#big trauma

[whoneedscanon]

yo i watched the first 10 min of nightmare before christmas for the first time in forever n sally ripping her own arm off to get away from her dad shouldn't be the most relatable thing ive ever seen in my life but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[repeat-delta]

I fell asleep next to a wholly beautiful person last night

but before sleep fully hit, I had a strange, indirect sort of flashback to my Big Trauma via a memory of a super brief, almost-forgotten Yuck interaction with a classmate nine years ago.

This memory manifested itself while my sleepybrain was recognizing just how gentle the human next to me had been loving my body moments before.

The memory depicts a very opposite, forceful, non-consensual kiss+choke.... but because that is a sexually charged memory, it inherently beckons out the big gun Trauma that bowls me over.

So, I told my new lover that I was experiencing Something, an uncomfy memory I couldn't explain because I've yet to yell him the Big T saga, but how he was holding me was Just Right so don't stop. He was lovely.

Sleep

Sleep

Waking up to my alarm and the instantaneous notifications

Message received:

My abusive grandfather died in the night

--- That almost-flashback I had before falling asleep? The contents of that memory includes my grandfather's wretched choices and actions.

The cool part about that moment tho was that I *didn't* fall in. Sure, I was being held by another human, but I was holding *myself*

and I'm really proud of that. He doesn't know the context or when or what I need to be brought back down to earth from a flashback panic. I did it myself. I told myself where I was and how old I was and how safe I was. I didn't fall in.

And then boom - the news half of my extended family has frankly been waiting for...came.

He's gone.

There is one less person I have to push out of mind when I am having trouble remembering that I am Far and Safe from them.

And I am still surprised at myself because knowing this day was coming sooner rather than later, I expected to be regretful about not having chewed him out via letter, phone, irl anything since the family fully broke 3 years ago.

I didn't have any final words to him. And that's okay.

He made his bed, and he has to lie in it. If he lived 80+ years without Seeing how he neglected and abused his family, who's to say my words would do anything differently.

There is a new peace coming...and death is a strange thing.

[twinfoxtails]

i'm sorry, a slime possessed eri and killed crescent? please elaborate

"So, this kid got ambushed in the forest by a slime girl named 'Deva' or something (which sounds a bit pretentious by the way), and she just happens to possess Eri's body. And the kid was at her complete mercy."

"So I bumped into 'him' when I was around Former Hell. And when I greeted him, and I quickly figured out he was acting funny? Haha! Slime shot out from his body, from his mouth and fingertips, and suffocated me until I was deprived off oxygen! A slow and painful death! Ha! Ahaha!"

"... It makes me furious to still even think about it. Both at him and at myself."

It really made her more wary and started training again, at least.

[wildshapedruid]

[mentalmeles]

WELP.... BABY WITNESSED HER FIRST MASSACRE 

[someone-out-there-lovesyou]

i knew there was a reason i forgot to do this reading

[quiredaragoff]

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[puppiangel]

how lil is ur trauma bc like same :/

tbh it’s high,,i wanted yung trauma but it was taken://