@tenseoyong Yes go get a tissue because I’m going to make you cry as always. It’s your birthday baby and like it or not I’m not going to forget it and not send something to you. You already got your present which you opened before but I always write something for you and this year won’t be the exception.
But I don’t want to write the typical bullshit of “Happy Birthday” “Wish you the best” “blah blah blah” nah, that’s boring. Honestly I’m not sure yet what I want to write but... I’ll figure it out as it goes.
So this year has been pretty difficult, honestly I didn’t think it could be worse than 2016 (ok yes I did) but it took all my expectations. It was hard and out lives are already hard enough and honestly I’m not sure how we are still fucking alive. But here we are, another year of being friends, “celebrating” our birthdays and just trying to go along with our sad tumblr lives.
Back to the main point, I guess that what I’m trying to say is that no matter how hard it hits us, we still manage to stay around and help each other or at least be there. We are far from perfect but we learn as we grow up and we become closer I guess. What I love about our friendship is that we are still, somehow, alive. We are both fucked up in our own ways and yet we manage to forget about those things and stay together. I’ve said it so many times and I’ll say it again, no one understands me the way you do and I wouldn’t open myself to anyone besides you, because you are the only one who doesn’t judge.
I sometimes wonder what will become of us, what will happen in our lives, how will our paths go. But I never seem to find an answer, to be honest I’m pretty sure things will go crazy in one point and the next thing we know we’ll be running away together or something. But I do hope we manage to somehow reach our goals, do what we want to do and eventually live together like we’ve planner. (well you are the planner here but sh) It’s a nice dream and gives me some hope.
At least my life isn’t as empty as it was before.
Not after you. Yes you’ve made a big impact on my life and you became my best friend, lord knows how and I thank whatever thing that brought us together. I’m sure there are still many things we need to live and overcome, that there will be hard times, happy times, sad times, whatever, but I don’t think it’ll be a problem. We’ll figure it out, together.
Anyways I hope you aren’t as lame as I am and pretend is not your birthday and do nothing because I really hope you see one day what I see in you. You aren’t that bad as you picture yourself and this “not so bad” person is my best friend and I love her. And for me the fact that having you in this world is enough to thank for. You know that if I were there I would take you out and we’d go drinking and have the craziest day of your life.
But not today I guess, not this year.
Maybe next year. We’ll see.
So even if you don’t do much today, eat what you love, go get nana and go out even if it’s just for a while. If you can, buy yourself something pretty. But more importantly know that I’m there in heart and soul for you. And I’m staying, so you’ll have to bare with me for the rest of your life. There’s no way out. Boohoo, poor you :P.
Anyways, I love you Besh. Don’t forget that okay? Happy Birthday you little snake. (my snake btw. I have two snakes)
Ara~
