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Crownless // Boa & Yoseob

Screaming. Everything inside of her was screaming. That gut-wrentching, heart shattering type of scream that leaves someone unable to speak for days. The tiger was surprised that her voice didn't join into the mix but she was too busy holding herself together to give it much thought. Everything was cracking and reshaping, torturing her in one breath and comforting her in another. Words were floating from her mouth unbidden, strings of things that didn't make sense as she curled in the fetal position in the forest.

"Goodbye, goodbye. The tiger dies with the lamb, did you know?" A giggle escaped her lips which was followed by a grimace as pain pounded through her head. Hand pressed to her head, the the next words were spoken slightly differently. "Oh darling, there is no escaping your own pain. Try as you might it is all futile. The walls will crumble and nothing will be left. Only death shall be your salvation." A growl formed in her throat. "Back off, asshole." "Make me, you mangy feline." "We all fall down and there's no more posies needed."

The banter continued on the same vein and would have until the sounds of footsteps hitting ground floated to her ears. Pausing mid sentence, her head tilted. "Hello? Have you come to seal the fate of all others? Darkness clouded in innocence will forever be tainted. Only time will tell if the darkness will swallow you whole or fade away." Another giggle. "If you live long enough that is."

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Hello Fascination // Taemin & Boa

She was sitting in the common room of her dormitory, a bottle of undefinable liquid in her hands. Earlier that morning a woman that could only be labeled as a gypsy - she'd all but accosted Boa on her walked back to her dorm from the forest, smelling of old wood and mystery - had pressed this bottle into her hands. Her only explanation was that it could give the tiger freedom for a day before the woman disappeared into thin air and left her standing there perplexed.

Fingers tracing the sides, she dared not to open container just yet. It could be a poison for all she knew. One whiff and she'd be dead on the floor. One question was plaguing her however and that was: freedom from what exactly? What could this potion give her that she didn't already have? What if it made you forget. What if it made us happy. And there was her human side providing it's annoying comments. Be adventurous. Playing with the cap, common sense told her that the woman wouldn't have been able to get onto the campus if she meant to hurt one of them so it mustn't be too terrible. She took a breath and without a second thought she unscrewed the top, knocking the potion back in one go. If this was going to harm her, she damn well didn't want to take it slow. With a soft sigh the minute she was done, the tiger allowed her hand to fall back to her lap, screwing the cap back on, a small bit of apprehension curling inside of her as she waited for something to happen.

The creak of door hinges brought her attention away from monitoring any change inside of her, the smell of a vampire washing over her. A split second later her mind provided a name; Taemin. Turning her body in the direction of the professor, she opened her mouth to say something, likely just to say hello, but before any words left her mouth a wave of something strange washed over her causing her mouth to snap shut and confusion to paint her features. What the hell was that?

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Extinction // Boa & Gackt

It was deathly quiet when she was finished, the body of her latest victim on a now red forest floor, blood seemingly everywhere. She was covered in the red liquid but it was of no consequence to her. It had taken several hours to get this one where she had wanted it and the thrill of an accomplished hunt was singing in her veins. The blood was hot and delicious and her appetite was sated, however temporary. Too elated to stop herself, the tiger began twirling around a bit. If one was to see the spectacle she was putting on they'd be both enchanted and repulsed. She was the picture of horrific yet majestic beauty, the blood seeming to only enhance those qualities as it started to slowly dry. Nothing could bring her down in that moment.

She was sufficiently bored and tired by the time she'd decided to go back to the Academy, having found that beds were sufficiently more comfortable than the forest floor. Her movements were slow and she'd failed to remember to wash herself clean of the blood covering her. It covered every inch of her, staining the flowing dress she wore and tangling her hair just a bit. It was even coating her bare feet, wiping off onto the ground as she walked and creating a trail that would be easily washed by the rain the following morning. 

