask for this fucking disorder, I don't want to work in a kitchen, I never have. But here we fucking are, and I don't appreciate the belittlement.

[writingbrainrot]

Pls, wrinkly brained, program savvy, linux using, reddit, github, discord, indie, ai, docker, custom fecker, .bat savvy people

I need y'all to understand some things.

Y'alls guides aren't helpful if my adhd and dyslexia makes me unable to process them or exhausts me too much to be able to finish following the instruction

Yalls guides arent helpful if you preface them by "its easy" if the person trying to do it doesnt know what reformatting a drive is

I still have to google the cd command

Yalls guides arent helpful if i have to use the browser search function to find the sections i need

Yalls guides arent helpful if i have to use google to find the section of the guide i need

Yalls guides arent helpful if there isnt a clear link going "guide/wiki/how to" is there are instructions beyond the install instructions

Yalls guides arent helpful if your instructions are "read this other githubs guides"

Yalls guides arent helpful if you go "docker compose is easy, just do it"

Yalls guides arent helpful if youre confused why people would wanna use windows/ios

Yalls guides arent helpful if i had 2 tb that i decided to install ubuntu on and every time i try to use it my mouse doesnt work randomly suddenly and i just dont have the energy so i have 2 tb of storage made worthless because that is how much it would cost me to shift to using linux

Yalls guides arent helpful if "ive been using linux all the time and have no issues" when trying to convince new users to join

Yalls guides arent helpful if i need chatgpts help WITH EVERY SINGLE FUCKING GITHUB PROGRAM IVE TRIED TO INSTALL AND RUN

ESPECIALLY IF YOURE MAKING THE PROGRAM TO HELP PEOPLE

Yalls guides arent helpful if i have to look up reddit posts to see the solution because it isnt mentioned in the guides

YALLS GUIDES ARENT FUCKING HELPFUL!!!! BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE NOT YOU

and i dont fault you for it but i'm sorry i'm notcapable of switching to linux from windows IF I HAVE TO DO A FIGHT TO USE IT EVERY FUCKING TIME WHEN WINDOWS JUST WORKS

You love this and thats why its intuitive and works for you? Great

I just wanted programs to backup my precious data and manage it

Why did i have to age 20 years

Why do i have to pay in stress if it's supposed to be free

(Lowkey want that last line embroidered)