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[wintersxsoul]

Fire Meets Gasoline (18)

Summary: You leave your city to start over in your best friend’s town, oblivious to the fact that you have an unexpected roommate. What will happen when fire meets gasoline?

Pairing: Loki x Female!Reader

Word Count: 1.5k-ish

Warnings: Maybe sex??? Like, no smut, just the reader remembering.

A/N: PLEASE READ THIS, IT’S VERY IMPORTANT. As we all know, Tumblr is not showing the posts that contain links, so I won’t be able to link the previous chapters or the masterlist. You have the link of the Masterlist on my profile and also the link to my taglist, so please check them out. WE ARE REACHING THE END FOLKS, I THINK I WILL WRITE ONE CHAPTER MORE AND THE EPILOGUE, HEHE. 

You woke up to an empty bed again. You stretched your arms and smiled remembering last night’s events. You felt like a huge burden had been taken off of your shoulders and now you could finally breathe.

The first night you slept with Loki, it was cold and loveless, you were both seeking pleasure and you were also drunk. But last night was a pure expression of love and adoration. He worshipped you and your body like a goddess, exploring every inch of skin with his lips, leaving kisses and marks everywhere. You learned all his weak spots and what drove him wild, spending as much time as you could caressing and loving his body.

You really thought sex was going to be weird since he was your best friend and he knew so much about you, but you were wrong.

“Are you finally going nuts?” Loki asked you from the door staring at you in awe since you were giggling alone. You sat down to look at him wrapping the duvet around your naked body. He was wearing a pair of pajama pants that hung loosely on his hips, his torso naked exposing all his muscles. He was carrying a tray with two cups of coffee and breakfast.

“Thinking of you makes me go nuts.” You answered him shooting after a huge sweet smile when he approached the bed. He left the tray next to you and leaned in to give your lips a small peck.

“Loki, stop thinking so loud and ask me whatever you want to know.” Your breakfast was almost finished when you realized something was off, Loki was usually the one that did all the talking in the mornings. He swallowed the strawberry he was chewing and cleared his throat nervously.

“I was thinking that maybe we could... I mean...If you want to...we could go together to tonight’s party?” You set aside your cup of coffee and stared at him frowning in confusion. You thought it was obvious since you already lived together and you both were going to the same party at Shay’s house, unless his question meant something deeper.

“Are you asking me to be your girlfriend?” You knew you sounded way too amused but seeing Loki all nervous and trying to be cute as fuck made you weak.

“Maybe?” You giggled and kissed him, sensing his body instantly relax when your skin touched his. You pulled away and smiled at him.

“Oh my god, I just remembered I have something for you!” You stood up and ran to your room, trying to remember where you placed the small box. Once you had it you ran back to Loki’s room and jumped on the bed, sitting down in front of a startled and confused Loki.

“Remember you asked me to buy for you a bow tie? Well, I did.” You handed him the small box and stared at him with a wide smile, waiting for his reaction. Loki took the little piece carefully, looking at every single detail in it. He looked up at you and smiled.

“I love it! It’s so original, thank you very much.” It was a black bow tie with little constellations in white and it perfectly matched your dress, that’s why you bought it, even though you were just friends when you did. Deep down, you knew you were going together to that party.

“You know what’s the best of it?” Loki shook his head and waited for you to answer.

“It matches my dress.”

-

When Loki saw you in your dress he thought that the statement that he was in love was not accurate enough. You were fixing your hair in the bathroom so you totally missed the look in his face and the silent tears that fell from his green eyes. He felt so overwhelmed by all the feelings he was experimenting all at once. He was always the second best for everyone but his mother, and when she died, he thought no one would ever love him as much as she did. Loki was totally wrong.

“Do you think this is going to work out?” You stopped dead in your tracks, ignoring the freezing air of the winter night. You stood in front of him and pressed your hand to his chest.

“If you don’t want to go, we can always order takeout and have dinner at home.” Loki shook his head, feeling guilty because you didn’t get the question he was implicitly asking.

“I mean us. I don’t want to lose you, ever.” He looked at the hand you had pressed on his chest, trying to avoid your gaze. With your other hand, you cupped his cheek and made him look at you.

“We’ve been inseparable friends for two months, roommates for almost a year. You know me better than anyone and I know you just as well.” He leaned into your touch and let out a sigh. “We might be like fire and gasoline, but I would rather burn with you than walk away from this because I’m scared.”

“Are you scared?” Loki asked trying not to cry with your confession. He gulped and looked at you with glazed eyes, the fear permanent in his stare. You moved the hand from his face to his chest, so both of your hands were now resting there.

“Of course I am. But I’ve been afraid for too long, trying to fill my empty heart with sex and alcohol and the only thing that worked was you. I’m in love with you, every little part that makes you you. Besides, we haven’t fought since we became friends, so there’s nothing to worry about.”

“You might be right. I guess then we should burn tonight.” He smirked at you and you hit his chest playfully laughing alongside him.

After dinner, you were chatting lively with Bucky about the exhibition he was preparing while Shay and Loki were nowhere to be seen, probably talking about their stuff more privately.

“So, I can guess things with Loki went okay?” Bucky asked you, a wide grin telling you he already knew your answer. You threw at him a bashful smile, your cheeks burning in embarrassment.

“Yes, we finally admitted our feelings so I guess we are now together?” You shrugged and waited for his answer, but just when he was about to talk, Shay and Loki entered the room to make an announcement. Everyone fell silent and stared at them.

“As you all know...Buck come here” She gestured for Bucky to move besides her and so he did. “As I was saying, you all know we’ve been together for five years and I’m 1000% sure he is the love of my life, so…” Shay kneeled in front of Bucky and took out a small velvet box, grinning like a dork. “Would you marry me?”

Bucky lifted her from the floor in a hug and spun her around, her dress floating like a cloud. He kissed her with tears in his eyes and answered a million times yes. You were shedding a few happy tears for your friends and looked at Loki, who was staring at them crying as well. He looked at you and gestured you to go next to him, so you stood up confused and went to his side.

“You are not asking me to marry you, right?” You asked him in his ear jokingly, but just in case you wanted to let him know.

“You will see now.” Loki started clapping and congratulating the couple and the whole room did the same, all their friends cheering them and joking about the odd proposal. After their moment died down, Loki cleared his throat and held your hand, everyone’s attention now focused on you two. You were starting to panic, your hands sweating, not sure what was going on right now.

“Hello dear friends. I want to introduce you to Y/n, my not so newly found muse and the woman I am in love with.” Everyone gasped and Loki laughed. “By your reactions, I’m sure you all read my new book, so she is the one Sassa, the protagonist, is inspired in.” He kept talking about the book for a while and you quietly moved to your seat, overwhelmed by the fact that one of your favorite characters of all times was inspired by you. Now that you thought of it, you found the resemblances in the plot and in the main characters. Loki wrote about you and him even before you were a thing or even friends. That meant he had been in love with you a long while but instead of telling you, he wrote about it. You looked at him and felt a warmness fill your heart when you caught him staring at you already with a wide smile.

The television was broadcasting live the party at Rockefeller Center and when the clock struck midnight, you kissed Loki. All the sounds and voices around you disappearing until all you could feel was him.  

