Dragon Age Inquisition
Cullen / Female Inquisitor
Determined to put Cullen's fears at ease, not to mention the fears of their new templar recruits, Aredhel decides to trust these new allies and prove to everyone, once and for all, that she wasn't effected by the Envy demon, not to mention walking out of the Fade. She just hopes her faith hasn't been misplaced...
This chapter for @chaos-company’s Angstpril's prompt 'Falsely Accused', and follows on from ~ Chapter 1, here ~
Eeeh that was fun to write!! The conversation in the first half is largely borrowed from a conversation that a Templar specialisation Inquisitor and Cullen can have, if they're romanced, but I thought a lot of it worked really well in this situation, too. I enjoy playing with mingling in-game dialogue and my own.
It was also fun reading through all the templar specialisation powers to work out the mechanics of what they could/would actually DO in this situation! After all, the lore of the world implies that they'd have things they could do...But we rarely actually see them DO any of them with any kind of sense XDDD What they do here is based on their skill trees.Guess I'd better write part three!
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Chapter 1
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Light was dim in the empty sideroom that sheltered Andraste’s shrine. It shone muted through the windows’ coloured panes, a hint at the Maker’s presence that fell upon, but did not interrupt, the contemplative stillness with which His children would enter, kneel and pray. Its ceiling towered, allowing the statue to do the same, but the room itself was simple, taking nothing it did not need. The steps leading up to the holy image were far more modest than in city chantries, but still a sense of reverence had been laid, with each flagstone, into this approach to the Maker’s Bride. Up one side of the statue’s plinth, ivy had been left to grow, unchecked; in streamed the light, reflecting from the leaves like dappled summer sun, reminding Aredhel of the forests where she first learned to love the gods, and where, unexpected, the Maker had found her.
Candles sat upon some of the steps, their wax running onto stone as they petitioned people’s prayers to their Lady, who in turn petitioned for them to the Maker. Or so the belief went.
The Inquisitor knelt before the statue, an unlit candle in her hands. Conjuring flame in her palm, she cast as she prayed, knowing that the two did not combine easily in the minds of those serving the Chantry, but feeling a peace as she did so all the same. She offered the fire as a part of her prayer, casting it with love for the deity she was attempting to serve, and as the wick caught, she felt that love return to her, tumbling within her core like a growing laugh or the early glows of joy. It was the love of a mother. With great care, the Inquisitor - Andraste’s supposed Herald, if the faith of others was to be believed - set the candle down upon the stone, murmuring extracts of the chant and prayerful sentiments of her own.
One day, she vowed, she would have the full gardens here restored and converted into a chantry space. She wanted to build spaces for the other faiths, as well - statues to the gods of her own people, which deserved an outdoor place of their own, and a space in the Undercroft or even deeper below for the dwarves to mark their Ancestors. The Inquisition was young, but there was much she wanted to do for it; for now, though, first, she must do this.
She knew the footsteps in the doorway before she turned.
“I… had hoped you would change your mind.” Cullen looked tired - often true, but even more so today. Instantly, Aredhel’s stomach crunched with guilt, even though it was for his sake above all others that she had decided to do this. It crunched even so, another balled fist within her, alongside a first one made of her own fear.
She rose, standing before the statue as she faced him, other people’s candles around her on either side. The pair’s voices echoed in the quiet, sacred space: “I can be stubborn when I want to be.”
“So I’ve noticed.” Cullen’s voice curled with a hint of chiding play, and for a moment, that alleviation made them both smile, but it didn’t last. So often, gravity caught up with them; they were two people who naturally chose steep routes to walk.
Aredhel moved towards the ex-templar, each step a distinct sound in the silence. The closer she drew, the clearer she saw the anguish that he was trying to hide. Something about it struck her, taking her a step outside of time as she wished, in a sudden yearning, that they had pursued this thing between them for long enough to know each other fully. If today went badly, the idea of their story ending as missed or half-explored connections broke her heart - they were one being, still working out the early steps of being two uncertain halves. But, in many of the ways that mattered most, they were already that team, and she had no intention of dying today.
“Please, reconsider,” the Commander began as she reached him, his hand remaining at his hilt, his body language formal and closed despite the intimacy that crept into his voice. “You have given enough. You needn’t do this.”
“Cullen…” The elf tilted her head, sad and reassuring, all formality taken out of the equation by the way she looked at him.
He looked defeated. “I don’t know what else to say.”
“You know why I’m doing it.”
"My…” He faltered, interrupting himself with a look of pain, cut by the jagged blade of frustration. When he continued, his voice was strained, confiding; “Were I taking lyrium like I should, yesterday would not have happened. I cannot let that choice kill you." His eyes and voice pleaded, his last sentence only not a whisper because of how fervently it was uttered.
