but at the end of the day, the part of T im most excited for is is 1egitimate1y the stupid puberty screams

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but at the end of the day, the part of T im most excited for is is 1egitimate1y the stupid puberty screams
Y’all can’t wait till the day I get on the boy juice
I will have long lushish hair
And pretty clothes
im excited about the changes, but im scared of people mouring me while im still alive.
Nothing is really changing in a meaningful way, but I already don't sound the same over recording.
I dont want my parents to be sad about talking to me on the phone or in person because i look and sound different.
I'm me and this transition isn’t changing that.
and my parents are in general decent, and i told them i was going to do this.
but there's knowing and seeing.
and while its not my responsibility to deal with how they feel about this, I'm just. worried that they'll not be able to reconcile me later vs the me they raised in their head.
it doesn't have to be my problem
but it will be very sad if my parents look at me like im a stranger because they cant see or hear their child as they knew me.
47 consitent days on t gel (forgot 3 days though) and 5 intermittent weekly low dose shots before that.
my vocle cords have felt scratchy since the shots but aside from cracking/shrieking when my voice tired to go too high the difference i was hearing seemed mostly internal and not yet audible.
i believe my fat is moving and im not just gaining weight and i am a greasy person by default - now I'm forced to take daily showers about it because that has significantly increased.
today i heard myself talking over a voice chat and instead of my perky and younger sounding voice, I sound older or something.
Definitely deeper though not in the way im hoping for yet.
pretty excited. my voice breaks when i sing so ive got to reminds myself to aim lower and i can actually do that naturally now without sounding like im putting on a fake low voice.
never learned how to sing the first time around so this time isn't *better* but it is a learning curve to try and figure out how to at least do as poorly as before without my voice going on an unnecessary journey or giving out entirely.
Fucking Finally!
BOY JUICE SHOT #2
I'll be documenting things here, so don't mind me hehe
Started testosterone today 🗿💪
Things really do get better
I don’t tend to be open about being trans but I’m so happy I’m finally getting closer to who I really am that I needed to yap 👍
i'm going on T next friday!!!!!!!!!!