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[gummys-system-shit]

IM TIRED OF THIS GRANDPA!

[princessallura]

I took a stroll down memory lane and went to see if an old journaling site was still around -deadjournal. It had been around with Greatest Journal (I really, really miss that site), P-Journal, Blurty, Livejournal, and many others. I only used it like a few times because of the restrictions they had on it:

You could only make one journal

The place was invitation only

I had considered using it as something personal because my psyche doctor wanted me to start doing some writing. She wanted to see what my moods were like and what was going through my mind. I have been writing it out in pen but I thought a journal online would be much better. 

I know a lot of people don't want to know so much personal shit about me so I don't do a lot of personal information. Maybe I will open an insanejournal just for this. It might be better because I can lock my writing away from my sister seeing it. Maybe it would be for the better.

[cherykrush]

[cherykrush]

[fallenwall-blog]

Heads or Tails?

*Dramatic introduction*

*Flickering lights slowly sustain to illuminate an empty room*

What happens when one decides to revert to an old habit in hopes of eradicating a different, more unsettling habit?

I have no clue. But I guess that's what I'm trying to find out.

Welcome to the mind of an introvert with a very extroverted facade. I'm so timid I'm not even sure if I want to expose my identity. Part of me is hoping to make a whole new group of internet friends who have, somehow or another, happened upon and decided to read this blog. Friends who understand and/or relate to the person portrayed in these posts.

Obviously that person is me, but which me? Heads or Tails? The person I want to portray is the one I've been hiding for about a decade. The one I'm ashamed of. The one that wrote all sorts of angst-filled Xanga, Blurty, Livejournal and Blogger posts in high school. Is that person really so bad? Is he Heads or Tails? Maybe he's an awful crybaby that no one wants to pay any mind to? Maybe he's just vulnerable sometimes and wants to be open and honest about it? Maybe he's a high school kid stuck in a 26 year old's body? Maybe he's much more mature than he thinks he is despite the fact that he's currently blogging about himself in 3rd person?

Who knows? Who cares?

Nice. Well let's get to the less cryptic and confusing part of this backwards introduction.

Hi. I've decided I'm not going to say my name just yet but I'm a 26 year old dude who loves music a whole lot. I'm currently sitting alone in my bedroom listening to a pretty awesome band (Northcote) that I found because a new band whose music I've fallen madly in love with (The Color and Sound) recently signed to a label (Black Numbers) which is apparently chock full of amazing bands. It probably sounds like a sad and lonely thing to do... and maybe it is. I just find that it adds to the cathartic effect of blogging to have an awesome soundtrack.

I'm not sure what this blog will be like but it will be honest. it will have music. It will be raw sometimes. It'll actually have words... ones that I typed with my hands that aren't captions for pictures. It will probably be pretty awkward. It will reveal parts of me that I hide from even my closest friends (not necessarily intentionally). Hopefully it'll spark some conversations. We'll see.

Thanks for reading as much as you have. Ask me something I guess. This is already awkward.

Old habits die hard.

*Somehow the room is full of people playing all sorts of instruments and dancing and singing together*

*poof*

[beyondthegreysky]

found this on my "blurty"

holy shit lmfao.

1. name: Amanda 2. d.o.b.: april fools day 3. Location: ptown, pa 4. occupation: billing coordinator at quest diagnostics APPEARANCE 1. hair: its red. 2. eyes: they change color from hazel to brown 3. height: 5'3

STYLE 1. clothing: um i buy clothes from old navy mostly i wouldn't say i have a style really 2. music: mae, 311, i usually like whats on the radio unless its country then i hang myself 3. Make up: never wear it 4. body art: shamrock tattoo on my foot RIGHT NOW 1. Wearing: pj pants and tshirt 2. Listening to: lonely nights by saves the day 3. Thinking of: the words to this song lol LAST THING YOU... 1. bought: umm breakfast? 2. Ate & drank: cherry coke and popcorn at the movies 3. Read(book): reading the hunger games again .. 4. Watched on TV: adventure time .. watched snl on hulu on my computer though. EITHER / OR 1. tea or coffee: neither?  tea. 2. achiever or slacker: depends what i'm in the mood for :) 3. beer or cider: yuck .. cider. 4. drinks or shots: drinks. 5. cats or dogs: dogs.  6. single or taken: taken. 7. pen or pencil: um pen? 8. gloves or mittens: mittens! 9. food or candy: .. candy. 10. cassette or cd: cd 11. coke or pepsi: coke 13. matches or a lighter: lighter 14. sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: what? 15. Rickie lake or Jenny Jones: i have no idea they aren't on tv anymore are they lol?

WHO DO YOU WANT TO... 1. kill: no one in particular lol 2. hear from: eh. 3. get really wasted with: whoever. 4. look like: i just saw a pic of emma stone and i was totes jealous. 5. be like: her too. 6. avoid: .. i avoid a lot of people. LAST PERSON YOU...AND WHEN? 1. touched: jim. 2. talked to: lindsay. 3. hugged: jim. 4. instant messaged: LOLZ AIM?! on fb i dont even remember who it was. 5. kissed: jim. 6. Who broke your heart: lawlz. WHERE DO YOU 1. eat: at .. the .. dinner .. table..... 2. dance: jane baron's academy :) 3. cry: i guess wherever i am that i am upset lol idk? HAVE YOU EVER... 1. Dated one of your best friends?: yeah. 2. Loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: stop being so dramatic. 3. Drank alcohol?: yuh. 4. Done drugs?: nope. 5. Broken the law?: probz. 6. Ran away from home?: maybe. 7. Broken a bone?: nope. 9. Skinny dipped?: nope. 10. Played Truth Or Dare?: yeah maria is a fan. 11. Flashed someone?: nope. 12. Mooned Someone?: nope. 13. Kissed someone you didn't know?: nope. 14. Been on a talk show/game show?: nope. 15. Been in a fight?: psh i feel like all the time. 16. been in a fire truck?: have i?  i don't think so .. i don't really have a desire to. 17. Been on a plane?: yup.  for 6+ hours to ireland.  *dies* 18. Come close to death?: nope. 19. Cheated on your Boy/Girlfriend?: nope. 20. Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride? yeah. 21. Eaten a worm/mud pie?: yerp. 22. Swam in the ocean?: yeeeah.  don't talk about it i want to go but no one will take me lol. 23. Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up?: yeah. WHAT IS... 1. The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: nothing is embarrassing. 2. Your bedroom like?: its shuuuuuuge.  still needs a bed spread and a paint job but whatevz. 3. Your favorite thing for breakfast?: cereal?  idk lol 4. Your favorite thing for lunch?: pizza?  mac and cheese?  whatever you're making for me. 5. Your favorite thing for dinner?: FOOOOOOD. 6. Your favorite Restaurant?: hmm .. ARE YOU... 1. A Vegetarian?: nope. 2. A Good Student?: NOPE. 3. Good At Sports?: ha. 4. Good at wakeboarding/snowboarding?: nope. 5. A Good Singer?:  eh. 6. A good Actor/Actress?: uh? 7. A deep sleeper?: yeah i don't wake up for shit. 8. A Good Dancer?: CHYUz 9. Shy?: umm i don't think so.  i guess it depends on the sitch. 10. Outgoing?: like i said .. depends on the sitch. 11. A good storyteller?: uhhhhhhhh nah.

[randomity-domine]

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