Oct 24, 2021
It's not that I don't care about anyone, I just think that I, personally, am completely unlovable, I cannot fathom in my wildest dreams how anyone could care about me for anything besides their own gain.
And that's fine, I don't mind! At least they're staying with me, I have some great people in my life.
But the mere idea that anyone could actually care about me, just me, not what I could give them...
I just can't understand it.
But I wish I did, I want to understand what that feels like so fucking bad.