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Haruhi Ichikawa - 2nd Anniversary SSR Card Translation (featuring Shinkai)

CHAPTER 1

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (…Yeah, should’ve sat this one out and stayed at home.)

Here I am at a class reunion I chose to attend for the sole reason that I just kinda felt like it.

While my former classmates were having a blast reliving the nostalgia of our middle school days, I stood near the walls eating by myself.

Is loneliness creeping in? You’d think so, but not in my case. Though I can’t say I have the nerves of steel to ignore this awkwardness.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (Me and a room full of strangers… I feel like a total outsider.)

I nibbled on some mentai-flavored chips served on a plate. These were probably prepared to pair with drinks, but they’re plenty tasty as is.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (…All this standing around has me exhausted.)

Even standing cocktail parties like this come with a designated rest area. I took a seat on a counter stool in the least conspicuous corner.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (Cocktail party etiquette: don’t stay seated for too long, was it?)

(Okay, but let the chair serve its purpose. Nobody gives a hoot whether I stand up or sit down, anyway.)

Between staying on other people’s radars in a half-assed way or being invisible, I’d take the latter any day. But then…

(BLANK): Is that you, Ichikawa?

A giant shadow appeared out of nowhere. When I looked up, this giant dude standing entered my view.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: …Yep.

(I knew I recognized the giant figure I saw by the entrance.)

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Do you remember me?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Yeah, I do. Shinkai, right?

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Good to see you again.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Same.

I replied as I tried to get up from my seat, but Shinkai waved his hand to gently gesture me not to.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: It’s fine, stay where you are.

Then, he grabbed a seat close to mine.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (Don’t mind me, really.)

SOYOGU SHINKAI: You good?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Yeah. Just giving myself a break after having one drink too many.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Give me a heads up if it ever gets worse. I can find you a place to lie down.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Yeah, no, it’s all good. I’ll sober up in no time.

I haven’t had any drinks today, not even a sip. Explaining the real reason just felt like too much effort. Not worth the hassle.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: … HARUHI ICHIKAWA: …

(Ugh, now what? You sitting next to me made conversation between us unavoidable.)

SOYOGU SHINKAI: So? How are things lately?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (Aaand he drops a vague question.)

Not much. I work as a run-of-the-mill illustrator at your run-of-the-mill company.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: That’s impressive.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: How so? It’s nothing to write home about.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: My point is that you’re capitalizing your talents. You’ve always been good at art, right?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (Not by my standards.)

SOYOGU SHINKAI: …Work keeping you busy?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Typical stuff. Could be worse.

Our conversation continued, sprinkled with pauses here and there. The sporadic periods of silence offered peace and were far from awkward.

CHAPTER 2

BOSS: Ichikawa, how’s your workload looking today?

My boss brought up while confirming my project deadlines at our morning meeting. Immediately, I thought, “Great. This is gonna be a colossal pain.”

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Well… I guess I can squeeze in a few extra tasks.

I answered with an emphasis on “a few”.

BOSS: Perfect. One of our clients happened to request additional assets for their order, so I’d like you to lend a hand.

You know how we don’t have enough designers around, right?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Copy that. I’ll reach out from my end and give you a heads-up via ChaTask once I’m done.

(She’s asking for something that would be impossible to finish by the end of the day. I just know it.)

My arms feel heavy, accompanied by a dull, throbbing pain. It's my tendonitis acting up again.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Putting a strain on it every single day will never give it time to heal.

I kept my hands moving, trying to ignore the soreness. As a cold, unfeeling robot would.

EMPLOYEE A: Ichikawa, did you catch yesterday’s episode of Paw Planet?

A carefree voice coming from the desk next to mine greets my ears, to which I gave a noncommittal reply without pausing what I’m doing.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Nah, didn’t get to. I kinda passed out last night.

EMPLOYEE A: Bummer. Well, try catching it on stream, at least! You just missed the legendary episode of Tortoiseshell Cat the Mage just being cute.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Mhm.

EMPLOYEE A: By the way, did you check the mirror this morning? You’ve got dark circles under your eyes.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: I guess.

EMPLOYEE A: Hahaha! With the hours of overtime you pull, I’m not surprised!

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (Let’s be real – it’s nothing to laugh about.)

For the record, I don’t have a bone to pick with this guy – my coworker who’s two years younger than me – but once he starts chatting, he never knows when to stop. Which does nothing to help with my focus.

