Butterfly
Tamaki Amajiki x Fem! Reader
Warnings: fluff, suggestive themes, angst, violence and major character death
Word Count: 6939
Synopsis: The renowned shy but brave hero, Suneater passes and his life is celebrated by his family and close friends.
Italics mean flashback
Tag list; @kingtamakimurder, @tamasoft, @shoutosplaything
It was funny how the world worked. How time worked. How every little second could be a traumatic change or an insignificant change in someone’s life. Time was an endless loop of change, whether one was ready or not.
The gust of cold wind descended upon you, regardless of wearing a jacket you could still feel it’s rough clutches against your skin, making your body scream at you for being there.
Underneath your umbrella, you meekly looked up towards the grey sky, watching the rain hit against the sheer protection, each hit harder than the last.
The rain seemed to distract you from everyone around you. By yourself, you stood by a big tree. No one seemed to approach you. Giving you the time you deserved by yourself. To let yourself fall in your hole of grievance.
Heavy footsteps approached from behind as a big yet gentle hand was placed on your shoulder. “Y/N” the voice said. Mirio.
You whipped your head around quickly to meet his glossy eyes that threatened to spill his tears. Beside him stood Neijre, who was gripping her umbrella with both hands, and in between those hands was one simple red rose.
Tamaki loved red roses.
A sad smile graced your features as you felt your tears spill. “I can’t thank you guys enough for coming..”
“We wouldn’t miss it for the world Y/N-Chan,” Neijre said softly, walking up to you and wrapped an arm around you, careful not to squish the delicate flower in her hand.
Mirio watched both of you with saddened eyes. He couldn’t believe what was going on. The tension in the air was too thick. It felt like it was suffocating him whole.
“We should get going inside yeah?” Mirio asked, looking off somewhere, gripping the black fabric of his pants.
“Yes..” you said shakily and took a deep breath. “We should get going..it should be starting soon”
The pair stood on either side of you, linking their arms with yours as you all made it inside for the celebration.
Celebration. Wasn’t that a funny word to celebrate the life of a loved one? Celebrate what they had to offer as a person to those around them. You loathed the word starting now. You didn’t want to celebrate.
You just wanted Tamaki Amajiki back.
As you made your way closer to the front, your feet felt heavy as if you felt like you were being dragged. Your eyes locked on the black casket that was surrounded by dozens of pretty flowers, each having their special meaning. A photo of the person was standing beside the casket.
The casket that held the body.
The casket that held the dead love of your life, Tamaki Amajiki.
You started shaking your head as you dug your heel into the ground, refusing to move. “I can’t do it. I can’t face him. I can’t” you chanted ‘I can’t’ over and over like a mantra.
Mirio’s grip on your arm tightens. “Yes, you can. You have too. This is your closure. For you. For all of us.”
“I can’t!” You cried and covered your mouth to muffle the sobs attempting to escape. Others who were invited glanced in your direction, pity evident in their eyes. Out of everyone you were hit hardest.
“I can’t look at him again knowing he won’t come home! I can’t look at him again knowing he won’t be saying I love you! I can’t Mirio! I lost him!”
“No, we lost him!” He snapped and gripped both of your arms, making you face him. “It was my fault! It’s my fault he’s gone! How can I be named Lemillion if I can’t save one person?! I’m supposed to save millions of people! But I couldn’t even save Tamaki! My best friend! It should be me in that casket and not Tamaki!” He yelled through his tears, not caring if he looked like a mess.
“Mirio.,” you whispered shakily and clasped your hands together tightly, holding them to your chest.
“I’m sorry!” He sobbed and wiped his eyes with the back of his hands. “I’m sorry Y/N! If only I was quick enough! Strong enough! If only I didn’t distract him! If I was those things Tamaki would still be here!” He cried in agony.
“Mirio please stop! Don’t blame yourself! Tamaki wouldn’t think this is your fault. Please stop begging yourself” you begged him with desperation, reaching forward and engulfing his bigger hands into your smaller ones. “Please don't..” you whispered
He looked up at you. His eyes were screaming pain and agony. He was digging his hole and he was falling deeper and deeper.
“I’m sorry” was all he said and wiped his eyes, forcing a smile on his face. “I know it’s hard. Come on. He’s waiting for us”
You stared at him unsure before nodding your head, gripping the black skirt you had on.
