#bisexual mormon

[djbubblegum]

Would ellie convert to Mormonism for you?

No. I will not speak for Ellie but I would not want anyone to do that for me or someone else. Faith is a very individual thing and I believe that should be between the person and God (or whatever being you believe). To convert for someone is taking on a lot of life long responsibility and commuting to things you might not believe.

Plus it can be a challenge because currently the relationship between the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and the LGBTQ+ community is not great. I still have my own faith but I also recognise the difficulties with being Mormon and gay and I would not wish that on anyone. I value my relationship with God as it’s been a very big guiding light in my life and the church gave me that and would hope everyone gains their own relationship with God in whichever way works for them. I know he’s guided me to find someone like Ellie in my life and I continue to live and seek his guidance in all I do.

[ghostblackberry]

I don't know what's more pathetic

my crush on short computational chemistry PhD guy

my crush on the relief society president

or my long standing crush on Chris Evans

[djbubblegum]

Coming out is hard but you take it in little steps and it doesn’t help when your Mormon. But the internet proves again and again that there are people all over experiencing the same things as you.

Just learn to embrace you.

[cosmic-m-b]

Even before I realized I was bisexual I felt drawn to the word "queer" as a descriptor and I was sad that I would never be able to claim it as my own, so I am glad now that I am more aware of my own sexuality I can feel free to use it myself. ❤

[gaylikeoprah-blog]

bit of a rant about my sexuality and religion

Ignore the lack of proper punctuation and grammar, I’m not the modern Shakespeare I wish I was.

Okay, so I’m no longer active in the church and haven’t been for around 2 years and it’s been the best thing to lift my mental health in recent years. I knew that I wasn’t ‘like the other girls’ in primary (elementary) school, young and dumb, with no thought about how this would affect my relationships and interactions with others later in my life. I knew that it had to remain a secret, something innately told me that this wasn’t a ‘normal’ thing (yay for internalised homophobia) but I’m glad I listened to that voice in my head, for speaking out would just cause unnecessary drama I wouldn’t need.

I’ve always had crushes on girls since I can remember, far more than those I had on boys, even to this day; which leads me to stress about my sexuality and if ‘I’m really bi’ as if it matters for me to label something so fluid as my sexuality ugh! Again, I do believe this is a huge chunk of my brain being a bigot and wanting to give my parents the hope that one day I’ll bring a nice man home instead of a woman because even that thought makes me sweat!   

I’m still carrying round this huge burden over my shoulders however, where despite the fact I’m inactive and can thus act and do the things I rejected when I was 11 and converted to an organisation I had no real idea about - don’t know how you guys do it at 8 - I still have religious family around me constantly. Having believers discuss the existence of some greater power around you whilst you, yourself have no feeling towards to these things, is so draining. I told my mum I was an atheist last year in a conversation we had about heaven and how we both somewhat think the whole ‘hierarchy’ of heaven is bizarre both having grown up as Catholics, having a divide in heaven didn’t work with us, however she believes in God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, the whole package, and thus ignored my beliefs to settle her own thoughts. Which leads to the constant talk about God around me. I know I sound whiny, that’s not what my aim is, it’s just enough you know, respect my right to not want to talk about ‘His great power’ as I respect your right to believe in Him.

The whole system is damaged right from the core outward, thus harming those of us on the outside that don’t fit into this box which calls for a complete change of person and character if you want to squeeze into it. But yeah, enough is enough really, the church has abused this power they’ve had over its believers, having LGBTQ+ men, women, teenagers, and children silence who they are under the premise of ‘fighting the ‘challenges’ He has given you for the prize of salvation’ it’s unreal! As if being LGBTQ+ is just another burden you have to face like money struggles or hating your work life, it blows my mind that it’s even gotten this far! 

I know this has been all over the place and took 100 different directions but I just wanted to vent about this a bit and just get some of my thoughts out despite none of it flowing or making any sense, so I do apologise! 

[gaylikeoprah-blog]

first post, bit of a ramble

So I’m a 20 year old bisexual woman (still questioning my sexuality and if I’m even gayer than I previously thought), who was a member of the LDS church for roughly 7/8 years, and have been inactive for around 2 years. I’m now ‘living a life of sin’ as an out bisexual, who’s also somewhat atheist!

Okay so I’m not used to how this site works but I’m just hoping to meet people who are like me or have been in/are in similar situations I have been in. My family is still active within the church and that’s a large reason as to why I started this blog; I’m angry and hurt at them for remaining in an organisation that doesn’t even want their child/sibling to be themselves. An organisation that desires me to hide and lie about who I really am, but enough was enough. I’ve scanned through the tags and read about queerstake which seems like an excellent community but one in which I fit only through the queer aspect rather than the religious side. 

But that’s going to be a post wherein I’ll go into more details about my feelings towards that. This is just a quick introduction, hope I didn’t come across as too weird or inarticulate. But just a quick hello, and I’d like to remain anonymous (bit of drama if I get found) so you can refer to me as ‘X’ or whatever really!

[notsostraightpath]

Real talk: I’m thinking of maybe doing a series of posts about the few and far between scriptures on homosexuality, each one breaking down the context and the setting, specifically from an LDS LGBTQ standpoint. Would that sound like something anyone else would be interested in reading?

[notsostraightpath]

No matter where you stand on this, this post is going to be helpful and not helpful. It’s going to walk the line between the issues, but that’s where I stand. Hopefully, you’ll be able to see that.

I was born into a generation where being proud of your homosexuality is something worth fighting for. I grew up watching LGBT rights slowly progress, winning fight after fight in state after state, and I was told that who you are is not something you can change.

These men were born in a generation where being homosexual was illegal. Not just looked down on, not just regarded as scandalous, but illegal. They grew up hearing stories of people being thrown in jail, being shunned from communities, being run out of town, for being so depraved, so twisted, so impossibly wrong.

I grew up in a generation that taught me the importance of individuality. My society and my culture taught me that I was a unique child of God, that I had something special to give the world, and it was important to find out what that is.

These men grew up in a generation that banded together to fight against greater evil. They were taught that serving your country was the same as serving your God, and that sometimes things needed to be changed or altered so the greater good could move forward.

I came of age at a time where I could come out to my Mormon parents and receive only love and support for my statements. I was told that Jesus loved me no matter what, and I strove until I felt that love for myself. I was taught that finding a life partner was so very important, and that possibly more important than that, I needed to be true to that life partner when they came along.

These men came of age at a time where homosexuality was associated strongly with the free love movement. To these conservative men, homosexuality was irresponsibly. It was infidelity. It was not caring what anyone else thought. It was illness. It was death.

When I say “homosexuality” and when these men say “homosexuality”, we are not saying the same thing. We are reading from dictionaries with different definitions and neither of us can fully see where the other stand.

I’m not saying this excuses them. I’m not going to say their words didn’t matter. That they didn’t hurt. But we have to understand that we are telling these stories from different lives. We use the same words, but we don’t tell the same stories. I wish we did.