I cut him off to mention work.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: How’s your progress with that one project? The merchandising team followed up to expedite, didn't they?

EMPLOYEE A: Oh, tell me about it. There’s no end in sight.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Uh-huh. So why aren’t you picking up the pace?

EMPLOYEE A: Oh, right. I’m sorry…!

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Look, I wasn’t asking for an apology.

Listening in on our conversation, my senior colleague who sits diagonally from me chimed in:

EMPLOYEE B: Come on, Ichikawa. Would it hurt to tone down your harsh words~? Be nice to your junior, m’kay?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (Excuse me? Says the guy whose projects have exceeded the delivery date. Don’t think I haven’t noticed you leave your desk at every turn just to farm your mobages.)

Oh, no. I’m sorry.

I threw a half-hearted apology then kept my hands moving.

All I want is to draw flowers with a mellow, gentle palette. But the one on my screen looks muted and dull.

****

At our office now practically deserted, I stuck around to continue with my tasks.

I bought myself an energy drink from the vending machine. When I pulled the tab to take a sip, I felt a sudden wave of discomfort hit me.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: This will make me throw up. Not today, I guess.

(…I feel sluggish and sleepy. I’d rather just head home. I hope this sick, exploitative company goes bankrupt soon.)

Throwing curses on the inside, I let out a heavy sigh and stare at my screen.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (This background could use more detail…)

(Never mind. This’ll do. I won’t make the deadline if I spend more time on this.)

Work is no different from grinding video games. Tasks are quests. Approval means Stage Clear.

It’s more common for your dedication to detail or attempts at ingenuity to go unnoticed. So why bother? Just make short work of submitting something “passable” and claim your rewards.

Let’s be clear on this: You’re the one who didn’t double down until it led to results you can be satisfied with. You and not me, right? So why are you passing the blame on me?

The words I threw at someone a long time ago return to sting me back.

Look at me: I’m the one who keeps producing subpar, unsatisfactory art. Day in, day out.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (…What was my art style used to be like?)

I can’t seem to recall anymore.

CHAPTER 3

The following day, I made my way to work in unsteady steps, enduring the nausea I feel.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (I hit the sack at like, what? 4AM at dawn? And now I have to clock in at 9? If this isn’t ridiculously unreasonable, then what is?)

I start walking again, dealing with a headache and arm pain. I could see myself collapsing on the streets if anyone ever so much as bumps into me right now.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (I’m at my limit. I’d better call in sick… Wait, can’t, I’ve got a deadline today.)

(The fact that this mess of a project had been thrown at me to deal with meant we’ve already overrun the timeline. We’ll be in hot water if I missed submission today.)

Thoughts spin in my head as I drag my body with each step. Sucks for me when I’d rather just shut down my brain.

(BLANK): Hey.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (Who in their right mind would strike up a conversation with a guy who clearly might drop dead any minute?)

When I glanced back, Shinkai was there, looking at me straight.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Dude, you look worse for wear.

You’re staggering with your steps, too. What’s going on?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Nothing you should worry about. I’m just exhausted. Anyway, I gotta go.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Can’t you ring in sick?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: There's something I have to finish by the end of the day. Non-negotiable. Plus, well, other stuff on my plate.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: I see, I see. They’re counting on you, huh?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Nah. It doesn’t have to be me, really.

I’m being put to good use ‘cause I’m around. That’s all.

Self-deprecating comments gush out of my mouth. What’s the point in mentioning all this? The dirty tips of my shoes entered my view and did nothing but amplify my misery.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Negative much?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: …

Work calls, I said. As I resumed my steps, a resonant voice came in pursuit.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: I won’t stop you if you say so. Raining on someone’s parade – especially someone who’s steeled his resolve – would be a tactless thing to do. Not my style.

There was no reason for me to look back anymore.

Because Shinkai followed me with brisk steps and stopped before me.

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Do you live alone?

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Yeah. Why do you ask?

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Good to know. Give me your number and I’ll give you mine.

Call me if you ever collapse. You don’t strike me as someone with a lot of friends to rely on.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: How am I supposed to call you if I collapsed?

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Five minutes before you do, then.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: You think I was born with precognition abilities or what?

Pfft. A faint smile graced my lips. Which was good for a change, considering I’ve heaved nothing but sighs lately.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: Why worry about me?