Close to her dormitory and stinking of the metallic substance all over her, the tiger had stopped fully concentrating on the world around her so when the presence of another hit her senses like a freight train she froze immediately. A growl rose in her throat and she tried to remember all her escape routes in the area she was in, only to pause when a familiar smell tugged at her consciousness. It took another second before a name was brought forward. Gackt. A name full of complex feelings that made her smile and frown, be comfortable and be weary. One that made her humanity tug at it's confines inside of her. What would he say at the sight of her? Her curiosity was what ultimately made her stay in place, waiting for him to stumble upon her.

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I'm Just Waiting Till The Firing Stops // Open Para

Frozen. That was the first thing she felt upon awakening, body shaking and mind cloudy. A cold that was present both inside and out, eating away at every bit of warmth it could find. Never in her life had she been so cold, so far removed from the touch of life. How she had gotten there was foggy and every time she prodded at the reasons or her being so far from her dorm - or what felt so far - her heart gave a lurch, reminding her of it’s existence. Only, the pain she found there made her wish that she didn’t, wish that it would just fade into the ice that it had been falling into before she’d tried to find it.

Everything and everyone left. Her parents, her friends, her family, her lover. A choked sob left her at the last bit and she hated herself for it. Hated this weakness. Hated that he’d found a way to make it so she’d never see him again. A mirthless laugh left her at that. She’s never see again so what was the point? Even Gackt had tried to leave. Even when she loved him, he’d been so adamant in leaving his life, so tired of living. If Hongki hadn’t stopped him she’d be that much farther from life. Maybe it was time for her to leave, to let go of the life she’d been so desperate to have, so desperate to hold onto. She wasn’t so desperate now.

Now’s as good as any cutie. Let go, we’ll catch you as you fall. Just let go and maybe you’ll find what you’re looking for in death.

The voices were back and she was too tired to fight them, exhaustion preventing her from running like her mind urged her to. It wouldn’t be so bad to die here. It was cold enough, mind hazily telling her that she was lying on cold rock, the air frigid and damp around her. All she had to do was slip away, fall asleep. If no one found her she’d be gone, just like that. No fuss, no muss. It would be so easy and maybe it was better that way.

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Blow // Self Para

She was lost. So completely and utterly lost in both the figurative and the literal sense. Her mind was playing tricks on her and he couldn't do anything about it. She had no anchor, nothing to hold onto as she drowned in her own mind, lost in the waves of a consciousness that had been put together by sheer force of will. When that will broke so did her mind, able to be put back together if she tried hard enough but not as whole as the version before it.

It wasn't supposed to be like this. She was supposed to be happy or as happy as one could be after what she'd gone through. The training, the killing, the blinding. It was supposed to make her stronger and it had but she was crumbling again, taking that plunge into nothingness. In that moment she didn't know what was real or a figment of her imagination. Laughter, taunting, singing, screaming. The tiger thought she was alone, lost in the woods, but her mind told her she had to flee. Run as fast as she could and she had, phantoms screaming and accusing her before growing silent as her heart pounded.

Oh come now gorgeous, don't run from us. We're only just getting started. 

The voice filled her mind again, the one that she'd awoken to only hours before. The one that had started this panic. It darkened everything it touched, making her mind as fragile as glass. It made her weak but she still fought it, always fought it. The darkness in her vision mocking her constantly.

You'll never win cutie, you'll have to pay for your crimes eventually. Your dorogoi and lover will never love you until you do.

She broke free for a second, clutching at the memories of those she loved knowing that that was a lie, reality sneaking in, telling her that she was on her knees in a forest. It was cold and that only seemed to invite the demons in her head. Boa wasn't sure what would become of her when this ended but it would be a far cry from what she had been before. A fragment of her that would be lost yet again and It would never end until her mind was so beaten that it would be impossible for it to be put back together again. She was struggling to stand when they came back and the tiger did the only thing she could against an onslaught she couldn't fight, she curled into a ball on the forest floor and tried to wait it out. Silent tears fell from her eyes and she only got a reprieve when the sun's warm hit her face, her phantoms caressing her mind as they left, promising to be back for more. The weretiger didn't move, just lied there and waited. For what, she didn't know but she was going to lay there for as long as she could and just listened to the sounds of nature around her.