Stepping that bit closer, the Inquisitor found her Commander’s hand and took it, raising it between them and pressing it to her. She gripped it for emphasis, knowing that there were walls between her words and his ability to accept them. "There is no ‘should’. And your concerns were fair. If you've been thinking them, others will have. I need to do this for them.”
In her heart, more than anything, she was doing it for him: the fear and disorientation she’d seen in him yesterday broke her heart, and it would be foolish to assume that they would never resurface. However, her care for him had illuminated a wider picture that she should have seen before. She should have done this the first day they returned home with the templars.
“People put faith in me. More than I ask for. Perhaps more than is right. And that includes people from the chantry.” One hand still holding onto his, her other cupped his face; even through his grief, his eyes creased a little in a half-smile at the touch. “They’re following a mage, Cullen. That could change things, for everyone.” Thank the Maker, it was a passion they shared. “I need to meet that with integrity."
A tendon tightening in his jaw, Cullen nodded. He couldn't deny it. "In Haven you nearly…" Haven was still impossible to speak of, for many reasons. Now, more so. Mirroring her, he cupped the Inquisitor’s face, needing to hold onto her essence. “I know what you are willing to give… But…” Drawing her close to him, their foreheads met, their eyes closing as they connected. Grief and honesty hung heavy on his words. “...I do not know if I can watch you give it.”
“If I’m really me, I won’t have to," she countered, nudging his nose with her own, smiling at him despite her own anxieties. Not letting them get the better of her, she pulled back enough to meet his eyes again, releasing his face and instead resting her hand against his forearm. Against his bracer, the templar emblem under her palm. “Trust them.”
“I do.” Cullen sighed, exhausted. He'd been exhausted for a long time. “And I don’t. I’ve seen too many reasons not to. I've been reasons not to…” Sighing again, he relented. She would not change her mind, and perhaps she was right not to. One hand at her face, the other at her back, her pulled her back to him, stepping to meet her, their foreheads connecting once more as he tried, as gently as he could, to envelop her, in some way shield her from what was to come.
“I…will always back your decision. You know that, right? You have my support.”
“Even if it’s this…?”
With an even quieter sigh, he agreed, words badly audible through their concern. “Even then…”
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The templars had gathered in the combat square - a cordoned off area of suitable size, and central to Skyhold. Their shields glinted sharply in the light, the Sword Of Mercy emblazoned upon them, their breastplates and bracers. Tower shields, kite shields - in every form they took, their bearers lined the square, a wall of reminders of their creed, the death of their prophetess and their willingness to enact the same when called upon. It was a symbol that would be seen often around the Inquisition, now: people needed to have faith in it, or they would always be divided.
The templars were stood in an unironic circle, ready to receive and test their supplicant. On the other side of the fence line, crowds filled the yard, covered the stairways, watched from the ramparts: half the population of Skyhold had gathered, if not much more. Amongst them were the faces Aredhel knew and looked for: the Bull and his Chargers, Blackwall, looking about as grim yet unreadable as each other. Vivienne, one of the few who seemed to trust the process, though again, hers was a face that would not be read. Cole.
Dorian stepped nimbly in line with her before she could enter the square, cutting mercilessly past anyone he needed to and falling in line with her as she walked: “You know, darling, you can still back out. There are plenty of ways to test you. We can ask that delightful artificer. Or, you know, dunk you under the water and see if you transform - that seems about as developed as their barbarous methods.”
“I’ll be fine, Dorian.” Aredhel squeezed her friend’s hand, smiling past her nausea, and managed to kiss him on the cheek without falling over. With great trepidation, dragging in a laboured breath and putting on a brave face, she stepped forwards.
She had never been in this situation before. She had been amongst templars, but never like this: immediately, as she passed the heavily armoured, identical-seeming sentries, each armed with a weapon intended, if need be, for her, she gained a first, terrible insight into how a Circle Mage must feel. She could see why knights became the faceless, fearful things they were for some, even if doing their job correctly, if you had grown up with this sword above your head. Only under it for a moment, it was already making sense to her.
Another reason to do this.
She also looked at their faces. Each man and woman was one that deserved a second chance. She met some of their eyes as she walked past them, smiling to a few, looking levelly to others, matching each one as seemed right.
As she walked to the centre of the square, she caught Solas’ eye. The look in it was complex - knowing, acknowledging, even admiring, yet ultimately disapproving, possibly even vexed. Often their relationship, for a reason she couldn’t yet understand. She thumbed at her Keeper’s ring, the patterns of wolves and old, cautionary stories a familiar feel under it. It represented duty to her clan; different stories to here, different gods, a different role, but that duty was the same.
Passing Leliana and Josephine, the air carried snippets of conversation to her, their voices above the murmurs:
“It is completely unnecessary,” her diplomat lamented.
The spymaster countered immediately: “It is smart. It will cut any rumour down in its infancy, when it is easiest to kill.”