SOYOGU SHINKAI: Look how drained and exhausted you are. You were no better last time I saw you, either.

HARUHI ICHIKAWA: (…Right. This is Shinkai we’re talking about. It’s what he does.)

No matter what kind of flowers he draws, I’m sure they’ll turn out vividly hued.

The bright blue skies serving as a backdrop behind Shinkai made me want to crawl under my sheets and sleep in the dark of the night.

HOME SCREEN VOICE LINES

① - Do you realize how much of an oddball you are? You’ve got guts, I’ll give you that. If you’re ever in a bind, just say the word. Help will come your way. ...And by that, I mean Taiga. ② - Okoge spilled two kibbles from his bowl this morning, like he just knew what the special occasion was about. Lemme present this as an offering~. …Yo, I’m just kidding. I prepared an actual decent gift for you. ③ - 2nd Anni Cheers~ Got any goals for the year ahead? …Me? Oh, the usual: to relax and take life easy.

2ND ANNIVERSARY VOICE LINE

Is it just me, or does it feel like time flows by more quickly with each passing year? How many days are in a year now? Like, 200? Anyhoo, Happy Anniversary.

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Tomose Onda 2nd Anniversary SSR - what-if

Proofread: Dimi, Niri

Voiceline 1: I’m sure we’ll continue to work together in the future.  I’ll be in your care once again.

Voiceline 2: I’m indebted to you for doing the tasks assigned to you for these two years. Again, I’m grateful.

Voiceline 3: Though we don’t have much of an opportunity to work together, I’m well aware of your efforts. That in itself is amazing. Hold your head up and be proud.

Part 1

Do you want to see a world where [ONDA] could be a good son to his parents?

> Yes

> No

Tick, tock, tick, tock… I found myself relaxing to the sound of the clock hands ticking. I was lying on the sofa and watching television.

Tomose: (... Right, there’s a lot I have to do.)

Before Yu went out, he had told me to start the washing machine and to cook some rice.

Tomose: (What a bother…)

Despite thinking that, I got up anyway.  Ever since we started living together, there was a part of me that had gotten used to this “bother”.

Yu: —I’m back.

Tomose: Welcome back.

Though I didn’t have a problem greeting Yu as he came back home…

Tomose: About 30 minutes left until the rice finishes.

As he headed towards the kitchen in the back, I confessed how long it’d take for the rice to be done.

Yu: This too? The laundry isn’t even done yet either.

Tomose: (Was I caught red-handed?)

The sound of the washing machine vibrated throughout my eardrums. Yu’s ears must have picked up the sound too; that’s how he found out that the laundry wasn’t done yet.

Tomose: We didn’t promise that they had to be done before you’re back.

Yu: You’re making excuses.

Tomose: ……

Yu: Should I make dinner?

Tomose: Yeah.

Yu: I’ll prepare it right away.

After I nodded in response, I followed behind Yu as he headed towards the kitchen to help him out. This was our ordinary day-to-day, just like any other. I savored the joy of being able to live today normally as well.

A few days later—

Yu: Doesn’t seem like the restaurant has a lot of customers around this hour.

Tomose: Then we can take our time. What are you getting, Yu?

There was only one menu placed on top of the table. I looked through it together with Yu, searching for something to order

Yu: I think I’ll get the chicken jambalaya. What about you, Tomose?

Tomose: I’ll also… Never mind, I’ll have the hamburger steak.

Yu: You’re thinking that you can try both if you order something else.

Tomose: You don’t have to point that out.

Whether to feel embarrassed or frustrated that he saw right through me— Those feelings stirred within me as I placed my order…

Tomose: The sauce here is surprisingly really good.

I earnestly said my thoughts as I ate the warm food I had received.

Yu: Shall we order more?

Tomose: No. I’m going to save it for the next time we come here.

As we were talking about various things while eating, Yu suddenly spoke up with a serious expression.

Yu: What are we going to do with Father’s present this year?

Tomose: For his birthday?

Tomose: Last year, we gave him perfume. The one we picked together.

Yu: Right.

Tomose: Then, for this year, it’d be better to give something different…… How about a belt?

Yu: Didn’t we give him one before?

Tomose: Now that you mention it, you’re right.

As I looked back on the past, I became aware of just how much time has passed.   I realized that, in one way or another, Yu has always been present in my memories.

Part 2

As Dad’s birthday arrived, Yu and I visited our parents’ home.

