I've been feeling like my life is stuck in muck and mire. It's so muddy I can't recall if I had always felt this way or if it happened yesterday. Today it got unbearable and I ended up searching for some answers through a religious podcast in some desperate hope for relief. Some parts of the program made some sense, enough to make me feel hopeful that I might get some answers, but I was left disjointed when the podcast concluded with "the real purpose in life is to build a relationship with the almighty, believe and you will attain eternal life". If you ask me, I don't really know what it is I am looking for. Maybe I never will. But I know, it's not an eternity. But if you are reading this and feeling lost and in despair, I hope you feel a tad less lonely and here's me wishing you'll find your way someday somehow. #JoleneLai #BlindHorse #oilPainting #painting #art #contemporaryart #findmyway #lost #feeling #vibe #answer #direction #carousel #horse #femaleartist https://www.instagram.com/p/CZDglXkN5-5/?utm_medium=tumblr