@bolontiku / @tiku-tiku he unfortunately been terminated by tumblr. We are unsure on why. But tik’s is trying to get ahold of staff, it might take a few days for any answers/getting the accounts back.
I didn’t want to let this day go by without sending a note of thanks to the fanfic writers out there. I hope everyone is doing well and taking care of themselves. As a reader, I have been a little bit up-and-down this year. Every year I set up goals for my reading. Sometimes I reach them and sometimes not so much. I’ve been overly critical of myself and how I reblog this year. Sometimes I send really long messages in my reblogs and I feel like I can’t keep that same pace. Especially when I’m reading a series. Other times I feel that I’m not being original with my wording and struggle to find what I want to say without being repetitive. While I second-guess what I’m doing, I have actually lost some fics I’ve meant to reblog. I have followed more people and sometimes I worry I miss out on some of your great writing. I try to go through my list from time to time to see what I might have missed and to re-read fics that meet some kind of need or just resonate with me. Even though I don’t know you, I am always astounded by your willingness to share your works and your lives with us. You put yourselves out there for us and it never fails that somebody has to say something completely uncalled for or rude. Every time I read that, my heart hurts for you. We’ve lost a lot of good writers this year because of this nonsense. I hope you all know that there are so many more of us that support you. We all understand the need to take a break sometimes and care for yourselves. Whether or not I say it, I worry about you when you are quiet and hope all is well. This year I am hoping to not be as cautious. I want to reblog the things I like, no matter the content or subject. Also, I think I’m going to try to send more asks to show my appreciation. My hope is for you to find inspiration to write what you like and what moves you. I also hope that you find success, peace and happiness in all that you do. 
I always worry about who I do and do not tag in this kind of post. This is certainly not an exhaustive list but I wanted to acknowledge a few writers that have made my day a little brighter.
Thank you for taking the time to write and post your works 💜
Note: I did end up being late as far as when the writers would be notified with this post. I have been tagging writer blogs in my reblogs so on those days I just wanted to quickly find a story it might be easier since I can’t figure out how to make a masterlist despite being given great directions. So…I used # instead of @ 😬 And that just falls in line with how everything has gone in the past year or so and why blog names didn’t pop up like they were supposed to 🤦♀️😂
A/N::: Inspired by @bolontiku -- from the wonderful “One Word Prompt” (involving Thor) that i saw on my dash!
*steve rogers x reader, drabble
“You good?”
The series of inhales and exhales of your lungs are accompanied by the compressions and decompressions of your bra strap on your back – something the handsome yet unskilled fingers behind you have been trying to unlatch for the past five minutes. Five minutes of your irritation festering. This is so not what you had envisioned for tonight.
“Uh…getting there?” Steve mumbled, focused, his teeth gripping his bottom lip.
Teasingly, you mutter, “You don’t sound so confident.”
But – nothing. Not even a groan in response.
You take a mental note: Never let a super soldier concentrate long on such a mundane task – it’s no fun.
“Hey, hey! Stop it!” He slaps your right hand as it reaches back to assist him, “No, I got it! I’m almost there.”
“You’ve been almost there for a minute now, baby, I promise I can just do it, it’ll be no prob—"
“Here we go, here we go…!”
And in that instant, you feel the thin fabric slide down your chest and replace itself with the coolness of the presently disturbed air, with your nipple buds tightening because of it.
“Boom!”
“Don’t say boom, it’s weird.”
“Your, uh, ‘ta-tas’ like it.”
You glance down and shoot your arms around your chest, covering your breasts in the process.
“Why are you looking at me like that?”
“Because—I—I mean, they’re great! I love them!”
Assenting, you look down once more. “Right! They’re so fun—” you shake your upper body back and forth, your bust jiggling in Steve’s line of view.
He lowers his head, looking up at you with darkened eyes – the bright baby blue that once laid in them gone, vanished due to the building of his own arousal.
“Turn around.” The bass in Steve’s voice makes your lips quiver, growing into a tremor that spreads to your entire body, leaving goosebumps in its aftermath.
You slide your back against his chest, and there, you relax. Slowly, Steve’s careful yet curious hands crawl up your sides and reach their final destination at your breasts, massaging them as he roughly attaches his lips to your neck to suck and kiss.