She swallowed.
It was not until she reached the centre that she saw Cullen. He was beside Cassandra, both at the front of the crowd: she appeared to be saying something to him with concern, but his eyes were fixed on Aredhel. She flashed a nervous, foolish smile to him, unable to stop herself despite their mutual fear. As she did, Cassandra spotted her too, and sent her a nod. Breathing shakily, Aredhel nodded back, feeling a little strengthened. Cullen’s hand gripped his sword hilt; the other gripped the fence.
Soon, she was before the Knight-Lieutenant. It was happening. In a strange moment of distance from herself, she noticed that she had begun to speak. Attention moving over the crowd, her voice boomed and bounced around the castle walls, her lungs pushing out her words with the false, learnt confidence of a leader - project, be heard, and catch up with oneself once things began to feel real again:
“When the Inquisition came to the aid of the Templar order, we encountered a demon. One that had impersonated and replaced the Lord Seeker. One that tried - and failed - to replace me. Every one of you has placed your faith in this Inquisition, and it is prepared to meet that trust. We did not bring you here, and offer a fresh start, only to allow evil to persist.”
She tried to say something further, but her voice cracked and broke, her confidence wavering. She trailed to silence. “Sorry,” she muttered, turning back to the Knight-Lieutenant. “Carry on. Your turn.”
She knew those footsteps without having to turn.
Cullen had broken from his position on the side-lines, striding around the edge of the training square and approaching the templars. It was not the gait of a man about to interrupt a proceeding, but a man suddenly seizing control of it.
“Templars.” Some things do not change. He strode into position, voice carrying with conviction and habit: every templar there, whether they had ever served with the old Knight-Captain or not, understood. They looked to him: “If this is a demon or abomination, draw it out. These witnesses must see the truth of the thing before it is cut down - there can be no doubt. We cannot afford further schisms.”
Aredhel understood, immediately, what he was doing. She turned to him, gratitude almost making her lose her balance.
He continued: “I will see no blood until the demon is made plain." His voice had carried as far as the Inquisitor’s, making sure it was heard by the crowd, but as he continued, he lowered it, just for the gathered templars: “If this is no demon, then she is the Herald of Andraste. And your leader. Remember that.”
As one, they saluted. “Aye, Knight-Captain.”; “Yes, Commander.”
The Commander grimaced against the other title, but nodded. Aredhel shot him a dizzy, brow-knotted look of thanks. Light bounced piercingly from his bracers as he stepped back, traveling along the emblem’s engraved blade.
Time, then.
“Templars! With me.” The Knight-Lieutenant began her issue of commands; the crowd were advised that anyone who was not a Templar should take a good four paces back, warned that if the demon was using any protective counter-measures, there would be fallout. The sound all seemed muted to Aredhel as she looked down at the soil beneath her, focusing attention on her breath going in and out. She nudged a foot at the churned ground, kept so by the frequent sparring in this spot, and reached out for the sense of magic that tingled upwards from the earth. Distantly, she could hear what sounded like Cullen refusing to step back with the rest.
Under her breath, she murmured a prayer, quoting from Transfiguration 12:
“My Creator, judge me whole: find me well within Your grace. Touch me with fire that I be cleansed. Tell me I have sung to Your approval.”
Some of the nearest templars to her looked her way, noticing, but soon, the command came.
All around her, the templars lit up: far from the yellow warmth of the chantry candles, this light was cold, a pale blue-white of lyrium-sponsored power, filling metal-clad hands on every side of her. Her heart quickened, panic suddenly finding her. She had to clamp desperately down on the immediate, childish urge to run to Cullen’s side and hide against his front. Or Dorian. Dorian, I’ve made a mistake -
The light burst forth, rushing through the space like a silent explosion, blowing back the soil away from the blast, dust covering her boots. She braced…And felt nothing.
Blinking, shocked, the Inquisitor looked around. Hope sprung forth. She had known she was safe, that she was no demon, but she had still expected that to be far worse - Something that would hurt, or they could misinterpret, something she could fail -
Another order came.
It was as if a rift had been torn in the Veil directly over her head, except it was no green light, but blinding white.
For a moment, that white was all Aredhel knew. It was so bright that it blocked out all else - that it felt as though it was behind her eyes, engulfing from within, not without. It seared with heat and ice, impossible to tell which, her body pulled taught, rigid beyond her control. For one suspended moment, the pain felt infinite, and then she fell.
In front of the crowd, the Inquisitor's body crumpled, collapsing to the ground of the training square. The last clear thing she heard was Cassandra's voice, distinct above the rest; "The Inquisitor!" Panic tore through the crowd, the bark of several familiar voices attempting to quell it.
