#bpdblack.txt

[bpd-black]

stop blaming yourself for your trauma. stop blaming yourself for the consequences that followed it. stop hating yourself for being irrational, for being scared, for not knowing who to trust, for not knowing how to open up, for not knowing who you are, for feeling exhausted, for dissociating, for feeling apathetic, for overthinking, for melting down, for having panic attacks. your body develops defense mechanisms for a reason. things happened to you. unfair things. stop blaming yourself.

it’s not your fault. it’s not your fault. it’s not your fault. it’s not. you didn’t know.

[bpd-black]

i know you’re frustrated with yourself, but negative self talk helps no one.

[bpd-black]

there is no shame in needing medication, seeking professional help, seeing a therapist, regularly visiting a psychiatrist or a social worker, staying in the hospital for suicidal thoughts, &/or utilizing any self help resource available to you. you are beyond worth it. and you deserve to feel better, even if just a little bit.

[bpd-black]

as black people, we have to carry so much trauma just by being alive. you are neither weak, nor a sellout for feeling overwhelmed sometimes. anti-blackness is real. it’s terrifying. and it’s okay to hurt, to feel angry or to acknowledge it when you’re not okay. you are never alone.

[bpd-black]

go easy on yourself !!! you’re suffering from a mental illness. you are ill. that is so serious. your pain and frustration are real, and that matters. do not beat yourself up for having a hard time, for struggling to fight negative thoughts, or for giving in to self destructive behavior. you’re already hurting enough! it isn’t easy! but, look at you. you’re alive. you’re here. you’re now. & you’ve survived every worst day. you’re working so hard, and it’s evident. even if no one else can tell.

[bpd-black]

recovery is real. and there are better people and a better life waiting for you far away from where you are.

[bpd-black]

no offense but regardless of the trauma they endured in the past or whatever bad choices they made, you don’t have to stay trapped with your parents in the hell they’ve created for themselves forever. even if they say your birth negatively impacted them somehow, that was still because of a choice they made. not you. just because they fucked themselves over or threw their life away, doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to live yours and make better choices for yourself.

[bpd-black]

if you have two parents, and they’re both abusive, it might (might) be a good idea to tell the less abusive one what you’re going through with the more abusive parent (if you feel safe enough that is, and if they’re willing to listen) because sometimes they’re so lost in their own world they just don’t know. and even though they’re imperfect, they might be willing to help however they can.