I took Rexulti for the first time last night and don't really feel different, but that's okay bc it can take several weeks to get the full effect of an antipsychotic and it's also a low dose at this point in time (0.25mg)
I actually started feeling better on Thursday or Friday anyway... not completely back to normal but I've started eating more food and drinking more water after quite some time of not doing either much at all (not due to my ED, just from the low mood caused by the psychiatrist appointment back in October) and showering more often and feeling slightly more motivated for school
Maybe it helped that I talked to a CMHA nurse on Wednesday a few hours after seeing my GP and that nurse made me feel heard when I was frustrated with what my GP was saying about DBT (that I need to do it a third time to get a better grasp on it even though I'd compare DBT to learning the double crochet stitch which I learned at the beginning of 2025 and have used in several projects since then so why would I bother watching a video tutorial *again* about how to double crochet... I think I'd feel like I'm wasting my time and like I'm being talked down to if I gave DBT another go, especially a dedicated program like people have been suggesting... I should've used the crochet analogy with her but I didn't and it took me phrasing my words several different ways for her to get what I was saying) and when I said I felt like my GP didn't trust me since she wanted all my meds in the big blister pack at the pharmacy + she wants me to call in after 2 weeks to say how it's going before they will release more Rexulti to the pharmacy since I said no to the blister pack... a lot of the CMHA workers will either try to explain DBT to me like I don't understand it or at least just tell me it's something they offer and can put me on the waitlist for at any time, but the nurse on Wednesday didn't do any of that, he just listened... this is the same nurse who gave me a pep talk in the spring of 2023 when I had oral thrush during my ED relapse and it was super triggering to have to use the antifungal medicine (nystatin, it's a sticky and sweet syrup which my ED hates and then I couldn't eat or drink for 30 minutes after each dose which my ED loved and took advantage of by trying to extend the time I wasn't having anything by mouth... repeat that process 4 times a day for 7 days straight) and back then he validated my feelings about it but also was real with me by telling me about how if I didn't finish the full course of medicine then the infection could come back with a vengeance as well as hyped me up by saying that if I could do the first half of the course already then I could do the second half too... I really like that nurse but don't get to talk to him often bc he works for the sister site to my local CMHA office so I can only reach him evenings or weekends when my normal CMHA office is closed













