#bemymistake

[turnontuneinturnup]

Be My Mistake - The 1975

[theeggstraordinary]

I shouldn't have called

'Cause we shouldn't speak

You do make me hard

But she makes me weak

[nae222]

“You do make me hard

But she makes me weak”-

Be My Mistake, The 1975

[tasteoflovato]

laura asked me to write this

you do make me hard but she makes me weak

Her chestnut colored hair is sprawled across the stark white hotel pillows. He doesn’t really like that kind of white. It’s blinding, in a sense. Too bright, like plastic. The ones he has at home are a softer color, one that doesn’t hurt his eyes. Cream. He didn’t choose them but he appreciates them every time he has to sleep in another hotel bed.

She’s reading next to him while he stares at the ceiling. He doesn’t mind the silence, he isn’t feeling very chatty anyway. There are lots of thoughts in his head but neither of them are appropriate to express. They cause a pounding in his stomach that feels a bit like hunger but he’s definitely eaten and if he really takes the time to find the exact location of it, it feels more like heartbreak.

She is perfect for him in every sense and even when he feels the most lost, there is no denying how good her company is for him. Even when his thoughts are mostly led by feelings and his heart seems to come closer to winning than his head, she is there, pulling him back to sanity and rationale. To his head. But he can only ignore his heart for so long at a time.

And it’s hard to, when he’s at the same hotel as he was five years ago with another woman. It’s not the same room but it’s the same floor. The same color of the pillows. The hair sprawled across the pillow was blonde, though. And the naked trees outside the window were full of life, green and blooming.

He feels just as naked. And there’s guilt at the back of his throat.

He undresses and brushes his teeth in the bathroom with the blue tiles. The eyes that stare back at him in the mirror are hazier than he would like. And when he gets back in bed, she’s put the book away and she’s undressed as well. She is good at making him forget. She’s good at making him forgive himself for all the memories that he can’t shake and all the moments that in hindsight seem too good to not end up causing disordered hurt. She is full of patience and promises and he is grateful and perpetually unfulfilled.

[littlespoonjo]

Happy Tuesday!

Today’s song is Be My Mistake by The 1975.

If you listen to this song, be prepared to get a tad bit emotional. The 1975 released this album, A Brief Inquiry Into Online Relationships, was released at the end of this past November. This album is packed with amazing songs that capture the listener, while acknowledging relationships- romantic and platonic- life stressors, and societal issues. Be My Mistake stands out on the album because of its lyrical and musical simplicity and honesty. The song is about cheating on a significant other. Lead singer Matt Healy sings, “So don’t wait outside my hotel room / Just wait till I give you a sign / ‘Cause I get lonesome sometimes / Save all the jokes you’re going to make / Whilst I see how much drink I can take / Then be my mistake”. These lines gather the gist of the song, but there are a few lines that stand out even more, “I shouldn’t have called / ‘Cause we shouldn’t speak / You do make me hard / But she makes me weak”. These lines almost hurt every time I hear them. Healy acknowledges that he knows he shouldn’t be doing what he is doing, seeing this girl on the side, and that this side girl does arouse and please him, but the one he is in a relationship is the one that matters at the end of the day. She makes him weak with the love they share.

I chose this song for today because of its beauty and pain. It’s all about a situation that many people have dealt with before, many being on the side of Healy and carrying out the act of cheating, many being the side individual that aids in the act, and many being the person that is hurt the most in the end from the act- the loyal individual. I believe it is important for this song to have been made because it touches on the issue that has been around for years, and seems to have increased in occurrence and probability: we, as humans, cannot seem to have enough. Our thirst for love, attention, material items, success, and whatever else can never seem to be quenched. We get what we finally have been craving for so long, eventually become bored with it, and want to move on to something (or someone) else to ignite that excitement and interest again. I’d like to believe that Healy wrote this song in order to be honest about this situation, and showcase the guilt he felt during this time. 

The 1975, thank for you honesty. 

[rejectedqueens]

[ewxlkerrr]

you make me hard, but she makes me weak

[free6lack16]