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[wintersxsoul]

Fire Meets Gasoline (17)

Summary: You leave your city to start over in your best friend’s town, oblivious to the fact that you have an unexpected roommate. What will happen when fire meets gasoline?

Pairing: Loki x Female!Reader

Word Count: 1.5k-ish

Warnings: You are welcome hoes.

A/N: PLEASE READ THIS, IT’S VERY IMPORTANT. As we all know, Tumblr is not showing the posts that contain links, so I won’t be able to link the previous chapters or the masterlist. You have the link of the Masterlist on my profile and also the link to my taglist, so please check them out. I was supposed to post this last sunday since it was my birthday present for you, but I didn’t have the inspiration to. As always, I hope you enjoy.

“Y/n, I don’t want to be rude or meddle but-”

“Then don’t.” You cut Shay off. After what happened in the bookshop, Shay and Bucky offered you to stay with them for as long as you needed, thinking that you would just stay for the rest of the day, not for almost two days. You knew you were overreacting by pushing Loki away and giving him the silent treatment, even when he came to see you to talk to you but after a few tries, he decided to give you the space you needed. He stopped calling, texting and showing up, he knew for sure you would want to talk to him sooner or later.

“Well, I have to. You need to talk to him, or at least hear what he has to say.” You rolled your eyes annoyed, because you knew she was right. You began to protest but Bucky cut you off.

“Y/n, you should hear it from him but since you are being a stubborn child, I’ll tell you. He didn’t tell you because as you know, he is a very famous writer and the tabloids are always waiting to expose anything.” Bucky sighed loudly and kept talking. “When he showed up to one of our last exhibitions, there was a rumor saying we were a polyamorous relationship. He just wanted to protect you from all this.” You fell silent, the stupidity of your acts weighting on your chest. Bucky shook his head in disagreement and left the room, Shay looking at you with a huge grin plastered on her face.

“What?” You asked her raising an eyebrow fighting the urge to smile at her face.

“Do you realize you sucked your idol’s dick?” She bursted out laughing when you hit her with a pillow, her laugh making you laugh as well. After almost ten minutes laughing like maniacs, you wiped your tears and laid down on the bed, sighing while closing your eyes.

“I should really go home and talk to him, right?” Shay answered a “yup” and patted your leg, she stood up from the bed and made her way out of the room.

“You better get the fuck out of my house soon if you don’t want Bucky to murder you.” She added from the door between laughs. “He’s been trying to fuck my brains out on the kitchen counter but…” She whispered and shrugged, winking an eye at you and closing the door behind her. You shook your head and tried to control your laughter.

After you gathered your stuff, you went to the kitchen to tell Shay and Bucky you were leaving and found them in a very intense makeout session. Shay was sitting in the counter and Bucky was kissing and groping her everywhere.

“Uhm, guys I’m gonna go home. Thank you so much for everything and yeah, bye!” You didn’t even stop or waited for them to answer and bolted out of the apartment. You grabbed your phone and opened Loki’s chat, scrolling through all his messages you left on read. All of them pained you but not as much as the last one.

Loki: I know you are hurt and I played with your trust, but I want you to know that I’d never hide you from anyone and I would love to let the world know my heart is only yours. I don’t expect you to come back soon, since I know you need your time to process what I’ve done, I just hope you will try to forgive me. I am truly sorry and I hope this isn’t too broken, I really want to fix this.  

You wiped a silent tear that fell from your eyes and texted him asking if he was at home and you received and immediate response, he was waiting for you. He waited for you.

As you walked down the streets, the cold air hitting your face like sharp knives, you were thinking about how stupid you had been, leaving him like that for almost two days and not even daring to pick up the phone or answer a text. You decided it was time to call the only person that new Loki more than you did.

“Hello? Thor?”

-

After more than an hour speaking to Thor, everything seemed to be much clearer. When you told him that you were in love with Loki he just laughed, admitting that he knew what was going to happen as soon as you two really got to know each other and that it was all planned from the start. The advice he gave you was not to run away from his brother, since he also had his own traumas and bad experiences. Odin, his father, made him feel abandoned and rejected so it was very hard for him to trust that someone else wouldn’t do the same. You knew damn too well you would never do that to him, but as Thor said “Loki is not in your mind to know what you are feeling and thinking”.

You gave your cigarette a couple of more puffs and threw it away, taking a deep breath and entering the apartment building. The elevator ride was eternal, your hand sore because you couldn’t stop scratching it due to the anxiety you were feeling.

As soon as Loki heard the keys on the lock his heart sank deeper in his chest, the strong fear of remorse and rejection hitting him like a truck. He stood up and ran to the bathroom trying to fix the disaster he was. His hair was a greasy tangled mess so he combed it and made a braid, he brushed his teeth rapidly and washed his face with cold water to clear his mind. When he came out of the bathroom, he found you sitting in the couch looking at him, a sad smile on your lips. He tried his best not to run to your arms and crush you with his body so instead, he walked slowly and sat on the other side of the couch, waiting for you to make the first move.

What he would have never imagined was you throwing yourself into his arms pressing his body to yours.

“Oh god Loki, I’ve missed you so much, I am so sorry.” You cried, all the pent up emotions finally flowing out of your mind. You started rambling and mumbling unintelligible apologies while Loki just sat there, stroking gently your hair, waiting for you to calm down.

“Love, there’s nothing to forgive. I should be the one apologizing for being such a jerk. I know I should have told you as soon as we talked about our jobs. But I didn’t and then everything happened way too fast and I thought it was too late to tell you.”

“I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life but the worst one was letting you leave from that book store without an explanation.” You opened your mouth to say something but he cut you off.

“No, please. Let me finish, because if I don’t do this now, I’ll probably never be able to say it.” You nodded when you realized he was waiting for your permission so he could keep speaking.

“These past days had been like hell for me, I couldn’t eat or sleep and all I could think about was you. I’ve missed you like I’ve never missed anyone else in my life and even though I’ve known this since the first time I really saw you, I’ve realized I’m totally and crazy in love with you. There’s no one else for me, just you.” He took a deep breath and stared at you, waiting for some sort of answer in your shocked expression.

“Y/n? I’m sorry if this is too much, I just had to get it off my chest.” You really wanted to answer that you loved him too, that you felt the same way, but your voice was not coming out of your mouth, so you just pressed your head against his chest and cried again, all the new emotions overwhelming you. You managed to stop crying after a while and looked at him, ready to talk.

“I- I really thought I knew what love was. I was certain that I was in love with Eric and that he was the one. But you buried yourself so deep in my heart that now I don’t know who I even was before I met you. You’ve been there when I needed you the most and you‘ve taught me to embrace myself and my weirdness, you’ve taught me how to love and how to be loved.” You pressed your forehead against his, closing your eyes and letting the last tears run down your cheeks. Loki wiped them off and placed his hand on your cheek, stroking your skin with his thumb. You leaned in and pressed your lips against his, trying to reassure his fears and trying to make him feel all the love you had for him.

Loki deepened the kiss and you straddled him, wanting and needing to be closer to him. You broke the kiss and looked at him, finally understanding the odd look he always had when he looked at you. Love and desire.

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[wintersxsoul]

Fire Meets Gasoline (11)

Summary: You leave your city to start over in your best friend’s town, oblivious to the fact that you have an unexpected roommate. What will happen when fire meets gasoline?

