#betterbemeta

[soysaucevictim]

I agree with your shoulder chip and if the internet were truly accessible I would be able to with a single click put down tone markers for a screen reader to denote text be read cuntily

That would be amazing.

(One of my old beefs with the unsupported Unicode tables is also because spam-bots love escaping filters with such characters. Arguably pettier than the accessibility angle, which also remains true.)

[asklordcaptaincastronova]

Who is the master at arms for the Azure Wanderer?

Lt. Xela Razasal

[nukenai]

You should see my BARN!! 😬😬😬😬😬

[asexualstarscream]

betterbemeta replied to your post “Wait... New Leaf came out 7 years ago???”

I am currently writing a DOOM crossover fanfiction that speculates that someday the online services for NL will be discontinued and its depressing the hell out of me

That is so sad :( I do not want to think about that day

[asklordcaptaincastronova]

betterbemeta replied to your post:

                   “Ooooh a dinner party invitation what’s on the...                

   it… could be space wolves food which COULD include “raw venison”  If Horcae Wuttlbey Blisteringham IV  serves us Raw Venision as Astartes rations I will personally congratulate him for epic tomfoolery

[editoress]

betterbemeta replied to your post: Whaddya MEAN I’ve got to come up with a LoZ self...

that’s just tetra, but like, on a really off day

Honestly that just makes it sound flattering.  I’d love to be Tetra on an off day.

[nukenai]

betterbemeta said:                                                                                           ok but I COULD see a pre-war person being named nuke or nuka because the propaganda was just so damn strong that either their mother named their child after their favorite drink, or they obtained the nickname in childhood                            

Sorry this reply got lost to the void so

Over here in reality I’m overly complicated about my name like “nukenai” is just the Japanese name of my favorite hamtaro character. Years ago when you would google “nukenai” you’d get like 4 results and one was a picture of him. Now it’s just like, shit from my tumblr lol. Anyways I shortened it to “Nuke” after a while which is pronounced just like the slang for a nuclear weapon or microwaving something. I don’t really like having the nuclear connotation cause if I were to actually change my name to it (I’m much more comfortable with Nuke than I am with my real name... and I don’t know why I dislike my real name so much) I would like, not be allowed in airports. Lmfao.

Anyways tho when I write my name in Japanese I write it as ヌケ because technically it’s a shortened version of ヌケナイ. Because that definitely matters (It matters when I narrate my stories to myself in Japanese in the shower okay? shhh).

This was all very off-topic but. It’s fun to me that having the name Nuke finally fits in the universe I’ve self-inserted myself into. Codsworth says my name to me. Finally I have a place I belong lmfao.

[radiqueer]

I find that saying cruel things to yourself is often a simulation of what you expect from other people, in a way as an attempt to inoculate yourself against expected disappointment. But really it just breaks you down before you're even in a situation where someone can be cruel to you, and the self-simulation is infinitely meaner because 1) it knows your weaknesses intimately and 2) you have an emotional investment in taking yourself down, whereas others are only as mean as their self-interest

this is a really good and insightful point, and maps neatly onto what I’ve noticed about the difference between deprecating talk that comes from me vs what comes from my friends vs what comes from strangers. 

for me, the last is easiest to brush off. people have always been unkind to me, and I’ve never much cared what they have to say. whereas anytime my friends say something even halfway mean to me I lose my entire sense of self for a few hours. I have good friends and they generally aren’t out to hurt me, but I also tend to parse things as mean or unkind even when they aren’t meant that way. 

but the stuff I say to myself sticks, and it genuinely horrifies me because I am out to make myself feel worse and succeeding pretty well at it - because I know what I’m doing. also, there’s something unnameably awful about writing a vent post and thinking of tagging it with something like ‘shut up u dumb overdramatic bitch’ which is just. I thought that. at myself. I feel sick.