A soft hand wrapped around your arm and began tugging you. “Come on Y/N. It’s going to begin soon.” Neijre spoke up softly.
A celebration. That’s all it was. A sad disturbing celebration.
You ran your hand on the open casket. Your bottom lip trembled as you reached forward, grabbing onto Tamaki’s cold calloused hand into your warm one.
“Hi Tama..it’s me..” you whispered. “You look so peaceful, honey… you’re safe now..”
“Y/N.” A voice said from behind as you looked over your shoulder.
Taishiro and Eijirou stood there, a look of regret and sorrow displayed on their face. You couldn’t trust yourself to speak. You gave a curt nod and a sad smile. Your eyes spoke more than words.
You couldn’t care less who arrived or who didn’t. It shows who cared most. Who cares about Tamaki the most. Everyone seemed to file in one by one, each wearing an emotional mask. You couldn’t tell if it was a lie or truth.
It was sad.
It was terrible.
Yet why did you feel like no one here cared besides a few?
You couldn’t stop yourself from thinking about those horrible thoughts.
“Today we celebrate the life of Suneater or to his friends and family, Tamaki Amajiki..”
You blanked out. You couldn’t listen. You refused to let go of his cold hand. You were afraid when you let go he would disappear from you forever. You didn’t want to celebrate his years of life.
You just wanted him back in your arms. Alive. Warm.
Not dead. Cold.
Numerous speakers went up. Taishiro, Mirio, Neijre, and Tamaki’s parents.
“Can we please have our last speaker, Y/LN Y/N come up and speak on behalf of Tamaki Amajiki?”
Your head perked up at the sound of your name as you took a deep breath, leaning over and kissed the knuckles of Tamaki’s hand, lingering your lips on it. “I’ll be back my love…” you whispered against the skin.
Neijre reached over and grabbed your spare hand, Mirio placing his over hers as they both gave you a comforting nod.
You nodded in return and stood up tall, moving past everyone as you made your way up to the podium surrounded by the beautiful arrangement of flowers. Under different circumstances, you would have enjoyed the variety.
You walked up the steps, hands running over the smooth wood of the podium. Millions of eyes kept their gaze fixated on your trembling form as you reached in your pocket, pulling the folded paper out.
You couldn’t remember how you found yourself here. It was all a blur. “I uh..thank you for everyone that came. It means a lot to me and I know that.. it means a lot to Tamaki as well” you started and unfolded the paper, staring at the black ink of your writing.
You took a deep breath and flattened the paper down. You opened your eyes and glanced at the resting body. Finally at peace.
Your mouth opened to speak but no words came out, only incoherent noises. Your group of friends consisting of, Neijre, Mirio, Eijirou, and Taishiro all stared at you with worry. From the looks of it, it looked like Neijre was about to get up and stand up there with you but Mirio held her down.
A simple movement of your hand pushing a lock of hair behind your ear to calm your nerves. It might not have helped but it was something.
You spoke up, “Tamaki Amajiki wasn’t the most confident man out there. Like every other human he had his doubts, but he was far by worse. His anxiety always got the best of him. However, he was like no other. He was sweet. He was kind, compassionate, and selfless. He always made sure others' needs were in front of his. He was careful. He was passionate. A perfectionist one would say. In the eyes of another, Tamaki was far from perfect. In my eyes.. he was an angel. His perfect imperfections. His flaws. How could I not love him?”
A sad smile made its way to your face as you clasped your hands together tightly. “His favorite thing in the world was Butterflies. It was a delicate love for them. Every time he would see one he would go on and on about their species. It warmed my heart to see it firsthand. I remember our first date consisted of butterfly watching. I will admit I wasn’t the biggest fan of it, but seeing his smile was the best win for me.”
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Tamaki was a passionate lover no doubt. He had his ups and downs with himself but that didn’t stop him from trying to be the best boyfriend.
The birds outside chirped softly. The sunlight peeking out from behind your curtains into your shared room, draping across your bed where the two of you laid.
A calloused but gentle hand traced lazy circles onto your arm. His soft eyes watched as your body rose and fell slowly with each breath you took. His gaze fell to your neck, face getting hot when he saw the marks he had given you the night prior.