Pairing: Loki x Female!Reader

Word Count: 2k-ish?

Warnings: Angst bitches, we love that

A/N: hehehe

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8 - Part 9 - Part 10 / Series Masterlist

After what happened at Christmas Eve with Loki, you tried to avoid thinking about it, thinking that maybe it was the alcohol making you paranoid, because between you and him, there was nothing.

Loki knew avoiding you was wrong, he needed to clear his mind and focus on his work, but everytime he tried to think about something else, you popped into his mind. He was at the kitchen having his third coffee, since he couldn’t sleep last night, the nightmares waking him and haunting him. He heard steps coming from your room and he knew it was too suspicious to leave the kitchen now, since you knew he was there, so he just breathed a couple of times trying to gather his thoughts and get back to the forgotten book on the counter.

You entered the kitchen, the smell of freshly brewed coffee filling your sleepy senses. You closed your eyes for a second and smiled, totally ignoring the fact that Loki was staring at you wide eyed, his heart pounding loudly on his chest at the sight of you. You were wearing a big long shirt, your hair pulled up in a messy ponytail and last night’s makeup smudged under your eyes. You thought when you looked at yourself in the mirror that you looked gross, but he thought he’d never seen you more beautiful. Loki shook his head at his thoughts and cleared his throat, focusing back on his book right on time, before you opened your eyes.

“Good morning, babe.” You smiled at him and he lifted his head from the book he seemed too immersed in. His green eyes looked at your hazel ones, that odd glint in his eyes again.

“Hey. I made coffee for you.” You grinned and reached for your cup and poured the dark elixir of gods into it.

“By the way, don’t call me babe, please.” He said between laughs and you followed him. You sat in silence next to him for about five minutes, thinking about what you could say, but just when you were about to open your mouth, a message popped in your phone.

Shay: Bitch, get ready. I will pick you up in an hour, we are going shopping.

You smiled at your phone and Loki frowned, not even trying to hide the pang of jealousy he felt. You looked at him, still smiling but it fell as soon as you saw his expression.

“Shay just texted me, we are going shopping in an hour. Do you need anything for the party?” As soon as he heard your friend’s name, he felt like he could breathe again and he smiled.

“I really need a bow tie for my suit, so if you could please bring me one?” You nodded, taking a sip of your coffee, closing your eyes at the sensation of warmth you thought the hot liquid was giving you. You finished your drink, you went to get ready as fast as you could and stepped out of your room, expecting Loki to be in the kitchen, but he was already blasting his music. You knocked on his door, not knowing why. Subconsciously, you wanted him to see your outfit, remembering the face he made when he first saw you in your leather jacket and combat boots. He opened the door and stepped outside, his body not letting you see his room. He looked at you from head to toes, and frowned when he reached your face, wondering what you wanted.

“I’m leaving now, I’ll be back after work, so maybe we could watch a movie or something?” You shrugged, the confidence you felt, leaving you. He nodded and rubbed the back of his head nervously.

“I’m…” He cleared his throat. “I mean, yeah. Sounds great.” You smiled widely, suddenly excited for tonight.

“So, uhm, I gotta go.” You turned around frowning and shaking your head at yourself for sounding so stupid

-

“I can’t afford that gown and I also think is too much.” You stated while reading the menu on the greek restaurant. You heard Shay huff and you looked up.

“Listen, I am ridiculously rich, so consider it my late Christmas present.” She left no room to argue, looking back at her menu. You knew the dress was a work of the gods as soon as you saw it, even the dress had a goddess’ name. The gown was made of black tulle with a black silk lining, hand-embroidered in gold threadwork, creating constellations on the skirt and a gold bullion bodice. Shay convinced you to try it even though it was see-through, with a very long v neckline and expensive as fuck, and of course you fell in love with it as soon as you saw yourself in it.

“You know that dress was made for you. So please, consider it.” You thought that maybe when you started eating, she would forget about the dress, but she was stubborn. She tried a dress from the same designers that was amazingly gorgeous but she said it looked too similar to yours.

“I will let you buy me that expensive as fuck dress if you buy the one you tried, no excuses.” She swallowed her food and sighed, rolling her eyes.

“Deal. But I hope you know that right now, I love this tzatziki more than I love you.” You laughed at her words and shook your head. You were so glad you met Shay and Bucky, you hit it off immediately with them, specially with her. Since Val left to live with her girlfriend abroad, you felt kind of lonely, missing a close friendship with a woman. Loki was an amazing friend, but sometimes you needed this kind of dates with friends.

“Bitch, I can’t wait to see Loki’s face when he sees you in this fucking gown.” You looked at her, fear on your eyes, and asked her what she meant with that. Loki and you were just friends, nothing else. Just friends.

“Are you still lying to yourself, making you think you are just friends?”

“Shay, I really don’t know what you mean. I really believe we are just friends. I recently had a bad experience and-”

“Yeah, yeah, I know what happened with that asshole. But that doesn’t answer my question. What are you so afraid of?” You anxiously looked around the coffee shop, trying to avoid eye contact. After lunch, you went to buy the dresses and you decided it was a good idea to have a coffee before your shift at the bookshop. You inhaled and sighed heavily, looking at her brown eyes.

“I-I don’t know, Shay. I’m just terrified.” You stuttered, feeling the tears in the corner of your eyes. You closed your eyes and gulped, trying to swallow your unknown feelings, trying to avoid any kind of enlightenment towards your friendship with Loki. You needed him, you couldn’t afford to lose him as well.  

“Just don’t force yourself to ignore what’s in front of you, out of fear.” You nodded and held her hand in yours.

“Thank you, for this and for your friendship. I know it’s been less than a week, but I feel like I’ve known you forever.” She squeezed your hand and smiled at you, agreeing with you . You had the feeling that she would play an important role in your life as soon as you met her and what you did today, was just the confirmation of it.

You were walking to your work, speaking lively with her about your plans for the party they were throwing in New Year’s Eve. You stopped dead in your tracks when you saw the poster on the bookshop’s door. You jumped excited and Shay was staring at you in awe.

“Oh my god, my favorite writer is doing a book sign next week!!” You looked closely at the information and remembered that that exact day, it was your day off, so you could go with someone.

“You like the God of Mischief?” Shay asked amused, the tone of her voice indicating she knew something you didn’t, but right now you were so happy you could combust.

“I adore him! He is my favorite writer. Would you come with me? Please?” You asked her with pleading eyes and she couldn’t say no. This is going to be fun, Shay thought to herself.

“I’ll take the bags to my house, since we’ll be getting ready together, so don’t worry about them. Have a good afternoon, hoe.” You blowed Shay a kiss and watched her as she left, your mind suddenly wandered, thinking about the conversation you had about Loki and you.

You were piling the new arrivals on the floor and started placing the books on the shelves, when an idea popped. You needed to have a few drinks and meet someone new, you hadn’t had sex since Eric, so maybe that’s what you needed to clear your mind. It was impossible you liked Loki, even more impossible him liking you. Right?

Once your shift was over, you headed straight to The Black Moon, totally forgetting about the movie night with Loki. You had only one thing in mind, get wasted and fuck someone new tonight. That’s all you wanted and needed. Five hours later, you were stumbling in your apartment with a guy named Sam next to you, totally oblivious to the fact that Loki was still awake, sick worried because he thought something happened to you, since you weren’t picking up your phone or answering his text messages.