And in your ear, he whispers, “What was that about my confidence?”
Maybe this night is going to go the way you intended all along.
Summary: Everyone at the compound is taking bets if Bucky will ever gather enough courage to ask you out, which turns into a huge ‘Wager’. A simple threat from his friend might give him final push but will he finally make a move or will he chicken out as he does every week?
A/N: This is for @bolontiku ‘s follower celebration writing challenge.
AU/ Prompt: “Why do you have to ruin my life like this?”
P.S.: Please do not share my writing on anywhere other than Tumblr w/o my consent. You can also find my writings on AO3.
P.P.S: Images taken from Google, Pinterest, collage made by me.
To say Bucky was nervous was an understatement. He had been here before, every Monday to be precise. Well that was when he was not on missions kicking bad guys & saving the world while watching over Steve.
Every Monday morning, he walked into this café.
Sure, Compound had its own Starbucks which served free coffee to avengers, hell they served customized coffee which they could order from their rooms via AI and get it delivered where ever they wanted. It was one of the, Privileges of being Avengers or being coffee addicts or simply because of Tony Stark? One may never know.
But Bucky didn’t like to go there, first off it was too crowded for his liking, second for him it was too impersonal in a way a modern day curse where everything was methodical without a personal touch, third well all of the servers tried to flirt with him & get his number or at least his attention.
Sure third one was not that bad but he particularly didn’t like it being written on his coffee cup without any personal touch. God he hated everything & everyone in 21st century.
Well not ‘everyone’ but still.
So when it became all too much for him one day he stumbled upon this small café not far from the compound, owned by this old jovial couple who were retired from responsibilities of life in general and ran it with sole purpose of serving a good beverage & warmth.
They didn’t ask questions, always had welcoming vibe, they didn’t pressure him to make conversation, especially when he was back from rough missions and he was in his head more than in real world. They just served him beverage after beverage & sometimes made him eat food without him noticing until Sam or Steve came to collect him personally, thanking the old couple for watching over Bucky.
It was just an escape for Bucky until it became more, some months ago.
One day when he was just staring at nothing particular just brooding his heart thumped with raging of sound of motorcycle engine. His eyes the followed the sound and what a sight it was. Literally everything stopped around him.
As if someone or rather life zoomed his focus on you.
There you were, riding that beast of a motorcycle. He was not entirely sure how you were managing to run it so smoothly or park & get off it so seamlessly but god you were an enchanting site to behold.
You walked in with such vibe that he just couldn’t tear his gaze away from you. Clad in dark jeans, heavy boots, sexy leather jacket which was definitely worn out but Bucky guessed its condition was such probably because it was your favorite item to wear. You had one backpack & one sling back on your shoulder, from look of it they looked heavy.
Bucky eyed you suspiciously, suddenly unsure of your intentions. His eyes roamed around checking for threat, it was in his nature to be on guard.
You strolled past his corner table to the counter; Café owner greeted you fondly with a warm smile,
“Ahhh Y/N” he said “So good to see you, I guess your assignment was success as usual?”
“Yes thank you for asking” you answered with equal warmth & smile
“My love look, it’s Y/N” owner called his wife
“You will have the usual Y/N?” he asked you
“Ahhh Y/N, it’s so good to see you” the wife said “You look tired, let me quickly pack one sandwich for you so you will at least have some food in your system before you crash on your bed, don’t know for how many days” she accused you but her tone laced with tease & worry.
Clearly the owner’s knew you well, Bucky relaxed in his chair after seeing the interaction. It still didn’t stop him from staring at you.
“You need refill Bucky?” owner question thinking that’s why Bucky was staring at them, also he knew Bucky didn’t like to speak much.
Bucky just shrugged & brought his cup to the counter. When he stood next to you, your eyes met & you were captivated by his ocean blue gaze. He nodded at you, but you were beyond mesmerized by his appearance, that you just awkwardly nodded.
This made Bucky retract immediately thinking your reaction was normal as anyone else’s as that how 99% people reacted to him.
Only difference was he didn’t want you to fear him or be awkward around him. He wanted you to smile at him like you just did couple of minutes ago when you walked in full of warmth.
Since that day Bucky, saw you more and more in the Café, he got to know you were a photographer, usually busy on weekends and came to have your coffee fill early on Monday mornings since you were swamped with work previous days.