Yu: I know it’s a little late to ask this but…

Yu: Are you sure it’s okay that we didn’t go with what you chose instead?

The present was a book cover. We had trouble picking whose color of choice we should buy, but in the end, we went with the one Yu chose.

Tomose: (That’s rare…)

Undoubtedly, I was sure most people wouldn’t notice that Yu looks a little anxious right now.

Tomose: Dad would be happy with anything because you picked it.

Tomose: He might even cry. He’s been getting more easily moved to tears as the years go by.

Yu: So I don’t have to worry, huh…

And so, with a slight nervousness, we rang the intercom.

Mom: Coming.

The door swung open less than 3 seconds later. Upon seeing Mom’s peachy face, my relief quickly gave way to shock.

Tomose: You should make sure who’s visiting before you open the door.

Mom: I couldn’t help myself when I thought it’d be you two.

Yu: You worry us.

Mom: Fufu, I shouldn’t worry you both. I’ll be careful next time.

Mom: …Come on in, come on in. Would you be a dear and help out with the cooking?

Yu: Okay.

Tomose: (Looks like there’s not much I need to do with Yu here.)

As if he had seen through me, Yu’s expression softened as he gazed at me.

While waiting in the living room with Dad, I watched Mom and Yu, who had their backs towards us while they were busy cooking.

Mom: Haven’t you already gotten better than me at cooking, Yu?

Yu: Better than Tomose at least, I’d say. After all, I do all the cooking.

Tomose: Yu, if you have something to say, tell me.

Yu: It’s not like I don’t want you to do it, Tomose.

Mom: Fufufu, you guys haven’t changed at all.

Dad: That’s true.

Familiar voices changed to bright laughter. Naturally, my heart became filled with warmth.

Dad: …I’m so happy.

Tomose: About what?

Dad: That you two came to celebrate my birthday. Isn’t it quite common for people to drift apart from their families as they become adults?

Tomose: I suppose so.

Myself aside, Yu, who was “taken in”, had assimilated perfectly into the “Onda household”. He had no hesitation nor worries in loving Mom and Dad as his “own”.

Tomose: (I get really happy when this time comes around too, because Yu is able to enjoy it.)

Mom: Oh, you’re putting miso into the hamburger steak?

Yu: If you do that, the flavor becomes richer.

Mom: I see. Next time I make it, I’ll do that.

Yu: Mother’s hamburger steaks are fine as-is. It’s already delicious enough.

Mom: Then, why don’t you make some when you come back once in a while? I want to try some of yours.

Tomose: Alright.

I approached them while they were diligently kneading the patties, answering in Yu’s stead.

Tomose: We’ll try to come back whenever we can.

Dad: You two can come live here again, y’know.

Yu: We’ll become spoiled by that, so don’t think of it.

Mom: Fufu, it’s fine though.

Though I didn’t say it, Yu’s words hit the nail on the head. Because I even found myself wishing to stay in this warmth forever.

Part 3

Once the table was filled with food, it was finally time for the birthday celebration to start. 

Yu: It has been a while since I ate Mother’s cooking.

Mom: Ever since you guys started living together, you haven’t come back home at all.

Tomose: Because we don’t have any reason to come here.

Dad: You don’t need a reason to come. Just drop by once in a while, so your mother doesn’t get lonely.

Tomose: Right. We’ll try.

Dad: Now, we should dig in before the food gets cold. I’m having trouble deciding where to start with this much food.

Yu: ………

Tomose: (I know.)

As I felt Yu’s gaze, I nodded slightly.

Tomose: Before we do, could we have a bit of your time?

I held out the present that I had prepared with Yu to my dad.

Tomose: We’d get too nervous if we waited until later to give it to you. So we thought to do it now.

Yu: Happy birthday, Father.

Dad: Did you pick this together…?

Yu: Yeah.

Tomose: Yu picked the color.

Dad: …Thank you. You are both the best sons I could ask for…

Mom: Oh my, we’re celebrating your birthday, yet you’re crying.

Tomose: (He cried just like I thought he would.)

Dad’s hands were shaking as he took the present. I understood just how happy he was without having to ask him.

Dad: At this rate, I’ll be thinking about the present you have given me.

Dad: I’ll take a good look at it after we eat.

Tomose: Please, do so.

Mom: Then, thanks for the meal. Happy birthday to you.

Tomose: Happy Birthday.