You spent almost all the night awake with Sam, but after you were done, he left. The sunlight was strong, so you assumed it was pretty late. You stood up and went straight to the bathroom, taking a hot shower and your body craving for coffee. You frowned when you walked towards the kitchen, Loki was sitting in his usual spot with his book, his headphones plugged in and a cup of coffee on his hand, no coffee for you.

“Hey there.” You said in a loud tone trying to get him to hear you. He looked up from his book and glared at you, his stone cold attitude you haven’t seen in months, back. He unplugged one earphone and spoke in a harsh tone.

“Would you look at that? You are alive.” He spat. If looks could kill, you would be dead right now.

“What’s wrong?” You frowned confused, not sure what was going on.

“Well, what should I begin with? Uhm maybe the fact that you stood me up last night and never said anything? Or maybe the fact that you brought someone here and were so fucking loud I couldn’t sleep? Or maybe you not fucking telling me you were out, so I didn’t have to be worried the whole fucking night because you didn’t answer your phone?” He stood up and stared at you coldly.

“I hope I was clear enough, Y/n.” He was about to leave when you reached for his hand and stopped him. You knew that what you did was fucked up, and if you were being honest with yourself, it didn’t help you clear your mind at all.

“I’m so sorry, Loki. I had a hard day at work and I totally forgot. I’m so sorry.” You said with pleading eyes. He hesitated, but finally he nodded.

“It’s okay, next time, please inform me or someone else. I can’t add my worry for you to my already long ass list of stressful stuff.” He squeezed your hand and pulled you to him, embracing you in his arms. You breathed in his cinnamon and lavender scent and a shiver ran down your spine, making you pull off abruptly.

“I need to get back to work. I have a lot of reading to do and all that stuff book editors do.” He smiled at you sweetly, but it never reached his eyes.

“Yeah, I have to die peacefully in my bed to pass this hangover.” You said to him, his back already facing you.

“What the fuck is going on with you, Y/n?” You asked yourself when you felt your heart pounding loudly on your chest, the scent of Loki still embracing your senses.

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[wintersxsoul]

Fire Meets Gasoline (12)

Summary: You leave your city to start over in your best friend’s town, oblivious to the fact that you have an unexpected roommate. What will happen when fire meets gasoline?

Pairing: Loki x Female!Reader

Word Count: 1.4k-ish?

Warnings: I don’t even know why I worry in writing down the warnings since you all thirsty hoes never read them. Anyways, enjoy.

A/N: I deserve an award for coping with you all I swear. I love you very much but you whine way too much knowing my ass is a lover of angst.

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8 - Part 9 - Part 10 - Part 11 / Series Masterlist

You expected the bar to be less packed but apparently people really loved Queen in this city. 

You were in front of Loki, your back pressed to his chest, everyone around you pushing and elbowing to get closer to the stage. As Bohemian Rhapsody came to an end, the aftermaths of the loud chorus and the cigarettes you smoke making your voice raspy and your throat hurt. We Will Rock You started to play right away, making you spin around and stare at Loki who was already looking at you with a knowing look.

”Not to be rude, but I kind of hate this song because of you.” Loki made a fake hurt face, pressing his hand to his chest and you smiled at him.

“How can you hate this song? It’s a fucking BOP, Y/n.” He said as he leaned in, his lips brushing lightly on your ear. A shiver ran down your spine but you ignored it, deciding it was because of the music.

You nodded and smirked at him. “It is, but not at 8am with a terrible hangover.”

You turned back around to face the stage and screamed the lyrics passionately, Loki looking down at you in awe, his heart swelling. You seemed to be finally okay after all you had to go through due to that asshole, and he was so happy he got to see you bloom. The music disappeared for him, his focus just on you and your voice. You clutched your hand on your chest, right above your heart, when you heard the first piano notes of Somebody To Love. When the first chorus was over, you had tears in your eyes already, your heart racing and your voice cracked, your emotions all over the place. You suddenly felt a hand brushing your shoulder, fingertips slowly moved down your arm, caressing each centimeter of skin until they reached your hand and without much further ado, you held his hand in yours.

Loki’s eyes widened when he felt you held his hand, your thumb stroking his knuckles. When the last part of the song played, he squeezed your hand, trying to make you notice what he was feeling, but you totally missed it, thinking he saw you cry and he was just giving you comfort.

You were shivering on the way back to Loki’s bike, your hands still intertwined and you really tried your best to think it was just platonic, two friends holding each others hands after a magical night at a concert. Nothing romantic.

“Are you cold?” Loki’s voice startled you from your thoughts, suddenly his hand burning yours, so you let go and took a few steps away from him.

“Yeah, let’s just get home,have some beers and watch Netflix.” He nodded and opened the seat of his bike, taking out his leather jacket and a huge green scarf, handing the latter item to you. He was wearing a thick sweater, so maybe that’s why he didn’t need the scarf. You were wearing a red floral dress, with your black combat boots and a thin green bomber jacket, so of course you were freezing. You hopped on the bike, instantly wrapping your arms around Loki’s waist, placing your cheek on his back, breathing in his scent.

-

All lights were off, a few empty bottles of beer scattered on the small table in front of the couch, your legs propped up in Loki’s lap and his on the table. The only light illuminating the room and your faces was the tv screen, the second episode of The Haunting of Hill House loudly playing.

“This show is amazing. I can’t believe I didn’t know Shirley Jackson until now.” Loki stated, still looking at the screen focused on finding the hidden ghosts in the background.

“I discovered her when I read her book We Have Always Lived In The Castle. It’s ugh, amazing.”

It was almost 2am when you turned off the tv, both of you dragging your tired bodies to your respective bedrooms. You threw yourself to the bed, your face propped on the pillow and you immediately fell asleep.

Loki couldn’t sleep, the images of the show running wild on his mind. He tried his best to think about something else, about you, about the concert, but nothing seemed to turn off the scary images. He finally fell asleep an hour later, his last thing on his conscious mind was your smiling face.

“Y/n? What are you doing here? He heard himself saying in a soft voice, afraid you could vanish at any moment. You were laying next to him, facing the white walls of his room. He propped up on his elbow, trying to get a better look at you, but he couldn’t see your face.

“Y/n? What’s wrong?” He shook your shoulder lightly, trying to get your attention, but you didn’t answer at all, not even a flinch. His heart was racing, thinking that maybe something wrong happened to you and you couldn’t speak or move. He turned on the light and moved your body, finally seeing your face.

“Y/N!! Y/N!!” He shouted while crying, seeing your limp body. Your beautiful face was grey with cracks, your mouth black due to the decay of your flesh, your eyes white, lifeless.

“Y/N NO!” He screamed once more, his body falling on top of yours.

You stormed in Loki’s room, hearing his loud cries calling out your name. His body was stiff, gripping the duvet so strongly his knuckles were white, a thin layer of sweat running down his forehead. His face was the pure and raw expression of fear, his eyes shut harshly and his mouth slightly opened, trying to breathe. His jaw was clenched and his hair sticking to his face due to the sweat. You ran to his side, and started shaking him trying to wake him up.

“Loki, wake up. It’s just a nightmare.” You could hear the pain in your own voice, your heart aching for him.

