#blaaagh

[lil-deach]

Happy Pride Month, everybody, I present to you my NEW profile picture for the month

…it’s not that different, but it’s got Vault Boy!!

Alt version with just the bi flag

[vt-scribbles]

Bro I don’t understand how people grasp perspective in Giant/Tiny art. Last night I was trying to do something atmospheric with a giant looming over someone on their knees, trying to hold something up, and it just. I. Man I’ll get perspective one day but today is not that day lmao...

I cannot understand how to get someone to take up a ton of the screen and give them a sense of scale. It’s always been one of my weak points, and I’m not sure how to study it.

[miaobae]

I’ve done maybe 10 min of actual work this entire day

[spongeboobhaha]

just thinkin out loud a bit

i saw a post somewhere recently abt someone deciding they wanted to keep art as a hobby rather than seek a career in it bc of the pressure and how it took the fun out of creating and i identified with it a lot which kinda...scared me?? even though i always struggled with doing art under pressure like deadlines at uni or for commissions the idea of not doing art as a career just makes me feel really down.... i know it’s what i want to do, and i want to get a lot better, but its like....i can’t deal that well with the pressure of it?? and the competitiveness LORD!! commissions are alright but if i had to do Serious Art for people...the idea of it freaks me out lolol. but at the same time i can’t imagine myself doing anything else?? i’ve been doing a barista course for the past couple weeks which has taken my mind off things but honestly im only seeing this as something temporary, like i dont really wanna work in a cafe for the rest of my life yknow. i can only see myself truly happy doing something art related but going off past experience it just makes me feel more stressed out bc its supposed to be something i love. AGSGDSh i dont know what i want!!

[problemsynth]

realizing i missed a few details on the painting last night

[comets-blazing]

Would you guys be mad at me if I Ditched again. Asking for a friend

[cobaltchild]

so like. after the fair at Ejea the boss said my sister and i are very probably getting tunics for when we have to play medieval daily life scenes- which in our zone means a very big probability of having to impersonate muslim, muladi or mozarabic characters. and as i was telling my mom this, i told her that i’d like to learn how to wear a headscarf properly. and she gave me this very weird look??

like okay, that might not be part of my culture, but it’s part of another and learning how to wear these outfits appropriately seems to me more respectful than just throwing a piece of cloth on my head in any way i find good? please correct me if i’m wrong, but there are a lot of muslim people in these regions and i really don’t want to disrespect them. i may be reenacting but just like i must respect historical accuracy, i think that the culture must be respected too. if not it feels like mockery. 

i dunno i’m tired and confused

[tiaramaki]

Friend: "Don't hate yourself so much. You're really great!"

Me: "What? I don't do that."

Also me: *makes a post that wasn't completely fixed that gets reblogged before edits go through*

Also me: *makes a minor mistake in an artwork*

And yet also me: *makes a mistake in socializing*

Me in response to all these situations: "Why am I such an idiot."