Dear Jesus,
In the 23 years of my existence, there wasn’t a time you weren’t by my side. As a kid, you were with me in the playgrounds. As a teen, you were with me when I fought with my family and my own demons every day. As an adult, you were with me in my darkest and loneliest nights. Even in the moments when I questioned your goodness, I still felt your stubborn presence and your warm embrace around my coldness.
People say your early 20s are the worst period of your life, and I believe that, at least in an emotional perspective. As I continue to stumble through my 20s, I don’t want to do it alone. Jesus, I just want a family that I could truly forgive and love without shame. I just want friends, not in numbers, but a few who I could fully be who I am with.
I know that my worth doesn’t come from how people respond to me, it comes from You. So please help me ignore the voices that say I am too little or too much, and help me believe that I am exactly as much me as the world needs. I say all of these things, but You know that what I truly want is real peace. Peace beyond understanding. Peace that guards my heart. Peace that guards my mind. Peace that can only come from You.
- J