#pjournal

[notababy-babygirl]

28.05.24

[saturniine]

1/27/20 5:30p.m

[notababy-babygirl]

27.05.24

[notababy-babygirl]

29.05.24

[notababy-babygirl]

30.05.24

[princessallura]

I took a stroll down memory lane and went to see if an old journaling site was still around -deadjournal. It had been around with Greatest Journal (I really, really miss that site), P-Journal, Blurty, Livejournal, and many others. I only used it like a few times because of the restrictions they had on it:

You could only make one journal

The place was invitation only

I had considered using it as something personal because my psyche doctor wanted me to start doing some writing. She wanted to see what my moods were like and what was going through my mind. I have been writing it out in pen but I thought a journal online would be much better. 

I know a lot of people don't want to know so much personal shit about me so I don't do a lot of personal information. Maybe I will open an insanejournal just for this. It might be better because I can lock my writing away from my sister seeing it. Maybe it would be for the better.

[minfavanera]

5th Umbral Moon, 32nd Sun

I can't believe tomorrow is the day I'll be leaving home. Miyoko gave me this new journal so I could record my journey. She gave me a few actually. The stacks of old journals in my room must have told her one wouldn't be enough. I'm sure she'll be right. I have no doubt i'll find so many new and enchanting things, and I'll be sure to write about them all!

Gosh just thinking about it makes me jittery! I'm so excited but...also scared. I'm not worried of what things might come my way but I've never left my family before. Mifu insures me constantly that he can handle becoming the head. In fact I think he's a bit cross with me that I spent a month just planning. I know he just wants me to be happy but will everyone really be okay? Will the twins get along? And Eechow...he's so hard to handle and doesn't listen well. Mama and Papa are getting on in their years and while they both are still strong I know the business has grown too much for just the two of them. I should be confident in Mifu. I know he's ready but I can't help worry!

I wonder if the real reason I'm so worried is because I know how much I'll miss them all. I've shed a few tears (or more) already. It was hard not to bust when Miyoko gave me her gift and when Eechow and I was butting heads earlier I even found myself thinking how much i'd miss it. I going to miss everyone, so much.

Oh no, I'm about to cry again! Okay Minfa you got this! No more crying! You're a grown lady and you're going on an adventure!

Speaking of...I guess I should get some sleep. The moon’s already high in the sky and our lively home is so quiet when everyones asleep. I should enjoy resting at home while I can. I promised everyone I'd get up early and cook them breakfast before I head out.