Later, when someone finally found her, she would wonder how she could have lain there for four days and not move an inch but that would be then and not now.

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You're Interested in Me? // Chanyeol & Boa

Daring to again leave the familiar safety of his dorm room, Chanyeol found himself in the small courtyard in the center of the school. He had his laptop tucked under one arm, and a small briefcase with a few tools and shards of metal in his hand. Though Chanyeol thoroughly enjoyed being in his dorm, he hadn't breathed fresh air in days, so he figured why not do some work and experimentation outside?  Other than school work, Chanyeol's only other form of enjoyment was experimenting and inventing, as well as repairing a computer or other electronig here and there. No one cared about anything he invented, and most of the time he threw whatever he invented into his junk pile sooner or later. He became preoccupied with one invention for weeks on end, but when it was completed, he became bored with what he made very fast and ended up disassembling soon after. Only on a few rare occasions was his goal to make an invention worth keeping and using.  As Chanyeol looked around the courtyard, he spotted a nice tree that had plenty of shade under it; that's perfect to prevent glare on your laptop screen. Shuffling over to the spot, he plopped down onto the grass and set his things down. Taking a deep sigh of the fresh air, he rested his back against the trunk of the tree, and for a brief moment he closed his eyes, attempting to enjoy the outside air which he rarely allowed himself to experience. After a while, he lazily tugged his laptop onto his lap and flipped the cover open, and as soon as the computer started up, he began typing down equations and different things he needed for his new experiment.  Since Chanyeol was so determined to get working, he didn't realize that a familiar figure was on the other side of the tree, and as he was working, he still didn't notice her presence. 

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Make Do Without // Donghyun & Boa

It was late but Kwon Boa was never one to give up on anything. The minute she’d woken up to what felt to be five in the afternoon, she’d been trying to identify various plants by memory, using smell and texture alone since taste could very well kill her or make her especially sick. It was arduous and exhausting, having found that she’d used her sight more than anything when labeling and memorizing plants. Her mother would be completely disappointed in her for her lack of knowledge and ability. Even with her murder, Boa could hear her mother's disapproving yet encouraging tone in the back of her mind. Come on Nadya, it's a simple task. I know you can do it, just work harder.

With an angry sigh, the weretiger rubbed at her temples and scowled. How was she supposed to do this? How could she function in this world without her sight? The first few weeks were depressing but she had been hopeful that she could overcome it. Now, however, things didn’t seem so bright. The perpetual darkness in her vision appeared to mock her with its overwhelming deepness, taunting softly in a way that only became abundantly clear in moments like these. Was it possible to go insane in complete darkness even when it is known that the world around you is joyous and bright? Maybe that “when” should be changed to “especially”.

After another hour or two of struggling, she sat back from the table she’d been working on, bordering on being infuriated. The only thing that was stopping her from lashing out was the exhaustion that seemed to consume her. One step forward, two steps back. It was a dance she tired of. Sure nothing I the world was easy but why did everything have to be so damn hard? It made her head ache. One day the tiger was going to snap, and she feared the consequences of that event. Until it happened, however, she would just continue moving forward.

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We All Fall Down // Open Para

Her hands were shaking, mind completely empty except for the words JR had read to her the night before. Even now, after crying until she thought she couldn't any longer, the tears continued to fall unbidden down her cheeks. Gackt was gone. He'd killed himself, or so his note led her to believe, and why would he write such a thing if he wasn't going to kill himself. The first person she'd ever truly leaned on, the one who knew her and her him, or so she'd thought. The one who'd been her first innocent love regardless of his feelings in return. She felt cold and numb.

It was in the wee hours of the morning when she'd woken, her boyfriends arms around her. The need to know, the need to touch his body and know for sure rose in her and she'd carefully extracted herself, almost stumbling from her dorm. The tiger had slowly started to walk to his dorm, making that her first destination. That was were she was now, that slow and torturous walk. Would she find his body? She was silently thankful that she couldn't see because his lifeless face would have never left her memory. Boa didn't want his fortune, only him alive. She'd give almost anything for that.