Awkward nods became acknowledgments to small smiles to bright hellos to exchange of names to sitting at the same table being each other’s silent companions to friends. Although from the start Bucky knew he wanted more than friends but he was slowly building it towards the right moment to ask you out.
But that moment never came, every Monday morning he came to café with renewed will to finally ask you out but the moment he met you all his words were lost on his lips.
Soon the word was out about Bucky’s crush & team started taking bets that when, how & if Bucky will ask you out that day.
Soon almost everyone in the compound joined in and it became a huge deal of wager.
Every week he failed to ask you out everyone who lost money use to give him cold shoulder & dirty looks, this included his own trainees.
Even Steve had joined in and kept on betting on him for asking you out, reminding him how suave he used to be in 40’s. As if reminder of his past antics, was going to help Bucky’s nerves.
It was bigger deal than Super Bowl itself... It looked like everyone had an interest in his personal life & that pushed Bucky further away from his goal.
Of course you were clueless about the shenanigans happening in background but yes you were also hopeful that Bucky would ask you out.
It was not that you couldn’t ask him out, you were frankly becoming impatient but after all this time you still were unsure about his feeling towards you and this thought held you back from acting on your own feelings.
But fate had different plans today…
Bucky was sitting at his usual corner table, his gaze dancing between clock & the door, when a moment in the chair next to him startles him a little.
“Would you stop doing that” Bucky grumbled
“Doing what?” his new companion asked
“Appearing out of thin air, it might scare others here Loki” Bucky accused
“Well I can’t help it, & they should fear me” Loki shrugged
“Why are you here?” Bucked asked clearly annoyed
“Well the mid-guardian building got too many people and needed a quiet place to read” Loki answered
“And this is the only place you could come to?” Bucky asked
“Well no, but here is the most amusing situation occurs every week or so I have heard from other gossipmongers around…” Loki shrugged nonchalantly
Since returning to his homeland & to the Avengers specifically, Bucky had developed an odd friendship with Loki, both were outcast of some sort, both had murder stare, both were always brooding, both were feared generally, both were supported by two blondes who no matter what, believed that there was some good left to & that these two deserved a chance at redemption.
Also both had good hair…
So many days like these, they were each other’s silent companions.
“So you are here as a spy for them?” Bucky accused
“Maybe” Loki said silently
Before Bucky could probe some more there it was, sound of your motorcycle.
“Ahhh, there is your mid-guardian” Loki said
“Not mine” Bucky said ‘at least yet’ under his breathe
But he knew from Loki’s smirk, that god of mischief had heard him already.
He didn’t have time to retaliate as you made your way in, as usual greeted other patrons & owners with your smile and warmth. But when your eyes landed on Bucky instead of the usual smile you gave him a timid smile & you looked like you were trying to hide disappointment.
You quickly rearranged your expression and greeted the two gentlemen sitting at their usual place,
“Hello Lo, Hey buck” before making your way to the counter
“Hello Dear” Loki said in rather chirpy voice
Bucky just gave an acknowledging smile, but couldn’t get anything out. He just tried to understand why you looked like you were contemplating something.
He decided that today was maybe not a good day to ask, that outcome was not changing today as well. As if to cement his decision you chose to sit at different table rather than joining the two.
He found it odd but decided to give you, your space although now his mood changed drastically.
“If you are analyzing your midguardians behavior, may I add what do you guys say ‘penny for your thought’?” Loki asked
“Y/N’s mood is such because of you” Loki informed
“Y/N is prepared for yet another disappointment that you will not make a what do you call ‘move’ that’s right” he added
Bucky was surprised by the revalation but now more so glued to spot, he never considered you actually being interested, he never considered what next, if you said yes. He briefly thought why you never made a move but he knew it was his fault entirely, as he was so closed off that you couldn’t take such step.
“Ohhh for love of Odin & Frigga, would you just make a proposal” Loki exasperated
“I can’t take that poor midguardian’s disappointment anymore” he warned.
Bucky sighed, “It’s not that easy”
“Fine, I spot two perfectly good gentlemen sitting in this café, I will make them both fall in love with Y/N & they will happily shower all the affection & love Y/N deserves” Loki threatened
“Why do you have to ruin my life like this?” Bucky resignation
“Because it’s not just your life” Loki retorted
“Ok ok, I’m going” Bucky raised his hands in surrender
‘It’s now or never Barnes’ he said to himself.
