Warning this is me just retyping my stuff I said on twitter. So if it sounds like a series of tweets yea it was one
To the people out there, how do you do the whole promoting your like store or channel or what not and not feeling, like ick about it, I don't know why but when I try to do stuff like that I feel ick about it, I know I need to do that to make the funds but like -shutter-
My current theory is at the moment, due to being on the internet so long, and on deviantart where there was a period you would get harrassed for promoting your stuff, like doing it in places not allowed that makes since, I am talking when you promote on your own stuff, people would get hostile and call you like a sellout and stuff.
Also years upon years of people telling me even if it was me trying to promote my stuff or talk about my accomplishments I would get shot down and told to humble myself, or I am bragging, or the like. So like is there a way to like stop that?
I just want to be able to make funds in stuff I enjoy.
It also doesn't help when most socials which you need for networking and growth also supress the hell out of anything talking about another site even if not a social media. Looking at you tiktok and tumblr back in the day
I also don't want to come off as one of those you know abrasive (is that the word?) influencer types. I am trying to use the system the best I can but that still feels stacked against me and pushing the pay to win or know someone scheme, which I personally hate.
And I don't have high enough funds to like have a social media manager, I might make funds but not that much you know? So like...what do I do? I have been at this for like 10 plus years and still odds are forever against me because I am not a certain way, or will pay someone.
and while yes I do stream 3 times a week, I could do it more than that, but I have limited energy to do that, and I feel like you need to be high energy to do that, mine dips and flows, I can't create and post art on the daily, I am not a fast artist and have perfection issues
I really don't really do art trends because I don't relate to them or like them, or I am too slow on the stuff and the trends is gone in like a week, which thats an issue with social media in gen, Like if you are a slower, low energy person, you are kinda screwed with how internet is now
This is a combination of I need to improve my self and also a big point out how fucked up social media and internet culture is these days, and yes I sound like old woman yells at cloud, this is a MASSIVE PROBLEM, remember that talk of burnout that yall dropped? Yea this is it.
I worry that internet culture didn't listen to that talk, or take anything in, Yes you go "Oh take a break if you need it" but socials don't they just want you to feed the free content machine. And poor man's poison is now in my brain joy. curse of adhd
I just need to ramble out into the void that is the internet, because these thoughts were in my brain while posting up content that should post up later on my socials...also fuck socials being like "Only post one type of content or else"
