You didn't want to tell John this, with how much of a battle it's been to get him to leave his place and blow off some steam, but you are in no fit state to be good company, like you haven't been for the past week.
But it seems as if brotherly duty helps you push this worse mood further back, as something to deal with later, under the right environment.
Not now, when someone who you've sworn to protect is in trouble, and you can do something about it.
And maybe this is advice you can take yourself: distracting yourself, clearing your mind off things, might just be the push you need now too, to go through the day in a better mood.
The movie is loaded on your laptop, and this time you don't move from your seat on your bed, legs crossed before you, blogging passionately about another song you found that makes your heart a flutter, fills your head with pictures of you-know-who. You're still in your sleepwear: a large t-shirt and shorts, and your hair hasn't seen a comb in days.
You find it ironic that John would be so worried over simple make-up when you're a wreck like this. But then again, everyone has their own demons, and you sure know how irrational yours can be.
Four steaming mugs are sitting on your bedside table, two contain a brownie, the others have hot cocoa. There's also a tub of ice cream, should John want to top his browie with it. You know you totally will.
You huff as you wait for your guest to arrive. If he takes five more minutes, you are dragging him down by the virtual ear via tumblr.