“Loki, please!!” You shouted after a few more tries, shaking him strongly. He opened his eyes and sat up on the bed, scanning your face.

“Hey, hey. You’re okay now.” You caressed his face, waiting for him to react. He pushed your body to his and hugged you, resting his head on your shoulder, hiding his face in your neck. You ran both of your hands up and down his back, trying to soothe his sobs.

“Shh, you are okay now. It was just a nightmare.” His grip on you loosened, but that was all he did. You started rocking your bodies like he once did with you, your hand finding his head and stroking a few strands of black hair.

After what felt like hours, you asked him if he needed or wanted to talk about it, but he shook his head. He let you go and sat against his headboard, inhaling and exhaling trying to steady his breathing.

“I’m not watching that tv show anymore.” Loki said a small smile forming on his lips. You laughed and shook your head, not really understanding why he kept watching scary shit if he didn’t like it.

“Hey, I just remembered. We should check flights to Norway soon, the wedding is in a couple of months right??” Loki nodded enthusiastically and he felt his heart swell when you smiled at him like that. He never saw you smiling like that to anybody and it made him feel privileged, to have someone that cared for him as much as you did and him being able to care for you back.

“Yep. We really need to call Thor and Jane, it’s been a while since we last spoke with them.”

“We can worry about that tomorrow, now you have to go back to sleep.” His eyes scanned your face once again, and you smiled at him, waiting for him to speak out his mind.

“Would you mind sleeping with me tonight? Please?” Your eyes widened at his request, but before you could think about it, your mouth was replying.

“I’ll stay.”

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[wintersxsoul]

Fire Meets Gasoline (9)

Summary: You leave your city to start over in your best friend’s town, oblivious to the fact that you have an unexpected roommate. What will happen when fire meets gasoline?

Pairing: Loki x Female!Reader

Word Count: 1.5k-ish?

Warnings: None, my dorks 

A/N: hehe

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8 / Series Masterlist

Loki was sitting in the middle of the couch, watching every move you made around the living room, nervously. He knew agreeing to watch The Notebook with you was the worst idea ever, but something deep inside him made him say yes. Maybe it was the way you said it, with that particular glint in your eyes he knew too well already or maybe it was his pathetic excuse that you couldn’t watch such a sappy movie alone in your state of mind. Loki was not a fool, but he tried so hard to not admit the truth to himself, which was that he trusted you completely, as much as you trusted him. He knew it was his time to be vulnerable around you, letting you see his real self, open up to you. You took a huge risk letting him see yourself; the vampire freak, the cold one night stand and the heartbroken woman. You barely knew things about his life or his tastes. What you knew, you learned it by yourself, by being an excellent observer. You knew Loki adored black coffee with no sugar in the mornings, he loved Queen with all his bisexual ass, a fact you really had to learn on your fucking own since he used to play it every damn morning. He was always reading, mostly Shakespeare, he was a book editor and worked from home, that’s why no one could never enter his room without his permission.

“Are you gonna take the whole couch or what?” You said while approaching him, the movie started playing in the TV. He moved slowly, his eyes never meeting yours, so you could sit in one extreme and him, on the other, placing the bowl of popcorn in the middle.

As the movie progressed, you realized that Loki was too focused on something else, and since you were no witch, you decided to ask him after 15 minutes more passed.

“What are you thinking about? You don’t like it?” Maybe that was the reason he looked so tense, you forced him to watch it after he told you he’d never seen it before.

“Ryan Gosling is a masterpiece in this movie.” He said after a few minutes in silence, staring at the screen.

“Yeah, he portrays Noah amazingly.” You added, totally thinking he meant his acting.

“Wasn’t talking about that, but go off sis.” You stared at him amused and chuckled, he looked at you and smirked.

You were silent again, immersed in the movie, when you heard Loki whispering something under his breath. You looked at him, thinking that maybe he was complaining about the sappiness of the pier scene, but your eyes widened when you realized he knew the lines, by heart.

“I wrote you 365 letters. I wrote you everyday for a year...it wasn't over, it still isn't over!” You burst out laughing, making Loki’s head snap to look at you, fear crossing his eyes.

“I can explain.” He blurted out. You couldn’t stop laughing, the fact that he lied to you telling you he didn’t know the movie when he really knew it, probably by heart. It was a two hour long movie, with a lot of dialogues and long lines, so he must have seen it A LOT to know each word so perfectly.

“I can’t believe you made a fool of me, making me think you are a tough guy with no feelings apart from hatred towards sappy shit. And here you are, quoting Noah Calhoun.” You said pointing at the movie, completely missing the sex scene.

“Look, sorry I lied, but this was exactly why I didn’t want to tell you about it.” Loki stood up but before he could move to leave, you grabbed his hand to stop him. You looked at him and sweetly smiled, understanding him completely.

“Hey, I get it, I do that too. Sorry.” He nodded and sat next to you.

“This movie means a lot to me, it was my mother’s favorite one. We used to watch it all the time.” You could feel his sadness through his trembling voice and it immediately made you feel like an asshole. You reached for his hand and held it in yours, squeezing it, trying to give him comfort.

“She was the one who taught me all I know about literature, art, music and cinema. She was such an angel. I never deserved her.” Loki fought the tears that were threatening to fall, but when he looked into your eyes, he lost it. You were shedding silent tears, feeling the pain of Loki’s words towards his mother.

“You did deserve her Loki, you are...I don’t even know where to start. You are by far, the best thing that’s happened to me this year and I’m so glad I moved in. You are extraordinary.” You hugged him tightly to your chest, his head resting on your shoulder, his breath fanning your neck, sending you shivers down your spine.

You pulled away after a few minutes, holding Loki’s face with your hand so he looked at you.

“You don’t have to pretend with me, you’re my best friend, I would never, ever judge you.” You caressed his jaw with your fingertips and leaned in to plant a kiss on his forehead. Loki stared at you in awe, not sure how to feel about the fact that it was the first time someone showed him this kind of affection, besides his mother, Frigga.

“You are my best friend too, Y/n. I hope you know that.” You nodded, not wanting to say something stupid and ruin the moment.

-

“Are you sure I can go?” You stuck your head out of the bathroom to ask Loki, who was probably getting dressed to meet his friends.

“Yes, they were the ones who suggested me to invite you actually.”

“So hurry the fuck up.” He added, making you roll your eyes and close the door again to get ready. As you blow dried your hair, you thought about the afternoon you spent with Loki, which was supposed to be a fun sappy afternoon watching The Notebook, but it turned out to be a huge mess. You were happy he finally opened up and showed himself, but you were also worried for all his pent up emotions.

“Loki, do I really have to dress up?” You shouted through the closed door, waiting for him to answer. He opened his door and revealed himself, the sight in front of you made you gasp. He was wearing a black suit, with a black shirt and a black tie. He looked so ethereal and gorgeous with his raven locks slightly slicked back, with some loose strands that framed his sharp pale face.

“You look…”

“Spectacular? Dazzling? Breathtaking? Beautiful?” You rolled your eyes and gave him a bored look.

“...like a witch.” He smirked and nodded ironically, knowing you were going to say something completely different.

“We gotta leave in half an hour, so you better be ready, Y/n.”  