An angel is what he would say. The way your hair sprawled underneath you, your angelic form as you slept, the soft snores you let out. The soft light of the sun outlining your perfect imperfections. He adored you. Every single part of you.
He leaned up on his elbow and traced the outline of your lips with the pad of his finger ever so softly, with a feathery like touch.
A small smile graced his lips when he noticed you stirring in your sleep before opening your eyes slowly, adjusting from your slumber.
This was the best part of your morning. Receiving the best present you could ever ask for. Tamaki by your side. You drank in his appearance. His messy indigo locks that somehow looked perfect. His tired yet bright eyes boring into your own.
Your gaze fell to his marked-up collarbones and chest, memories of your intimate moment with him flooding your mind immediately.
The feeling of him on top of you, holding you close and driving you closer to the edge as he whispered sweet nothings into your ear. Words of love exchanged between the two of you as you became one.
“Morning Tama..” you whispered tiredly and reached up, cupping his cheek with one hand. A gentle stroke to his cheek with your thumb had him close his eyes in satisfaction.
“M-morning bunny” was his reply as he opened his eyes again, fully getting on top of you, one of his hands resting beside your head.
“Mmm, you want more Tama?” You teased and lazily wrapped your arms around his neck, playing with his locks in the back. “But it’s so early”
“Yeah and? That hasn’t stopped us in the past has it?” He questioned and lowered his head to your chest, nipping the soft skin above your breast as you let out a shaky breath.
“N-no I suppose it hasn’t” you whispered and ran your hand through his messy locks, enjoying the way he shuddered when your hand grazed against the tip of his ear.
He let out a purr like noise as he laid his head on your chest, wrapping an arm around your torso to keep you close to him.
These were the moments you cherished. Him and you basking in each other’s warmth, each other’s company, and the silence. The way your legs would entangle, feeling his soft skin on yours.
His soft breathing started to even out slowly, hit your bare chest. “Falling asleep on me already huh?”
He weakly shook his head and tighten his grip on you. “Course not… j-just enjoying you bunny.” He said in his soft voice, grabbing your left hand that rested on his head, bringing it to his lips as he kissed the circlet that delicately rested on your finger. “I still can’t believe you said yes..”
“Huh? Course I would say yes. Why wouldn’t I?”
He grew quiet as his pointed ears drooped a bit. “Because I’m not special at all. I always thought I was a bad lover. You’re so good and I’m nothing like you...I feel like you deserve better than me.”
Your heart ached at his confession. You always knew his self-esteem wasn’t the best. No matter how hard you tried reassuring him he couldn’t listen. As much as he wanted to listen it was too hard for him.
“Tama..” you whispered and placed a finger underneath his chin, tilting his head up to meet your eyes.
His eyes were glossy as a single tear went down his cheek. You leaned forward and kissed the tear away, ignoring the slight salty taste in your mouth.
“You’re special to me and me only Tama..” you started. “You aren’t a bad boyfriend you’re the best I’ve had in my life. You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me... and in fact, it was me who thought you deserved better. You showed me what love is. When you asked me to marry you I was so ecstatic. I still am. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you” you finished with a small smile, cradling his cheeks in your hands.
“I-I’m sorry for doubting bunny...I wish I was stronger for you”
“But you’re already so strong, isn’t that right Suneater?” You teased lightly, using his hero name. The tips of his ear went red as he quickly buried his head in your breasts. That was his favorite hiding spot as he told you weeks ago.
“Y-you can’t just say things like that bunny..” his words came out muffled. You began to stroke his hair again. “But I only do it because I like getting reactions out of you is all.”
You let out a small yelp when you felt him nip at your skin again, harder than the last. “K-keep talking like that and I’ll be getting reactions out of you.”
“Oh, I don’t doubt it Tama.”
He meekly looked up at you, a blush adorning his features as he gave you a quick kiss on the lips. A hand of his gently pushed you down on the bed as he hovered over you, leaning down and capturing your lips with his.
It was a sweet gentle kiss. But this felt needier. The way he pressed himself up against you, feeling your body as if you would disappear. The way his lips were desperately moving against yours.
He pulled away suddenly and dipped his head down, placing desperate kisses along the crook of your neck.
You let out a low mewl. “T-Tama what's gotten into you?” You whispered.
