#bonsai's tea

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'oh damn! i wonder why i suddenly have 50+ activity!"

the suspiciously 50+ activity shaped mutual:

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sorry harlan but honestly this is a much more realistic post-intermezzo crashout

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found this on pinterest, thought of tumblr

part two of 'willis' stolen memes'

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for all you parkthur fans out there

fanfic style lore from mr. malevolent himself

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notes game (huzzah)

i am very very very very very lacking in self discipline. i have very much started to give zero fucks about anything and everything. i don't fucking care if i drop out of college and do nothing but doom scroll and consume media for the rest of my life

obviously, this is no no no good

so. why not do an ol' fashioned notes game. did one of these on my old acc and it got loads of notes so eh maybe. i do have like almost 500 more followers on this acc. will accountability fix me. hmm

lemme see. knowing how likely people are to spam (which im perfectly okay with btw. gimme all the spam i need to fix myself), i needa make it somewhat difficult

red - unreached

orange - have hit the note goal/in the process of doing

green - completed

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< 1 > - i pet my dog :> i love my dog

< 6 > - i take a sip of water

< 51 > - i spend at least 15 minutes outside without a screen or music (not including driving or walking to and fro places i have to go)

< 101 > - i will have my teeth brushed before 11 pm every night (currently a struggle to motivate myself to do so)

< 151 > - i will ask my mom for a proper water bottle and put way way more effort into drinking more water (she already says i needa do this)

< 201 > - i will be lights off, in bed, on weeknight, by 11:30 pm

< 251 > i put effort into going onto everydollar and making an account and budget (i rlly needa do this so ik how much i can spend)

< 301 > - i put effort into reading the king in yellow/cthullu mythos (wip bc i got a lot of work im not motivated to do rn)

< 351 > - instead of doing a shampoo only wash, i put time and effort into taking a full on shower every single time

< 401 > - i will put effort into a face washing routine

< 451 > - i'll cut back on my impulsive spending (also cuts back on my soda/caffiene intake which is quite ridiculous)

< 501 > - i will be lights off, in bed, on weekend night, by 11:30 pm

< 551 > - i put effort into editing that outfit styling video i did and making it somewhat palatable

< 601 > - if i have time, i eat a meal for breakfast instead of smfh insufficient (may change since my diet issues exist)

< 651 > - i try my damndest to go on a recreational walk AT LEAST every other day. gonna fucking try for every day.

< 701 > - i will put effort into reading a book not associated with my fandoms

< 751 > - i finally deal with the issue of my car probably needing an oil change and smth else bout it being wonky idk idr lol but ik its wonky

< 801 > - i clean up my room at the end of every day and if needed, do a weekly load of laundry. just tryna tidy up

< 851 > - i spread out my college readings/assignments (mostly for history) across the week instead of doing them all on the wknd (procrastination is a bad thing of mine)

< 901 > i find some way to bring an actual lunch to school every day instead of just a bag of chips or smth

< 951 > - i put effort into getting good enough at art to actually draw charlie dowd. this is my mission in life

< 1,001 > - i will wake up at 7 pm sharp so im not as rushed/can maybe eat breakfast

< 1,501 > - i put effort into actually making my malevolent fanfic list (a list where i organize every single fanfic ive read [gonna be based off of my bookmarks] for those who want quick access)

< 2,001 > - i will be lights off, in bed, on weeknight, by 10 pm

< 2,501 > - i start actually watching my history lectures instead of just taking the notes on the slides and actually try to learn (used to do this then lost motivation) (may be temporary since school ends next month)

< 3,001 > i will force myself to write at least 100 words of some sort of recreational something every single day (unless i have a school paper due)

< 3,501 > - i'll move my wake up time on shower days to 6:30 so i have extra time in the morning for work.

< 4,001 > - i put some actual effort into changing my diet from shitty junk food for the better (my mom has been doing this for decades so i can ask her)

< 4,501 > - whenever i have time, i finish one of the wips in my drafts/on ao3

< 5,001 > - i figure out some sort of exercise to do daily/some way to get my heart rate up (this is a wip)

< 5,501 > - i try to get cbt/some way to deal with my social anxiety (very likely the disorder kind) because right now im just considering running away from society to avoid small talk)

< 8,001 > - i finished at least next chapter of my s&co x malev crossover. (idk about finishing it all - that will take a while) (stressing me out bc i fear writing ooc)

< 10,001 > i find some way to convince my mom to let me buy a binder (shes phobic as fuck) (im sure i can find one thats not labeled as trans) (or i could just buy it myself) (tbh i don't need one but i want one)

< 1,000,001 > i become friends with a complete stranger (the amount of notes for this is completely fucking realistic btw. social AD is not a joke)

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if you're looking at this and thinking "why does ____ have so many notes? that's not that diffcult" just know that not everyone is you and you are not the standard

also, if this one doesn't seem as important or interesting or whatever as the ones u see around discussing eds and sh and sui n the such, please realize things don't have to be life-threatening to be worth changing

but yeah. thinking about actually trying to make these things better lol. none of this is the end of the world, but still

edit: help last night i was so motivated now i don't wanna do any of this

second edit: fuck it. fandom tagging this so my common fandom moots see it

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welcome back to Gay People Can Never Flirt Normally™ - the podcast

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'im scared to ask them out' i said

'grow a pair' they said

so i did

the fuck do i do with this thing?

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interesting how arthur let himself speak to john in front of leonard AND how leonard kinda just skips past the whole arthur-casing-a-projection thing and accepts it. very curious what explanation leonard gives himself for that