#benxez

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Bennett’s heart drummed heavily in his chest when he opened the door to see Ezra standing there. Hey, he murmured softly, stepping outside & pulling the door shut behind him. 

Suddenly the older boy’s unreadable face changed, the tension in his body clear. What no kiss hello? Ezra hissed. Or would your boyfriend be upset by that?

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Ezra let loose a fury of punches & kicks, taking every ounce of emotion out on the red bag that hung in front of him. To him, in this moment, the bag represented so much. It was his fear & his mistakes. It was the distance between himself & his boyfriend. It was the physical distance that lied before them when he left for university. In just a matter of weeks, he would be leaving to start training for the season with his new team. He loathed the thought of leaving things with Benny in a bad place. 

Suddenly he stopped, his chest heaving as he stared down his imaginary opponent. Bennett had hung up before telling the blond that he loved him. He hadn’t responded to the words in their text exchange prior to that. He’d said he wasn’t sure how much more he could take. Hoping it was nothing more than an empty threat, the older boy’s mind reeled. How bad were things & why hadn’t Ezra noticed?

And now Bennett wanted to talk? 

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I’ve got to go though, baby, Ezra continued when he was met with silence on the other end. 

Bennett shook his head, slamming his bedroom door shut. Leaning back on it, he drew in a long breath. Of course you do, he mumbled.

Benny, please don’t be like that. I’m really sorry if I make you feel like you aren’t important to me. You are. You are more important to me than all of those other things combined. I’m just not always so good at showing you I guess. I just... I’ll talk to you later, okay babe? the older boy assured him, his tone sincere & caring. 

Later.. Bennett repeated softly. Okay, Ez.

I love you, Benny.

Without another word, the redhead disconnected the call before returning the sentiment. He closed his eyes, a tightness in his chest when he heard Ezra say that he loved him. Slowly he slid down the wooden door until he was on the ground. When he opened his eyes again, he could feel them stinging as the tears started to form. Suddenly the weight of the situation came crashing down on him & he wanted to run & hide. 

God, I’m a horrible person, he whispered to himself as he tossed his phone down by his feet, burying his face in his hands.

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‘You’re mad??’

Bennett growled to himself when he read the text. He rarely pushed when Ezra chose his friends over him, yet another reason he knew it was time to end things. At this point, he’d had enough of it. His stress level was already through the roof with the thought of their inevitable breakup & he was ready for this whole thing to be put behind them. He didn’t want to keep putting it off.

He started to type back then stopped to delete the words on the screen. Fuck it, he muttered to himself, deciding instead to make a phone call. 

His jaw clenched when the call connected & he heard his boyfriend’s voice on the other end. Hey, baby. Can we…

Am I mad? Yes, I’m fucking mad. You do this shit to me all the time, Ezra, he grizzled, cutting the man short. He could feel his face turning red as his annoyance grew. I get it. Your friends & fishing & surfing & going out on boats & going to parties to get drunk, it’s all more important to you than I am.

That’s not…

Yes, it is. If it isn’t true then you have a really shitty way of showing me that I mean anything, Bennett hissed, again interrupting Ezra. And usually I just put up with it. The one time I really needed to talk & you can’t even do that for me. Ezra, I really don’t know how much I can take. As a matter of fact, I should just tell you now what it is. 

No, Benny, Ezra interjected before the man continued to berate him. I promise you I will meet you tomorrow. Whatever it is, we can talk about it then. I’m sorry I had already made plans when you texted me earlier but tomorrow, I’ll make time no matter what, okay?

First thing? 

I’ll call to tell you ‘good morning’ on the way to the gym like I always do. When I’m done with my work out, I’ll come over. Ezra paused to wait for an answer. 

Bennett sighed into the phone. Fine. No excuses; you better show up. If you flake on me again…

I won’t, baby. I’m all yours tomorrow if you need me to be.  

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As he walked through the door, a smile plastered across his face, Bennett heard his phone chirp in his pocket. With a deep breath he retrieved it, hoping it was Ezra saying he was on the way over.

While the sender was who he’d hoped for, the message wasn’t...

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No good ever came from a conversation that started with ‘we need to talk’. The day before, he’d been so concerned about Benny being mad at him in that moment, he hadn’t given much thought to what the man could have on his mind. Whatever it was, Bennett seemed to think it was very important. 

Ezra’s heart dropped into his stomach when his mind settled on another fear. It couldn’t be that talk could it? 

Maybe Bennett had thought twice about continuing their relationship long distance. Perhaps Ezra had blown him off one too many times now. But that couldn’t be. They’d always talked about being together, building a life with each other after going pro. It was a dream they had shared for so long, Ezra couldn’t stand the thought that it wouldn’t come true.

Fuck! he shouted, punching the bag harder than he ever had. Though he’d told his boyfriend he would come by after his usual workout & the man seemed to be avoiding him, Ezra couldn’t wait any longer. He had to see the redhead now. Dammit, Benny. What is going on? he asked himself, shaking his head in defeat. 

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Benny is spending the holidays with big brother Van, Van’s fiance Brooke (not to be confused with Benny’s twin sister Brooke..) & their cousin Archer & his adorable little fam <333

I hope you aren’t posting that on social media Benny >.> Not only would you upset the NON-boyfriend in your life, but that would most certainly confuse the hell out of your family who now all think... I mean KNOW.. you are banging Arashi :x