He lifted his head quickly. “I just love you bunny” he confessed, sounding somewhat confident. “And I just want to cherish you.”
If you didn’t grow soft you swore your heart did. You teared slightly up at his confession. “I love you too Tamaki.”
Before he could continue with his actions his phone went off. He let out a low groan and rolled over on the bed, reaching for his phone. Without even looking he answered. “Hello?”
You couldn’t hear who it was so for the meantime while you waited, you played with the ring that sat on your hand beautifully.
It was a delicate thing. A rose gold band with a simple diamond rose sitting at the top. Simple and beautiful. Just the way you imagined it. The perfect one.
“Right now?” Tamaki’s voice startled you from your thoughts. “Yes, but I thought today wasn’t till later n-no..?” He let out a frustrated sigh. “O-okay I’m coming now then..”
“Who was that love?”
“Fatgum. Says he needs me to start patrolling now even though I don’t start till later”
A pout formed on your lips. “Now? Let me talk to him and I’ll change his mind”
A small chuckle left his lips as he gave you another quick but yet gentle kiss to which you happily returned. “I appreciate it b-bunny but there’s no arguing with him.”
You watched as Tamaki grabbed a small blanket, wrapping it around his lower half as he got off the bed, the bed dipping for a slight second.
Watching Tamaki get ready was amazing to you. You didn’t know why. Maybe it was the way he would carefully put his folded clothes back in their respected drawer or the way he carefully put on his clothes.
Or the fact that he was in the moment with you.
“At least let me make you something to eat”
A shake of his head as he started getting dressed. “I-it’s okay bunny. I can just b-buy something out on the street”
A pout formed on your lips as you sat up, holding the sheet to your chest. “Are you sure? I don’t mind”
“I’m sure. You get rest since your patrol is later”
Yes, you were Pro-Hero (Y/HN). Your quirk was called Smoke Plume. You were able to convert the oxygen you inhaled into scorching gas that can either be exhaled through your mouth or pores. The more oxygen you inhale, the higher the temperature gets. Due to this, you were used to extreme heat.
You let out a small sigh and watched him put on the gold plating on his arms and shoulders once he had put on the black suit.
You blindly reached over the bed in search of his shirt he had on last night. Once finding it you put it on yourself, enjoying the way it was loose around your smaller frame. The shirt reached down and covered the curve of your ass.
Walking over to him, you laid your head on his back as you reached for his hands. “You’re amazing Tamaki..every single day you amaze me to no end. You’re so cool Tama.”
A smile tugged at his lips as he brought your hand to his mouth, kissing the knuckle gently. “T-thank you bunny..you’re so amazing”
A giggle passed through your lips. “I know”
Once Tamaki finished getting dressed you followed him to the door, quickly grabbing his white cape. “W-Wait”
He turned around, a concerned look displayed on his face. “B-Bunny? What’s wrong?”
You bit your lip and clenched the cape tighter. “I just..I don’t know..it doesn’t feel good today..”
He tilted his head to the side faintly and placed his hands on your hips, bringing you closer. “What do you mean?” He whispered.
“Just be safe out there okay?”
He nodded in agreement and kissed your forehead, keeping his lips there before pulling away. “I will”
“I love you, Tamaki. So much”
“And I… l-love you more bunny” a smile tugged at your lips. Still, after these years, Tamaki had trouble using his words. You stood up on your tiptoes and kissed him gently.
He pulled away a couple of seconds later and cradled your cheek, kissing your forehead once more before detaching himself from you. “I’ll s-see you in a couple of hours, bunny.”
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Tamaki couldn’t help but cover his face more by pulling his hood lower. It wasn’t that he hated his fans, he was nervous whenever a small child would come up to him or a group of people from across the street waved at him.
“Y/N always knows how to interact with them..” he mumbled to himself and felt the cold concrete against his bare feet as he patrolled the area. Fatgum said there was a bit more activity in the area lately and called him earlier than he needed too.
It’s been at least 5 hours into his patrol. He had his fair share of Takoyaki Balls, maybe a bit more than he normally does but he didn’t care.
As he kept patrolling he kept a good leisure pace. Like usual, he was stuck in his thoughts. Wonder what Y/N is doing right now.. he thought and turned a corner.