“Yeah, yeah. I know.” You turned around and went to your room to get dressed. You chose a dark green silk-satin wrap gown with a plunging V neckline, spaghetti straps that cross at the low back and a one side slit. You wore golden accessories and a fake black fur coat, and since the dress was floor length, you decided to wear your black combat boots.

You wanted to spend Christmas at home with your parents, but since you were going to start working in a couple of days at the bookshop, it wasn’t worth it to go, plus, you were actually pretty excited to meet Loki’s friends. He invited you because Shay and Bucky really insisted him, since he never stopped talking about you.

You were finishing your makeup when Loki barged in the room, startling you, almost making you drop the lipstick.

“We gotta...go” He was staring at you wide eyed, his mouth slightly opened and his eyes scanning your outfit. Loki couldn’t keep his eyes off you until you shifted awkwardly in the spot and cleared your throat.

“Is it too much? I can change fast.” You said while taking a look at yourself in the mirror. You raised your head to look at him, his eyes already on yours.

“No, you look...ravishing is not even an accurate word.” You shyly smiled at him, your face turning a crimson red. You were used to being complimented, but when it was Loki, yu always felt taken aback with his sincerity.

“I’m just trying to look as good as you.” You rapidly answered, trying to keep it friendly, since that’s all there was.

“You’ve succeeded, then. Should we go?”

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[wintersxsoul]

Fire Meets Gasoline (7)

Summary: You leave your city to start over in your best friend’s town, oblivious to the fact that you have an unexpected roommate. What will happen when fire meets gasoline?

Pairing: Loki x Female!Reader

Word Count: 1.5k-ish?

Warnings: I don’t really know, Y/n suffers a panic/ anxiety attack.

A/N: Enjoy :) 

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 / Series Masterlist

You spent hours talking to Loki, night after night, finding out details about each other you would have never imagined. He told you he worked as a book editor, it was his biggest dream since his mother, Frigga, introduced him to literature, from the biggest classics, to mythology, romances and non fictional books. You found endearing the way he spoke about his mother, long gone due to a disease that took her life. Loki also told you about the toxic relationship he had with his father, who hid from him that he was adopted, making him believe he was unworthy of the family he had, always making him feel inferior and small. At first, he blamed Thor,  but as years went by, he realized he was the only person he could trust no matter what.

One rainy night, the bar half empty since it was almost the closing time, you received a text from Loki.

Loki: Come home as soon as you get out, alone.

You frowned, since he was always encouraging you to bring people over at night. You answered an Ok and tried not to think about it, but you failed, of course. Something about the whole night felt odd, and now adding the text. Maybe something happened to him? Or to Thor or Jane? Val took Rae to her hometown so she could meet her parents, so it could be nothing related with them. While you were overthinking and cleaning the bar, another message popped in.

Loki: I’m picking you up, be there in 10.

What the fuck was going on? You knew Loki wasn’t going out today cause he had a lot of reading to do, and it was almost 4 am. You finished closing the bar as fast as you could and stepped into the cold rainy night, scanning the street, looking for your friend.

You heard his bike approaching and shivered, your body reminding you the inappropriate dress you were wearing for this type of night. He stopped in front of you and got off the bike, handing you a small bag.

“What is this?” You asked opening the bag. Inside, there was a pair of his sweats and a hoodie.

“I knew you were wearing that tiny dress, it would really suck for you to die on me.” He smirked and waited for you to put on the cozy clothes on top of your dress.

“Ugh, I could kiss you right now.”

“Yeah, I would too. Anyway, hop on, we gotta go.” He said in a not so jokingly tone. You did what he told you without hesitation, still wondering what was going on. The ride back home was fast and when he parked, your blood froze in your veins.

“Who...Loki, who’s car is that?” You asked pointing towards the familiar car that was parked in front of the building. If it really was who you thought, you were doomed.

“A friend of yours? He came earlier asking for you, he said you invited him over.” Loki scanned your face, but it was devoid of emotion due to the shock. He was here, that meant he really cared for you after all. Maybe you were acting out of spite and just left without saying goodbye. Maybe, after all, he loved you back.

“Is he in the apartment?” Loki nodded firmly, still trying to understand what was going on. As soon as he saw your eyes widen, he understood it was more than just a friend.

“I think I’m calling Tom to sleep with him, so you can have some intimacy.” You wanted him to stay, so you didn’t have to face Eric on your own, your rational part was screaming at you, telling you to stop Loki from leaving, but you just nodded and told him something you don’t even remember anymore. Loki looked at you one more time as you entered the building, trying to guess what was going through your mind, worried for you. You never told him what made you leave, what made you be so cold, you never told him the guy you were about to see was the reason you were so scared of a shared bed. As you climbed the stairs to the third floor, your brain was running wild. Will he look like always? Did he changed his haircut? Was he going to smell sweet like he always did? Did he still smelled like home? You stopped dead in your tracks in front of your door, fixing your hair and looking at your clothes. You stripped off Loki’s clothes, wearing just the black velvet dress you wore that night. You sniffed your hair, realizing it smelled like your roommate. Would Eric mind if your hair smelled like Loki? Was he going to notice?

You inhaled and exhaled deeply a couple of times and entered the apartment. You could feel he was there, smelling his strong perfume from the entrance, already knowing where he was. You slowly walked to the living room, your anxiety skyrocketing, but every fear left your body as soon as you saw him, staring straight at you, a soft smile on his lips. You felt a pang of pain in your chest, almost a year without seeing him, missing him but trying to suppress those feelings for your own sake, tricking yourself so you could hate him. You dropped your stuff and ran towards him, jumping into his open arms, back home, forgetting everything he did, forgiving him, once more.

“Hey, stranger.” He said, letting you go. He caressed your cheek and pressed his lips on yours, making you melt into the kiss. Your brain reacted and you broke the kiss, taking a few steps away from him, wiping your lips.

“What are you doing here?” You tried to sound harsh and pissed, but your voice betrayed you, trembling.

“I texted you but I never got a reply, I also tried calling but I never could reach you. I thought maybe something happened to you.” Eric knew you blocked him, he knew why you left and he knew he still had you wrapped around his finger, that’s why he lied, knowing you were oblivious. You opened your mouth to reply, but he cut you off.

“I really missed you.” He saw in your eyes a flash of hope, his cue to once more, use you to his own benefits.

“I missed you, too.”

“Really? That’s why you never called or texted?” Once more, your guilty conscience betrayed you.

“I’m sorry, life got really busy and I-” He cut you off again, stepping closer to you.

“I really missed you, your lips, your body, your smell…” He was so close you could feel his breath fanning your lips. You made the mistake of looking into his hazel eyes, getting lost in them. This time, it was you who pressed your lips together, throwing out the window all kind of rational thinking. Eric felt powerful, finally he was getting one last fuck from you, because that’s why he was there, that’s why he came back. He wanted to ditch you, since you hurt his pride by ditching him all those months ago.

-

You sighed contently when the sun rays hit your face, knowing you were going to wake up next to him. You stretched your arm to touch his body, but all you found was an empty bed. You opened your eyes and frowned, scanning the room. There was no trace of him, not his clothes, or his phone. Nothing. You put on the clothes that you found closer and stepped out of the room, you heard someone rummaging in the drawers of the kitchen, so you followed your instinct.

“Rise and shine, beauty. Want some coffee?” Loki asked you lively, not even looking at you. You frowned, thinking it was Eric.