Bucky slowly made his to your table, you were stirring your coffee way too long lost in some thought.
“Y/N” Bucky called as he didn’t want to startled you with sudden approach
“Bucky?” you asked
“Y/N, I have been meaning to say something to you, no asked something to you, I mean… I just wanted to say that…” Bucky stuttered for the words.
You just stared at him not wanting to interrupt or sure of what to say so you just nodded encouragingly.
Then suddenly he remembered the movie he watched with Wanda & Vision an adaptation of a romantic novel and words just flew out of his mouth as he bent in front of you,
“Y/N, You have bewitched me body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. And wish from this day forth never to be parted from you.”
You were dumbstruck. You didn’t know what to say. Certainly you had been wishing to be asked out by him but as every Monday went you were prepared for disappointment not ‘Declaration of Love’.
Then something dawned upon you & you looked over his shoulder, towards Loki with accusation,
“Really Lo? Speech control on Bucky?” you asked
Loki who was also stunned by Bucky’s declaration, raised his hands in defense,
“Believe me y/n if it was anyone else I would have done that but I certainly wouldn’t do mind control thing on my friend here” he defended “It was all him”
This information made you even more flustered, & flabbergasted.
“You wound me by thinking, I’m incapable of making my own move” Bucky teased
You were still speechless, to respond but you held Bucky’s hand.
“Well dear, can you imagine y/n’s surprise when it took you months to say something” owner’s wife teased.
“Come dear, we must inform Steve that he won the wager” she called her husband
“Don’t forget to mention, that I did what you call ‘final push’ in making him win” Loki said
Bucky just shook his head, smiling.
“So what do you say would you like to be my person?” Bucky asked
“Ok. But let’s start with getting dinner first & then we have time to figure out other stuff” you teased
a continuation of: “I’m not sure why I did that, I’m sorry”
By request of: @bolontiku
The doors whooshed shut and Jim blinked, once, twice, nope- still frozen. Eventually, Uhura coughed pointedly and he turned dumbly to face the others. Spock raised one eyebrow. Colour pooled in his cheeks. His face tingled at the gentle contacts of Bones’ (BONES’) hand on his head, his body seemed to ache for the contact.
His best friend, his mother hen.
With that adorable slack-mouth shock and rosy cheeks as he stuttered his way to the lift.
Something rose in his chest, a fondness… a… oh shit.
“Back to work, Gentlemen,” he said in a high-pitched almost-shriek.
Chekov and Sulu shared a look before turning back to their consoles, sniggering. Jim fought the urge to say something, best to let this whole thing just, well, blow over.
What should he do? Should he wait and talk to Bones later? Or find an excuse to…
“What is your decision, Captain?” Spock asked. Jim jumped ten foot in the air, was he speaking aloud? Was Spock reading his mind??!
He glanced over at his long-suffering first officer. Jim was sure, if he was human, he would have sighed theatrically by now, as it was, that lone eyebrow crept higher.
“About our journey into the Mancillion system, Captain.”
Shit, what had they been saying? Something about craters or something?
Well fuck knows. “I trust your judgement, Spock.” He heard Chekov swear in Russian but no one else moved. Ah, sod it, he thought. “Well, if that’s all, I, umm, I need to… I have to…” Jim stuttered as he backed off towards the turbolift.
Spock’s second eyebrow rose.
He jabbed the doors to close, blocking off his sniggering crew.
“Oh god,” he murmured, slapping the emergency stop button. “Oh god, I’m in love with my best friend.” He was furious that he hadn’t realised it before and what if, what if Bones didn’t love him? What if that was just a friendly-brotherly hair stroke? That happened right?
Right?
“I’m dead,” he whispered, his finger pressing the floor for medical without thinking.
Ahhhaha it was a joke between a friend and myself. Because I tend to talk to myself irl A LOT, I always told her that I had voices in my head. (Not technically wrong) buuut if you look up the Bolontiku they are Mayan dieties, nine gods, that ruled the subterranean worlds. And with me always being... Doom & gloom it stuck.
We always joked if I were a God I WOULD RULE THE UNDERWORLD!! *shakes fist*