Maybe you were watching your favorite show on TV or possibly making something to eat before you patrolled. Maybe making dinner for both of you when you would return home together.
A loud explosion from the other side of the area interrupted his thoughts. With a gasp and he looked up and quickly manifested his hand into a clamshell, protecting his body from the falling debris.
A domino effect seemed to have happened. One building after the other. His eyes widened in horror as he saw a building come crashing down immediately. Screams of innocent civilians filled his ears.
“It can’t be the league..” he whispered and uncovered himself, taking off in the direction of the chaos.
He panted softly as he stopped in front of a burning building.
“M-Mommy!” A little girl no older than 6 sobbed as she knelt in front of a rather large building piece that was smothering the body of the child’s mother. Her upper half was exposed to the outside as the lower and covered.
“Y-you have to get up!” She sobbed and tugged on the bloody hand, not aware that something was about to collapse on top of her small body.
Tamaki quickly manifested his fingers into tentacles and wrapped a tentacle around the young girl, yanking her to him.
The young girl panted heavily and clenched her fingers around his cape. “Y-you have to help my mommy! She’s stuck! She needs you!”
It felt as if the words weren’t able to come out. His mouth suddenly felt dry as he stared down at the frail girl. “I…”
“Suneater!”
He looked up quickly and mentally sighed in relief at the person who was running towards him
“I’ll take care of her! We already have a station for civilians!” Mirio said in urgency, taking the girl from Tamaki’s arms and held her close to his chest.
“This is big. We need backup now.”
Tamaki nodded in agreement and fully stood up. “Did he already?”
Mirio nodded his head. “Not even 5 minutes ago he called her. She’s on her way.”
Tamaki let out a shaky breath. “A-alright..stay safe.”
“You too”
Tamaki didn’t waste time and ran off in the opposite direction.
Mirio glanced over his shoulder, feeling a slight tug in his outfit.
“E-excuse me mister..is everything going to be okay?” The girl whispered, shaking in his arms.
Mirio’s heart ached but still nodded regardless. “You bet! You saw that man right now? He’s amazing! He’ll put a stop to it no doubt!” He flashed one of his famous smiles and patted the top of her head.
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After you saw what happened on the news, not even 3 minutes later you got a call from Fatgum.
Of course, you picked up and found out they needed your help. That’s how you found yourself here. Running through the streets as you inhaled as much oxygen as you possibly could for your quirk to work.
Looking both ways you ran across the alleyway into a Main Street. All around you were burning buildings and the bodies of dead civilians. Hero’s lower in the ranking than you were helping those trapped under debris or on the verge of death, hoping there was still hope for them.
You caught a peak at Fatgum and let out a sigh of relief, running over to him. “Are you okay?! Is Tamaki okay?!”
Fatgum nodded tiredly in reply and tied up the villain, tightening the restraints on their wrists. “Yes, he’s fine. Just meet up with him. And be careful” he ordered and stood up.
You nodded and fixed your black mask, running off again.
From where you stood you saw a body flying in the air as it collided with the wall, falling with a grunt. “Who the fuck is that freak..” he weakly mumbled before standing up quickly, making eye contact with you.
A wicked grin tugged on his lips as he suddenly ran at you at full speed. A gasp left your mouth as you dodged his hit, grabbing him by the of his arm and slammed him into the wall.
“You may be smart (Y/HN) but you can’t outsmart me!” he yelled as one of his hands detached from his body, grabbing you by your hair and tugged you down, kicking your face once you were level.
Blood spewed from your mouth as you landed on the ground with a hard thud, a groan emitting from your mouth. Your body came in contact with a sharp object. The object stabbed into your side but nothing vital. You laid there like a fish out of water, small puffs of gas emitting from your mouth but not enough to do any damage. “Poor poor girl.,” he said lowly and attached his hand back to his wrist. “You are strong. But not for me. Don’t worry. Someone will be joining you very very soon...Now die!” he yelled and grabbed a knife from his pocket, running at you.
You inhaled as much oxygen as your weak body could as he got closer with each step. Have to time this right!
Once he was in the distance of you, you opened your mouth and let everything out. You could only hold it for so long before you got light-headed. The man coughed and waved the gas out of there before making choking noises as he inhaled. His eyes widened as his skin began to form boils, his hand dropping the knife as he clawed at his throat.