“Yes, please. Where is he?” A smile forming at the corner of your lips, hoping that Loki knew something. He finally turned around, taking in your looks. Your hair was a mess, your lips swollen, neck full of hickies and you were wearing the clothes he lend you last night.  

“What do you mean? You didn’t kick him out?” Confused, Loki placed the two cups of coffee on the kitchen countertop, setting yours in front of you.

“No, he...we...I let him sleep with me.” You brought your hands to your mouth, staring blankly at the floor, your whole face scrunching in pain. You felt your heart break again, the ache unbearable. You pressed your hand to your chest, where your aching heart was beating rapidly, your whole body trembling, silent tears falling from your eyes to the floor.

“Y/n? What happened?” Loki was next to you, held you in his arms, pressing your shocked body close to his, stroking your hair.

“He did it again.” You managed to say between sobs.

“Who was he, Y/n? You could hear the concern in his voice. Your knees gave in and Loki sat you both on the floor, sitting you in his lap, pressing your head to his chest, rocking your body slowly. After what felt like an eternity, the sobs and the nausea faded, leaving your body drained and numb.

“He was the reason I left.”

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[wintersxsoul]

Fire Meets Gasoline (5)

Summary: You leave your city to start over in your best friend’s town, oblivious to the fact that you have an unexpected roommate. What will happen when fire meets gasoline?

Pairing: Loki x Female!Reader

Word Count: 1.2k-ish?

Warnings: None ?

A/N: I was very bored at work this morning so I wrote this. I hope I am explaining everything correctly and if I don’t please let me know so I can do it in the following chapters or whatever. 

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 /  Series Masterlist

Weeks and months went by, Loki and you never spoke about what happened, well, you barely spoke at all, so why bring that up?

After Valerie’s date, you met up with her again to explain why you didn’t want anything more than a friendship. She understood the situation and told you that you could be friends, so of course you agreed and after a few months, she became your best friend. Loki kept bringing people at night, different men and women leaving the apartment every morning. To say his night sessions were loud was an understatement, so after a week of him doing that, you had enough, and started doing the same (kicking them out at night, of course). Most of your sex partners complained about what was happening in the room next to yours, but all you did was just trying to be louder than Loki.

You fought more often and he kept going to The Blood Moon to piss you off and to meet his random hook ups. Six months went by without you even realizing, the grief of your old life already healed. October was around the corner, and since it was your favorite month, you convinced your boss to give you your vacations, so you could enjoy the spooky month properly.

From the 1st of October to the 10th, you went back to your hometown to visit your family, staying in with your parents or going out but with them, you were anxious all the time, scared to see everyone you ran away from.

“Val, I’m not sure if I will ever recover from this asshole. I can’t even visit my parents without the fear of seeing him.” You were speaking on the phone with Val, oblivious to the fact that Loki was in the kitchen, trying not to eavesdrop but failing at it.

“Well, never mind. How are you, though?” You asked her without letting her comment anything about Eric.

“I’m good, Rae and I decided to take the next step in our relationship. And omg girl, I got promoted!! Can you believe?” You shouted back excited for your friend matching her own happiness. She met Rae at your bar four months ago and they hit it off immediately.

“I’m so happy for you two girls. The gays are finally having their moment.” You heard Val chuckle and you laughed, feeling genuinely happy for her.

“Well sis, I gotta go, I’m in the middle of my spooky marathon.” Val let out a loud sigh in a joking way.

“You’re a nerd. I love you and enjoy! And please try not to kill Loki!!” You hanged after saying your goodbyes.

You sighed and reached for the remote, but before you could hit play, Loki sat next to you on the couch and looked at you, smiling.

“Can I join you?” You looked at him frowning, trying to catch his intentions, but he seemed to really mean the question.

“Well, it’s your apartment after all, you can do whatever you want to.”

Loki shook his head.

“It is our apartment. Y/n, you...I’m” He cleared his throat and rubbed the back of his neck with his hand.

“I wanted to apologize for making you feel rejected when you first came here. I know it wasn’t your fault but...” He shrugged his shoulders and continued his apology. “There’s no one else to blame but me.”

You were looking at him in awe, not truly believing your ears. You blinked, not really knowing what to say.

“Look, it’s fine. I understand you. I would have done the same thing if someone unknown entered my life without permission. I just wish we could’ve had a better start.” You reply sincerely, glad that he started the conversation. He extended his hand for you to shake it, in a peace offering manner.

“Would be nice to start over? What do you say?” He asked, his hand still waiting for yours. You looked at it and then back to his face, a smirk forming on your lips. You shook his hand and nodded.

“Deal. Now, if you want to join me, fine. But we are watching whatever I choose, I’ve got a marathon to do.” He looked at you, curiously. He already knew about the “spooky marathon” since he overheard you speaking to Valerie, but he wanted to know more about it.

“Marathon? Of what?” You smiled and turned your body to his, excitedly, ready to explain your ritual. You clasped your hands together and started explaining, Loki looking at you with wide eyes.

“October is my favorite month, since it’s the spooky month. Every year, I try to watch as many vampire and zombie movies I can.” He nodded, so you continued.

“I’ve seen most of them a lot of times, but I just love them so much.”

Loki was amazed, he thought you were the rom com kind of girl, who loved sappy movies and hated scary shit. But he was wrong. You told him that you’ve always been a huge fan of vampires and zombies, horror films and books.

“So what movie are we watching today?” He asked, a bit terrified with the idea of watching a horror film, since he was the one who hated them.

“Today?” Was he planning to do the marathon with you?

“Yeah, like what is the movie you have planned for today?” Oh, okay. You normally liked to do the marathon alone, no one really understood why you did it or they didn’t even liked the movies you liked, so you just assumed no one wanted to do it.

“Uhmm, I was thinking of 1931 Dracula?” Loki nodded, not even knowing there was such an old version of the movie.

“You want a beer while I look for the movie?” You asked, excited to give him one of your special beers. You really needed new friends, the only one you had was Valerie and you felt lonely. Sure you met a lot of people and hooked up with even more, but it wasn’t the same. You needed and wanted someone to watch movies with, share your daily stories from the bar or just laugh with someone about stupid shit.

“Yes! But let me get them.” He said and stood up, but you stopped him.

“No, no. I have a new beer to try. The movie must be in the shelf next to the TV, why don’t you get it?” Loki went to the shelf and checked all the movies you had trying to find the one you asked for. While he read the titles, he realized almost all the movies you owned were gothic victorian romances, he knew some of them but they were practically unknown for him.

​You came back to the living room and found Loki staring at the shelf, looking through all your movies. You felt embarrassed, they were a very important piece of yourself and having an almost stranger reading all the titles you loved felt weird. You cleared your throat to announce yourself and he turned around. He saw the two bottles you had in your hand and let out a chuckle.

“Are you planning on murdering me and bathing in my blood?” You snorted jokingly and laughed. The beers were tinted in red and the bottles were like the “True Blood” tv show ones, and it looked real as fuck.

“Yeah, you wish. Let’s watch the movie.” You said while plopping down on the couch, followed by him.

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[wintersxsoul]

Fire Meets Gasoline (6)

Summary: You leave your city to start over in your best friend’s town, oblivious to the fact that you have an unexpected roommate. What will happen when fire meets gasoline?

