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[rust-w0rks]

my awful awful no good son Zacharie

wanted to see what greninja would look like with digitigrade lookin legs after looking at frog images

[evilgirlmechanicock]

BLUHHH I hate being so like. Masky about psychosis. I mean fuck even the read more is there to not bother people with my shit fdjksalfdjskl

But like! I dunno!! I hate that I have the mask so firmly secured that when I tell people stuff like "Yeah I really really fucking relate to milk inside a bag of milk" or "I kin jinx really hard" people look at me like. I dunno. Like I'm weird? Or they don't believe me? Or like, that I'm not. Insane enough??? That feels stupid.

I dunno it's one of those things where you feel trapped between two places, right, because I'm pretty heavily Not Normal but I've like. Trained myself in a way to react in a subservient, quiet, and obedient way so much that from the outside I don't look like it (though I guess realistically most psychosis isn't like, visibly obvious, tbf) but it just! Pisses me off!! I hate when people tell me what I'm experiencing or not experiencing like they have any right to pretend they're rooting around in my brain or understanding what goes on in there

"Oh this is way darker than you'd want haha", "Oh you'd have to be a lot more insane to deal with XYZ", "You probably wouldn't like this thing" and it's like fucker! Don't fucking tell me who or what I am, you don't fucking know me just because I show you the side of me that I invented to be palatable.

EDIT: actually no fuck it fr hey asshole if you have to be so performative about your psychosis that you think liking depressing visual novels is a personality maybe you're a fucking poser! 🗣️🗣️🗣️ maybe you can't see other people are also fucked up because they aren't going to weird dumbass seattle parties and kinking on **** ****! get fucked!

[orthodoxguiltblr]

1- Lost could never be remade today and still have the same Aura (Walter Benjamin-ian definition) as the original did. The scope of modern tv writing is way too different and the fact that Lost was an original IP that so much money and time was allocated for- that is something that would literally never happen now. It would also suck to have the original actors roles overshadowed or painted over, especially as some of the characters were literally created For Them. Lost is a product of its time in both positive and negative ways, and its a disservice to the Aura and experience of the show to deny either. Without the success of Lost, a lot of Serialised Genre-Specific TV shows would never have been greenlit, so however you feel about the show itself you cannot deny its influence.

2- I really want a version of Lost where they're able to say fuck or be more explicit, or more gay or more gory etc etc and thats something that could never happen on network tv. Streaming would be the obvious option, but even then, the show would be formatted for Second Screen watching, something that is the bane of TV right now. imo it's absolutely tanking my enjoyment of most shows with a few glowing exceptions. Lost was so ahead of its time (format wise, not really Content wise), its so much easier to parse while binging (via DVDs or streaming) rather than watching it weekly as intended, but its also easier to see continuity errors or issues with character continuity this way.

3- I also wouldn't want this hypothetical remake to dumb down the characters. The main appeal of Lost to me is that nobody on that island is a good person completely, and I would not trust modern tv writers to pull that feat off. The "perfect" version of Lost that I'd want could literally never exist. Which sucks because so many of the characters that were written well from the get were done major disservices by the writers in later seasons.

[asktavrosnitram]

do you know tavros crocker?

[pictured-as-perfect]

stupid selfship sona. i am cringe but i am free

[decayayhagfishh]

Silly skeleton highschool Girl i came up with today :3

Happy Halloween Guys. . . ^_^

[tsunael]

cw: whining

i don't know if I'll ever be able to get into xiv rp. I want to and I've tried, but I just can't find anyone that cares about the lore in the same way that i do. and if they do they're not interested in rp.

That is one thing that I've had a lot of issues with is that people are so ready to throw out canon and the rules of the world to make their own. I get that it's fun for those people to do that but to rp? when my character is so grounded? its difficult. and when people have wildly different headcanons about things there ISN'T lore on?? how do you navigate that when its brought up.

I've tried to join venues but i just don't know where to start. 💀 I'll just stick to fic writing I guess.

[ort-smort]

art block's been hittin me like a truck. take this.