“Move!”
Your eyes widened at the voice as you covered your body.
A talon appeared through the orange gas as it held the body down, a tentacle wrapping around his legs. Tamaki panted softly as he stared at you. “Back up is coming (Y/HN),” he said before his eyes narrowed down on the red spot forming on your white bodysuit. His tentacle tightened around the passed out body.
“W-what happened?! Y-you’re bleeding! You need to get help now!”
You weakly got up and leaned against the wall for support. “I’m okay Tama..” You said lowly and flashed him a weak smile. “I’ll be okay”
He still didn’t look convinced. “But bunny..”
“Tamaki! One got away! We need you and (Y/N) to come with!” Mirio said from far away as he jogged to meet the both of you, weary of his surroundings. “The police are coming right now to take him. We don’t know what this guy’s quirk is so we have to be extra care- Woah! (Y/N) you’re bleeding!”
“Yeah I figured that out already..” you grunted once you felt Mirio at your side, immediately wrapping a bandage around your wound. Where did he get the bandage? You had no idea.
The police arrived and immediately arrested the villain. After speaking with you, Tamaki pulled you aside and placed his hands on your shoulders, indigo eyes boring into your own. “Are you sure you're okay bunny…? We can go to the hospital right now”
“Tama..” you started with a sigh and placed a hand on top of his that was resting on your shoulder. “I’m okay. I’m okay. We still have one more villain to catch. You guys still need my help.”
“I know that but I don’t want you to hurt yourself more than you already did.”
“Do you not trust my abilities?”
“W-what?! I trust you so much bunny! I just can’t lose you..” the last came out in a whisper as he suddenly wrapped his arms around you but not tight to hurt you and brought you to his chest. “I love you too much..”
You inhaled his scent that was disappearing with the sweat and the smell of ash and debris from the explosion earlier. “I love you too Tama..but I’ll be okay. I promise you. After all, you’re stuck with me forever, remember?” you teased to lighten the mood, lifting your head so your chin rested on his chest as you stared up at him
His cheeks darkened at the remembrance of his proposal. “Y-yeah of course I remember bunny” he stuttered and looked elsewhere but you.
A chuckle escaped your lips as you made him look at you, leaning in and capturing his lips in your one. Your lips moved in harmony as you felt him lightly nip your lower lip. Your hands clenched at the straps of his outfit before pulling away, a light string of saliva which was a token of your kiss.
“Aww, you guys are so cute together! Just wait till Neijre finds out about you guys kissing on the job!” A happy Mirio chirped from behind you two. Tamaki let out a squeak as he covered his face with his hood as you rubbed your arm in embarrassment. Mirio always knew who to interrupt you two.
“Yeah, whatever! We still have to find someone!” You said flustered and tried ignoring the heat on the nape of your neck from embarrassment. “You said you don’t know his quirk, do you know what he looks like?”
Mirio shook his head in disappointment. “No, we don’t. Least not for long. Only a glimpse of him. One of them fessed up saying there was one more out there.”
You scratched your chin in thought. “Camouflage quirk? Invisibility? Maybe shapeshifter?”
“That could be it..” Tamaki mumbled under his breath. “We should get going though. We shouldn’t stay in the same spot. Mirio you go on ahead before us. I’ll stay with Y-“
“No, you won’t. You go on with Mirio. I’ll be fine. Both of you are at your strongest right now. It’ll make sense for both of you to go together.”
Tamaki stared at you for which you just nodded simply. “Go. We’re wasting time.”
“Go.”
“Tamaki come on” Mirio urged and grabbed Tamaki by his wrist. “Faster we move, the faster we can leave.”
Tamaki nodded slowly and followed him, shooting a glance over at you. “Stay safe.”
“You too Tama. And you as well Mirio.”
“Aw, she cares about me!” He laughed and walked down the street before turning the corner with Tamaki.
There was an unsettling feeling in your gut that you couldn’t shake the feeling from. Something was going to happen. But you didn’t know what.
“So Tamaki soon huh?” Mirio said, trying to break the silence as they looked for the last villain.
“Soon what? What do you mean?”
“You’re getting married! Duh! Don’t tell me you forgot already!”
Tamaki gulped faintly and looked down at his bruised up bare feet. “Y-yeah it’s soon..”
