#biracial problems

[anonxwriter]

Just a rant, because why? 🙄

Sometimes I really want to ask my mom why she even has black kids when she clearly has no respect for black people.

My mom has a new boyfriend who's black (as always), and me, my mom, her boyfriend, and her neighbor went to dinner, and she starts randomly telling these stories about her time living in the deep south. "This black man" and "this little black lady"; black people are so surprised that she knows how to cook this and that. It's so fucking weird and uncomfortable.

Anyway, then she starts telling us how our old next-door neighbor told her how me and my brother helped him realize "not all black people are bad," and she was so proud of that story. That's not a compliment at all (which I told her and she said "it is from an 80-year old man." Nah, it's not a compliment period.

My mom is one of those white women who wants to be black so badly. She uses AAVE only around black people. She thinks it's funny to say she has more black in her than I do because of the number of black men she's slept with. "So I can say the N word." (A. Ew, B. No) and other weird shit like that.

She irritates the fuck out of me sometimes. Like it's uncomfortable, it's embarrassing, it's cringey and no matter how much you call her out on it, she continues to do it.

I always find it funny that she says she can say the N word, but when I confront her about how she's called me and my brother niggers on multiple occasions (because "we were acting like it"), she starts panicking and tries to convince people I'm lying or says "I don't remember that".

I'm fed up and I can't wait to go home next week.

[naniyou]

Being mixed race especially sucks when people can’t tell I’m related to my dad and assume I’m a side hussy and honestly I puke in my mouth every time

[xbladekitkat85]

What growing up as half Japanese was like for me.

You take your shoes off in your home

You have house slippers.

You always tell people to take their shoes off inside.

Feel uncomfortable at other people's houses if they tell you to keep your shoes on inside.

Everyone asks you for help with math, and god, please stop.

Eating soba noodles for new years eve

Annual mochitsuki at church

People keep asking for anime recommendations as if I'm an encyclopedia of anime knowledge even though I don't watch that much of it.

Asking if I speak fluent Japanese, which I don't, I only know bits and pieces of the language. Enough to fake a conversation on the phone if I'm walking by myself and I feel unsafe.

"Teach me curse words in Japanese!"

Had an improv section for a theatre class. You were given a scenario and a language to imitate to try and convey the scene. Someone got Japanese and the first thing they say is "Hentai." Which translates to pervert basically. I felt very uncomfortable that day because the improv game was sort of racist.

Getting asked what my other ethnicity was (Mexican) and getting comments saying, "oh, that's so interesting, I've never talked to someone like you before."

I don't see a lot of representation of my specific heritage and I want to become that in the future for other kids who want it. The only person I can think of who is close to my ethnicity in media is Ryan Bergara, who is Mexican, Filipino and Japanese.

I am white passing which inevitably has people convinced I'm lying about who I am.

Which is annoying and feels invalidating.

[natcaptor]

The constant struggle of being mixed rn (for me at least) is wondering “am I black enough to talk about racism??” After having experienced racism and knowing I don’t pass as white. And I know a lot of other mixed kids are probably having this problem for a ton of reasons.

Like how white ppl think it’s cool to say that we look “ethnically ambiguous” as a compliment and highlight how much better we look than other black peoples . Or, maybe (like me), your black parent has a complicated relationship with their race so you don’t know if you’re connected to your heritage enough to speak on it. Or black kids at school didn’t think you were black enough, even though you weren’t ever white enough either. And maybe you were raised mostly by your non black parent. And your non-black parent may not be white, but I can’t speak to those struggles though I know they exist.

If you read this and you’re a black mixed person: I see you. I feel your pain. You are enough. We are enough. Your trauma is just as real as any other black person’s is. No matter what you’ve been told or taught. This is our fight too, this is our community. We belong here and our voices matter.

[raciallyconfused]

unpopular opinion: mixed race editon

mixed kids aren’t ‘trying’ to be like you or everyone else when they speak, behave and dress according to ‘your’ culture. you don’t have the authority to decide whether they identify with their culture. you don’t get to tell them who they are and aren’t.

[lilkeeree]

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Taking my memere to her appointments is always a trip when the ppl at the office think youre the helper or something and not her granddaughter lmao

[whitepassingpocs]

im half black half white (not white passing, but i also dont look black at all either) and that puts me in a very weird position where other poc act like im just a watered down black person but i also don't look white either! its so frustrating but im glad this blog exists even though im not white passing these posts help

i’m happy the posts help even if they’re not exactly your experience. for what its worth, i don’t believe you’re a watered down black person. you’re black and you’re also white. its strange to me that non-mixed ppl will try to put us in one category even though by our very existence we can’t be. its frustrating because being mixed comes with its own distinct loneliness of not being fully accepted by any group. its part of the reason i started this blog!! so i could feel less lonely in these specific experiences so even though its frustrating pls know that you’re not alone in feeling this way and you’ve made me (and the followers of this blog) feel less alone in expressing this. and you’re always welcome here!

- m

[rxbiteme]

I grew up in a weird race void because I "wasn't really" Black or white.