After we said our wishes, we started to dig into the food laid in front of us.

Yu: Mother’s really good at cooking.

Dad: Right. Even if I went to heaven, I’d still want to eat it.

Tomose: Heaven, huh? It’s bad luck to talk about things like that on your birthday.

Yu: This reminds me of something you said before.

Yu: That if you could bring only one thing to a deserted island, it’d be Mother’s cooking.

Tomose: Dad even thought of the side dishes.

Dad: Well, that’s because your mom’s karaage is the best.

Mom: Oh my, you boys talked about this? It would’ve been nice if I was included in the conversation too.

As we happily talked, I brought the potage to my mouth. I thought it was funny that they had prepared my favorite food as well, even though it was Dad’s birthday.

Dad: Do you like it, Tomose?

Tomose: Yeah.

Tomose: It’s delicious.

[arauruia]

[Translate] Fushimi Shizuka's Personal Story

Translate by AUL, Proofread by @Kumonkunliker on X

Sei: Fushimi-kun, what made you work at Aporia?

Shizuka: Eh?

The regular meeting that started with “if there's nothing in particular, we’ll make it short”, really ended in less than 10 minutes. As I was getting ready to leave, I casually mentioned that I had trouble drafting the e-mail for the new client in English. The one that offered to take a look was Okiya Sei-san. The first thing he said after silently staring at the monitor made me take my gaze back from wandering the bookshelf lightly.

Shizuka: I didn’t see that one coming at all.

Sei: Oh, my apologies. It’s just that the working terms for Aporia are pretty much standard like other companies out there. The fact that someone capable of negotiating those terms even as a freelancer would take a full-time job, and even on top of that accepted a role that has nothing to do with a system like the  Head of the Watchdog Department. When I think about it again, it really is quite something.

Shizuka: ……

Sei: As for the draft, there’s nothing wrong about them. I think it can be read with almost the same nuance as the original.

Shizuka: Thank you.

Sei: I’m happy to be of help. If it’s something like this you can ask me anytime.

Shizuka: Okay.

Shizuka: …… To answer the question. It’s because the salary and benefits are good.

Sei: Pardon?

Shizuka: The reason I became full-time at Aporia.

Sei: Oh, thank you for the answer. Salary and benefits. Although they are common reasons, it is no exaggeration to say that it is the most important point when it comes to working conditions.

Shizuka: That’s right. If I can earn efficiently, I don’t care much about anything else.

Sei: Efficiently…

Shizuka: It’s not like I want to work forever.

Sei: Now I’m the one who didn’t see that coming. It does sound like you want to retire early. Either way, I thought you’re the type that really loves to bury yourself with “work”. From the rumor I heard "whenever I go to his house, there’s a pile of lethal doses of energy drink cans lying around”.

Shizuka: Was it Shinkai?

Sei: Fufu, anyway from now on please don’t push yourself too hard and take care of your life in earnest. There’s also another rumor, I heard in your last workplace you were handling something that is life threatening on a daily basis.

Shizuka: Someone was exaggerating that part for sure.  Well, it’s too shady to be defended anyway. But I never heard of any people dying until the end of my service. Also, as you can see, I’m still alive and all. 

Sei: So, it’s not like you were worn down both physically and mentally by the continued suffering, and had no choice but to retire after reaching the limit eventually.

Shizuka: It was time to resign for me anyway, so I just quit.

Sei: That’s a relief. Fushimi-kun is strong as a person. So, I thought that’s a possibility.

Shizuka: Strong as a person?

Sei: Mainly on the psychology side. If I were simply to say you're “mentally strong”, that’s all about it, but your strength is not something that can be described by that alone. Especially your courage to handle people which stands out even in Aporia.

Shizuka: ……?

Sei: Fushimi-kun, no matter who you face, you neither excessively flatter them nor do you reject them.

Shizuka: Well, if what you mean by “excessively” is “more than necessary”, then yes. I don't want to get tired doing something I don't have to.

Sei: “Accept logic and duty equally, and don’t demand anything more than necessary.” It’s a way that could be considered an ideal human relationship. However it’s easier said than done. You are fair and lenient, those traits of yours could bring about a rare balance. I find that a great strength. 

Sei: And that’s the charm that attracts people. Or should I say “that’s how people ended up attracted to you”

Shizuka: …… 

Sei: How you handle people probably gives comfort to those who feel pain and difficulty in so-called “normal” social interaction. 