“Are you excited?”
“What k-kind of question is that?”
“A valid one Tamaki!”
“Of course I’m excited to get married to her..just nervous as always. She’s been stressing about the small details. The wedding isn’t even for another 2 months.”
“Well, it’s Y/N. She wants to make sure every little thing is right. Maybe that’s why both of you are good for each other huh?” The blond teased his friend, nudging him with his shoulder.
A pleased smile made its way onto Tamaki’s face as he stared up at the night sky. “Yeah... I guess that’s why”
Mirio glanced over at his friend’s pleased state before looking back forward.
“Have lots of kids”
Tamaki choked on his saliva and looked at him thinking he was crazy. “Why did you say that?! Don’t say it like that!”
“Oh come on Tamaki! I wanna be the cool uncle! Uncle Mirio! That’s me!” He said proudly and jabbed his thumb into his chest, a smug look on his face.
“Y-Yeah but you shouldn't ta-“
His words got cut off as he choked on air, eyes widening.
Mirio quickly turned to face him as his eyes widened in horror.
There Tamaki stood, a blade sticking out in the middle of his chest. He gasped for air as his back arched, falling on his knees as blood began to seep out from the wound.
“Tamaki!!!”
A scream of terror was heard across the street. Y/N, Mirio thought as he made himself permeable, going underneath and came from behind the villain, grabbing the sword that was formed from his palm.
Footsteps from the other side emerged louder with each heavy step.
It all happened slowly. Mirio was able to immobilize the villain. You quickly made your way to Tamaki, stumbling as you fell on your knees.
Tamaki laid there, unable to move. Paralyzed. He gasped for air as he blindly searched for your hand to comfort him. “Y-Y/N..”
“Tama I’m right here! I’m right here Tamaki!” You sobbed and grabbed his hand, enclosing it in both of yours. “Tamaki it’ll be okay! Keep your eyes open! Focus on my voice!”
Tamaki looked up at you and squeezed your hand as much as he could. Your figure looked blurry to him. He blinked away the fresh tears and felt them go down his face. “Bunny..”
“K-keep your eyes open! You’re so strong Tamaki! Please! The medics are almost here!”
He started coughing and coughed up blood. Some blood splattered onto your face. You cringed at the feeling of the warm substance on your face.
Tamaki gagged on his blood and spit it out weakly on the side of him, feeling the red substance dribble out of his mouth.
“Butterfly please..it hurts..”
You cried out and held his hand to your mouth, kissing his knuckles.
Over
And over
From behind you stood Mirio, his expression indescribable. Tamaki couldn’t be dying. He just couldn’t. He was strong. This wasn’t Tamaki Amajiki. It couldn’t.
“I k-know baby!” You said through your tears, your vision getting blurrier and blurrier by the second. “You’re so strong Tamaki! I want to be just as strong as you Suneater!”
A weak chuckle passed by his lips. “I told you not to say that bunny..you know what it does to me..”
You forced a smile as you leaned closer. “We’re getting married remember?! A-And we’re going to see the butterfly sanctuary that is opening soon! Remember Tama?! Fight for me, baby! Please!”
“Butterfly...I love you so much..”
You shook your head and kissed him quickly, ignoring the taste of metallic hitting your lips. Your tears fell onto his cheeks, mixing with his own.
Your love is represented in the kiss. A feeling of desperation. A feeling of a small hope that he could make it. His kisses still left you breathless. Even like this, he still made you feel in cloud 9 with a kiss as simple as this.
As a bystander, this was the most tragic thing to witness. The death of a hero. No one wanted to see that. Especially the death of a hero, dying in the arms of their lover.
Many people crowded around on the other side of the street as the area was closed off by police cars. The faint noise of the sirens from afar.
Tamaki weakly kissed back, his hand cradling your cheek as he brought you in deeper.
You choked on a sob in the kiss. You quickly pulled away and noticed his breathing evening out. “No no, Tamaki! I can’t lose you! Not now! Not ever! I love you!!”
“Butterfly…” he got out and made eye contact with you. “Fly high for me butterfly..” he whispered as his chest stopped moving. His hand that was cradling your cheek, fell limp on the floor. However, his eyes were still open, barely. The life inside his beautiful eyes was now gone.
