The beautiful thing about writing in-character Hokma is that no matter whether you like it or not, no matter if you like Ayin or not?
Hokma does.
And Hokma WILL make that known.
If you don't like it then you just end up like Roland, faced with a gay old man who's the Patron of Religion because Have You Heard About His Mentor The Most Amazing Ayin? Well, Now You Have!
The things he SAYS. The way he wasn't there for Carmen AT ALL.
"I want to be your shadow, ever beside you, and fade away with you" I mean he basically proposed right there????
His whole thing as Hokma was "Ayin look Ayin stop being sad, you don't have to be sad, your grief made me lose you once I don't want you to break again ever so just don't leave me Ayin please."
In the Library Roland walks off because he keeps hearing about how awful Ayin was from Angela (and also because Ayin was the one heading Lobotomy Corporation, which he'd have known became the source of the Distortion Phenomena). He's also the one who helps Angela turn away from Carmen and appreciate the people she'd chosen to bring with her.
And in Limbus? Hokma is associated with Canto VI, Wuthering Heights, and like... among the things that happen we have two people who are godawful at communicating (and pay a Price of Silence for it), and there are multiple characters who would literally do anything, even start a war or commit crimes against humanity, for the sake of the one they (romantically) love.
Benjamin Hokma is so damn gay the reason they haven't shown Ayin on screen next to him when he wasn't in deep depressive grief is because they wouldn't be able to hold back how much the two of them are just plain married.