Pairing: Loki x Female!Reader

Word Count: 1.5k-ish?

Warnings: I don’t really know, none I guess,

A/N: PLEASE SEND ME ASKS TO BE TAGGED, I AM A MESS AND I REALLY DON’T READ ALL THE COMMENTS CAUSE I DON’T HAVE TIME SKSKKS.

“I loved it! But I only have one question. They couldn’t find rats so they used armadillos?” Loki asked confused. Of course you knew the answer, when you first watched the movie and saw the armadillos, you did your research.

“Well, apparently in the 20s and 30s, armadillos weren’t very common, so moviemakers would use them as a creepy, “demonic” animal.” He stared at you with a weird expression, and you started to panic, thinking that maybe you were being too much.

“I’m sorry, I just...I don’t know.” Loki saw the shift in your expression and the excitement glint in your eyes disappear. He couldn’t understand why you were apologizing but as soon as he studied in detail your body language, it clicked.

“How can you know that?” He wanted you to regain the enthusiasm you had while watching the movie and explaining to him the facts you knew. He looked at you, expectant, waiting for an answer.

“I was as shocked as you when I first saw it, so I did some digging.” You shrugged and remembered another fact. “Dracula also has a Jerusalem cricket as a pet, with its tiny little coffin and all.” You said in a laugh. You really loved knowing small facts about so many movies.

Loki’s phone buzzed on the small table in front of you. He stared at you a little longer, even though you weren’t speaking, and grabbed his phone.

“Hello?” He answered frowning but as soon as the other person spoke, his face lit up. You moved to stand up but he grabbed your wrist and stopped you. You looked at him confused.

“Yes, I know...Yes, she’s here...Right now?” Loki nodded and pressed the FaceTime button, showing Thor and Jane on the screen. You moved closer to Loki when he made a small movement with his head for you to get in the call.

“Hello Y/n!!” Both Jane and Thor said, waving at you enthusiastically. You smiled at them widely.

“Hello guys! How is everything going?” You asked, excited to finally being able to see your best friend after such a long time. Jane was talking about a project she was working on for NASA and Thor was just standing next to her, looking at her like she held the whole universe in her eyes. You felt your heart swell in your chest, happy tears for your friends threatening to fall.

“Enough of us. How are you two?” You shared a look with Loki, neither of you knowing what you could answer. After the conversation you had today, you knew things were going to be different, but you weren’t friends yet so you both just shrugged in order to answer.

“We are okay I guess? We haven’t killed each other, which is a great improvement, seeing how everything started.” You looked at Loki for his approval and you found him already looking at you, smiling in a friendly way.

“Well, isn't that oportune, babe?” Thor winked at Jane, both of them smiling widely. You looked at Loki to see his expression, but he was as clueless as you. If “????” could be spoken, Loki and you would probably be shouting it.

​”Guys, what the fuck is going on?” Loki finally asked, since Thor and Jane were just giggling, not able to speak.

“We are getting married!” Thor said as Jane raised her left hand to show her engagement ring. You stared at the screen in awe, tears rolling through your cheeks.

Loki was looking at you, knowing he was out of sight of Thor and Jane, spilling happy tears for his brother.

“And we want you to be the groomsman and the bridesmaid.” You spoke on the phone with them a little longer until they had to hang up.

You couldn’t believe you had to go to Norway with Loki. The wedding was 1 year away but knowing how you two were around each other, could you actually trust nothing bad was going to happen?

A couple of days after Thor’s call, you were laying in your bed half asleep, when your alarm went off. Your vacations were over and you had to go back to your insane routine. You dragged your feet to the kitchen to brew some coffee and as you waited for it to be ready, a message popped in.

Unknown number: Hello Y/n, it’s me, Eric. I don’t know what happened to you, but I tried to call you and I even went to your house, but your parents told me you left and changed your phone number.

I really miss you and all the things we used to do together. I miss my friend. Do you remember when we used to fuck all day long? I really do.

I just wanted to remind you that whenever you want to come back or just have sex, I’ll be here.

A sob escaped your lips, breaking the silence of the room. You couldn’t believe what  your eyes just read. After he used you, played with your feelings and made you fall in love with him through manipulation, put all your group of friends against you by lying, he had the fucking audacity to talk to you and ask you to basically have sex again with him. He told all your friends you were talking shit behind their backs, when in reality, it was him who did that. You explained yourself but they all rejected you, so you left, with a broken heart. You lost a fake love you thought it was real and friendships that you thought they were going to last forever. Eric was still oblivious to all the pain he’d caused and you were just a coward who couldn’t confront the truth, which was that he never cared for you, not in the slightest, he just cared about him and his dick.

You decided not to answer and block the number, so he couldn’t text you or call you again. You got dressed, wearing a cute floral shirt and high waisted black jeans, your hair up in a messy bun and a dark red lipstick. You were ready to face the night with a newfound strength.

The Blood Moon was full, the usual customers already drunk as fuck, half asleep on the overused leather barstools. Loki was around the bar as well, flirting with a redhead. You shook your head, smiling at the sight of your friend being a total flirt. You were so happy you fixed things with him a couple of weeks ago and now got to call him friend, happy to finally have someone to talk at night about everything and watching your favorite movies together. The last movie you had seen together was one of your absolute favorite ones, called Only Lovers Left Alive, and he loved it so much he even suggested to watch it once a month. After all your failed friendships, you believed you finally had a second chance with Val, Thor and Loki.

“What is a girl like you, doing in a place like this?” You turned around rolling your eyes at the comment but letting out a chuckle.

“Waiting for someone like you, of course.” You winked at Loki while you poured his favorite mix in a tall glass and handing him a free shot.

“Are you coming home tonight?” He asked, probably trying to avoid having sex with someone while you were there with someone else as well. You shrugged and answered.

“Haven’t found my prey yet. I’ll text you to let you know, okay?” He nodded and smiled at you, pointing with his head at the redhead and moving through the sea of people to reach her.

A couple hours later, a few shots and a new arm to cling to, you texted Loki to let him know you were headed home and be there in 20 minutes.

Loki: Cool, she’s already asleep so no prob. I will use my noise cancelling headphones. Have a good night.

-

“Hey...hey?” You shook Tyler’s arm, trying to wake him up so he could leave.

“Tyler?” You tried again and again, but nothing woke him. You sighed and left your room, wrapped in a blanket with your cozy socks, ready to sleep on the couch.

You entered the living room silently, trying not to wake up everyone else.

“Hello?” you asked, as you heard someone in the room.

“Hey, it’s just me.” Loki said as he sat down on the couch with a book on his hands. You plopped down next to him and wrapped the blanket closer to your body.

“Can’t sleep?” You kind of whispered him. He nodded and opened the book. He was reading... Shakespeare??!!

“What about you?” He asked, not even looking up from his book. He was wearing glasses, a black shirt and grey sweats, his hair in a very messy braid.

“The jerk fell asleep and I can’t wake him up, so I was planning on sleeping on the couch.” You shrugged, trying to play the matter down, but it didn’t work.

“And you can’t sleep there?” You shook your head and began explaining him why.

“That’s why you panicked when we slept together?” You nodded, embarrassed. “I’m so sorry I was such an ass, I didn’t know it held so much meaning to you.”

“It’s fine, you didn’t know it and it was unintentional.” You told him, really meaning it.