The man currently laid slumped forward on the table, face pressed into a book with a bit of slobber dripping down onto the pages. Apparently sleeping. Jett grunted in his sleep, eyes blinking open as if he was still tired, and gingerly lifted his head up. “Where the fuck am I?” he mumbled, groggily, unconsciously wiping the spittle from his chin as his eyes slowly focused. Brows creasing together in confusion as he stared around, realizing he must be in the library or something, because there were shelves of books surrounding him. “How the fuck--” Jett sat backwards in the hard-backed chair, very confused and somewhat alarmed as to how he had gotten here, when, and how long had he been there? The book on the table had an elaborate illustration of a dragon taking up one full side of the pages. Getting to his feet, he stumbled back from it, knocking against someone else he hadn’t seen. “Shit--” Jett held up his hands defensively, muttering a gruff, “sorry, fuck, didn’t see you--”
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A Rumble in the Restaurant → Danielle, Ashley, & Madelaine || June 20, 2018
Settling herself at a restaurant alone with two children had been an interesting feat. Danielle had been keen to try the restaurant that had been adjacent to the hotel lobby, mostly because she was the type of person to enjoy new foods at different places. The brunette loved eating and preparing food, which meant that sometimes she’d end up trying different things by her lonesome. Tonight wasn’t any different from that. Her husband would join her eventually, she knew that, but she did love to show her two children her own hobbies and let them experience what it would be like to try different things. She could recognize a few new friends while situating Alison and Matty into their chairs at the restaurant--seeming like the whole of Hollywood had decided to pack up and move ship to Santorini at this time of the year--and she sought comfort in actually being in there with people.
However, as she started to pull her son out of his stroller, the ground started to shake. The earth beneath her moved and her maternal instincts quickly shot through her. Pulling her daughter and holding onto her son tight, the brunette dived directly underneath the table they were shown at. Living in Los Angeles had prepared her for earthquakes and she was quite surprised they hadn’t experienced one in quite some time, but she realized that this was a new experience for her two children and hearing everyone scream around them was something that she couldn’t control. It pained her so, but maternal instincts kicked in and she was already going to soothe them as best as she could.
It was over just as quick as it had started, but the lights were still out. Maybe a circuit breaker had gone out during the quake, but Danielle’s arms were around her children as she moved from underneath the table, placing them in the double stroller that had miraculously been saved during the quake, and sighed. “Is everyone alright”, she yelled out into the room, making sure that most of the patrons that were there. “Does anyone need any help?” @bcnsons @hollywoodlandhq
Well, my day has been way too exciting. I went for a walk to get out of my room, and ended up on a park bench with a mom of two checking up on me. Her kids were really cute, a five and a two year old. The two year old kept patting my head, making sure I was okay. I apparently just went ka-dunk and blacked out. Luckily, I got a ride, I’m fine and am on my bed, writing down some lyrics. This is how the wind blows, I suppose.
“ heyo , ” she calls out as she opens stellan’s unlocked door , after exchanging quick texts asking if she could stop by & chill for a while . she felt like she was way overdue on some bff time , smiling softly when she spots her friend . “ waddup ? ” lana wonders , flopping herself comfortably down onto his couch . “ how was that last party in bora bora ? i totally blacked out the last two days of the trip , stell , ” she mentions with a dry chuckle .
𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒂 : heey dude
𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒂 : omg i literally blacked out the last 2 days , idek how i got home LOL
𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒂 : & i think i missed that party saturday night
𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒂 : did i miss anything juicy :’)
I drunk cried a lot last night and my throat is all scratchy which makes me wonder how loudly I was crying because I sorta don’t remember all of it and like... oops sorry housemates.
Sorry I took so long. Almost had a blackout in the bathroom while getting dressed. I’ll shove the rest under a read more just in case it’s triggering for some reason?? Anxiety tw I guess and if anyone gets triggered by blacking out/fainting for whatever reason, then there’s that warning. Happy scrolling!
Okay so I don’t even know what happened? I was just getting dressed and my legs started trembling. Thought they were going to give way on me. Then an overwhelming feeling of nausea, I thought I was gnna puke. And then there was a heavy ache in my shoulders and I felt as though I was paralyzed? I couldn’t breathe either, felt like someone was taking the air from my lungs and everything was a blur. Dizziness kicked in and everything was spinning. Black dots started coming into vision and for a split second, everything went black. I couldn’t see anything. Honestly I thought that I fainted or that I was dead??? I was terrified because the door was locked and I was like half dressed. But I tried bending down to put my trousers on and I could see again yet everything was still dizzy. I managed to get down the stairs and stuff. Sat in the living room and then started crying when I explained to my mom what happened and had a panic attack right then and there. I don’t even know what came over me? I’ve been feeling fine all day, and I’m not tired. I just feel dizzy and everything’s weird when I stand up but luckily I don’t think I’m going to pass out. I just hope that this isn’t the start of something bigger.
