#bell tech.

[askwilliamwisp]

@n0tfromar0undhere

hey, vyn? i know this probably isn’t. the best time. but i just-

i’m going to be talking to tide soon. about.. about bell tech. you don’t need to be there for it, i just.. don’t know what to do.

[askwilliamwisp]

*out of nowhere appears a plushie of a wisp, a bottle of water and a note saying ' it's not going to help anyone if you have a panic attack, take a few breaths, you got this'

okay. okay. fuck. thanks. this is just.. a lot.

..i shouldn’t complain. sorry. but thanks. the plushie is. actually really cute. i might give it to fran. it’s been a while since i last drank water.. i’ll drink that.

i got this. i got this. i can do this. fuck.

thank you.

[askwilliamwisp]

(a fish flies through an open window and lands in your arms. it has a note taped to it that says, "you've done bad stuff, but don't let them tell you that you're a bad person. you truly had no other options in that situation, and it's completely understandable that you don't want to talk about it because it was so traumatic for everyone involved. unfortunately, the only way to move on is to acknowledge your faults and try to fix them. the important thing right now is communication, especially because there are anons trying to convince tide that it was somehow his fault and hes freaking out about it. you are probably the only one who can fix this, good luck lol)

-🐟

…yeah, you’re right. i know i’m not a great person, but.. i don’t want to run from this anymore. they deserve better from me. they deserve the best in general. i’m going to talk to them.

and shit, tide is freaking out? fuck, i’ll go check on him.

thank you. genuinely.

[askwilliamwisp]

i know ur doing important lore stuff but this song recommendation is very important

"I/Me/Myself" by will wood

oh, hey, nice. i’ll listen to this while having a panic attack. thanks for the rec!

[askwilliamwisp]

Then who are you doing this for? If it was Tide he wouldn’t have found out this way.

If it was for anyone than your self they would have known the full truth by now…

i-….

i owe it to at least vyncent to fess up now. he shouldn’t have to deal with this. i’m the one that fucked up, so i’m the one that will own up. even if i didn’t before, i… well. i have to, now.

i owe it to my friends. i should’ve told them, but.. i don’t know. i didn’t want to hold them back, but there’s no excuse. none that would matter.

[askwilliamwisp]

I’ll believe it when I see it.

i’m not doing this for you.

[askwilliamwisp]

…

After everything you’ve done you have no right to call me worse than you- Stand there and act like you’re doing good, but you’re a coward, William.

Too much in your own head to deal with the consequences of your actions- you lie again and again. You are no better than your brother.

….he’s not my brother anymore. and i’m not worse than him. i’m not.

and i don’t think i’m doing good. i never have been. nothing that comes out of deadwood is good, and i’m no exception.

…and neither is david.

you can taunt me all you fucking want, but i’m going to face this. i’m not good- i know i’m not- but i’m not going to run from this. not again.

[askwilliamwisp]

…

You’re leaving? You’re gonna walk away from all this- after everything you’ve done…

I thought you had at least the right intentions- what the fuck are your intentions?!

my ‘intentions’ are none of your fucking business! who the fuck even are you?! you’re more of a ghost than i am, and twice as useless! and that’s fucking saying something!

i’m not running away, either- i just need to figure something out. i- i’m going to tell him. and dakota. i just need to figure out how. i just need to think.