A scream resonated throughout the area. Your scream.
☽✧ ✦ ✧☾
You stared down at the engagement ring that stayed sitting on your hand. You gulped and let the tears flow. You looked up at everyone and gripped the podium.
“T-Tamaki wasn’t weak! Never at all! He was so strong! I wanted to be just like him! He was my inspiration for getting out there and saving people! I wanted to be just like him! I admired him!” You sobbed and covered your mouth with a hand as your shoulders shook, eyes squeezing shut.
“Tamaki showed me what love truly was! He was my sun! He was..he was my Suneater. He was.. he is my world. I love that man so much..” you whispered the last part and bowed your head.
“I thanked Tamaki everyday… Tamaki. My love..thank you for being there for me..f-for always being on my side. For making my day shine with your presence..”
You looked up at your friends. Mirio has his head down in respect as Neijre had a tissue on her mouth, her figure trembling as she kept her sons in. Taishiro had his eyes closed, silent tears flowy as Eijirou was openly sobbing.
“Mr and Mrs.Amajiki..” you spoke up and looked up, making eye contact with his parents.
“Thank you for bringing the most... beautiful person into this world. Thank you, thank you, thank you.” You repeated and bowed your head once again with respect for them.
You finished it off and got off the podium, walking around to the open casket that held your beloved.
“Tamaki..” you whispered and leaned down, kissing his hand, relishing the way his cold skin met your warm lips. “It’s time to get you home..”
You stayed in that position for a second more before leaning up and held your hand out for Mirio to take. He complied as Neijre grabbed his other hand. The 3 of you walked out, heads bowed.
The burial went smoothly as possible, just like you hoped. You watched intently as they buried your beloved. You had your hands close to your chest, Mirio’s arm resting around your shoulders as Neijre had an arm wrapped around your waist, resting her head on your shoulder.
“He’s home..” you whispered to no one in particular. Neijre weakly nodded and grabbed your hand. “He’s home..and he’s safe Y/N-Chan”
The 3 of you stayed behind in that position. Many people came over to say their condolences to you, which you said a sweet thank you to the person.
“I hope you guys don’t mind but..can I have some alone time with him real quick..?”
“No, not at all. Take your time. Come on Neijre” Mirio spoke up for the both of them, turning on his heels as he walked off somewhere else, the periwinkle haired girl following him close behind.
You let out a deep sigh and ran a hand through your hair. “Hey, my love..god it feels weird talking to you like this. I don’t think I’ll ever get used to it but one day I’ll have to huh?” You chimed and sat on the bench that was next to his grave.
“You looked so peaceful over there earlier… I wish I looked that peaceful when I fall asleep now..but I can’t. Because all I think about is you…that’s all I want. I want you back baby. I want you back in my arms again..but I know that can’t happen” you spoke and clasped your hands together, setting them in your lap.
Something small caught your attention from the corner of your eye. You glanced over and saw a purple butterfly land on top of his gravestone.
You let out a small gasp. “Purple Emperor..those are your favorite Tama.,” you whispered and shakily stuck a finger out. The purple emperor majestically flew over to you and landed on your finger.
You stared down at it as tears welled up in your eyes. “Tamaki…” you whispered. At the sound of the name, the butterfly fluttered its wings as if it was responding to you.
“Oh, Tama… you’re so beautiful… a purple emperor. My little emperor… who would have known that you loved butterflies so much you would become one… so beautiful..” you trailed off and admired the beautiful shade of purple with grey gradients and the dash of white markings.
You shook your head lightly and stood up, taking 2 steps until you were standing in front of his grave.
“Keep going Tamaki..fly high for me butterfly” you recalled his words that he told you moments before he passed and gently let the butterfly go, watching it fly off to start its new adventure.
“This isn’t goodbye my love..I’ll see you soon. Wait for me” you whispered and brought your fingers to your lips, kissing them softly and placed it on the cold head of the gravestone.
You nodded internally and lifted your foot off the ground, taking a step towards your friends and continued onward. Their gentle smiles of encouragement kept you going. With your friends and family by your side, you could accomplish anything.
Tamaki’s death not only broke a part of you, but it made you a stronger individual. Acceptance. You were finally ready to accept it. With or without Tamaki, you were finally ready to continue to the next chapter of your life.