That comfort will turn into a treasure that can’t be let go. Perhaps, there’s a case like that.

Shizuka: …… If that’s a compliment, thanks.

Sei: It is indeed a compliment, you’re welcome.

Sei: By the way—- is there a case like that comes to your mind?

Shizuka: (Don’t tell me……)

Sei: Sorry for beating around the bush. The other day, I got a report from Soyogu-kun about something that happened on the way back from the proxy work site. 

Sei: A coincidental meeting with your childhood friend, is it okay to ask a bit about Fukuhara-san?

Shizuka: (As I thought, it's a build-up for this topic.)

It's okay. In fact, I fully expected that topic to pop up today. But, for some reason, the meeting ended without that being brought up.

Sei: I'm sorry. When it’s time to check the recent situation, there's no report for such a thing from Fushimi-kun. Thinking about how to do it, I heard Soyogu-kun say “he’s not asking me to keep quiet” so…

Shizuka: If it was another human, I would somehow make them keep quiet about it. But, for Shinkai, it's related to work.

When I took the position of the Head of the Watchdog Department, there's an additional clause “guaranteed of safety" added to the contract. Since Shinkai was the one who’s in charge of that job, asking him not to report about “that” was impossible.

Sei: When you were walking through the street, you ran into him. As soon as he saw you guys, suddenly he rushed over and tried to strangle Soyogu-kun…. 

This is the report I’ve heard. Is there any mistake or misunderstanding? 

Shizuka: Nope, it happened just like how it’s said.

Sei: Soyogu-kun was impressed. He said you seemed not surprised at all and handled it calmly.

Shizuka: I mean, of course I was surprised. But I just thought there’s no time to be surprised, so I just do what I must.

Shizuka: It’s a good thing Shinkai was not injured, but we still needed to turn him in to the police.

Sei: Despite being surprised, you can still respond meaning you were used to that side of him…. Right?

Shizuka: He’s always done something extreme since long ago.

Sei: So it’s not uncommon.

Shizuka: However, Kei… Fukuhara has the reason for acting strangely. As long as he can avoid that, everything should be peaceful. The occurrence was not as frequent as what Okiya-san might have imagined. 

It’s not like he’s born like “that”.

Sei: …… I see.

—

When we were children, he was the one that would get angry and cry on my behalf. No tears or anger needed, watching Kei made me feel at ease. I never asked him to nor did I have any ulterior motive. But, since he always did it on my behalf…… I was probably the one that pushed Kei who used to be “normal”.

Kei: …… Huu … uh … hiks … I don’t want it … I don’t want to see… Shizu-kun like this… How can I make you feel at ease? I’ll get rid of everyone who makes Shizu-kun suffer, just say the name… I’ll make some notes…

Shizuka: That’s dangerous. You don’t need to get rid of anyone, no matter how many people are gone, my job wouldn’t change.

Kei: …… So, it won’t work unless it’s Shizu-kun himself who disappears?

Shizuka: Don’t heed something unpleasant.

Kei: In that case … I …

Shizuka: (Ah…) 

(At this point, he’ll just…)

Kei: …… I can’t ! I can’t kill Shizu-kun !!!

Shizuka: ……It’s a problem if you can. For now, just stop crying and calm down. If you keep making noises like this, the neighbor will report you.

Kei: But…… 

Shizuka: I’ll resign from the company.

—

After that problem and work filled up more. There’s no time. I couldn’t go home. I didn’t see the end of it.  At that kind of lifestyle, Kei was the one who reached the limit first.  If at that time Kei was not like that, probably I wouldn't change work. At the end, even as an adult, I would make him do something “on my behalf”.

Shizuka: (...... Come to think of it, it was the neck at that time too. Well, that’s what happens when you take someone's life with bare hands.)

Even at this very moment, I don’t know how to restart everything. I can’t decide whether Kei getting involved with me is a good thing or not. However, I can predict from past examples what will happen if I completely cut Kei off from me in his current state, so I'm avoiding that option.  There’s nothing you can do once something is damaged beyond repair anyway. 

Shizuka: I barely to almost never talk about Aporia, only spoke about a few things that would cause no harm. At least I made him promise not to come to the dorm” and “if you saw me outside, don’t talk to me carelessly”. 

So, I think it’s okay for now. Even if it doesn't seem like that, I would consult in advance.

Sei: I see. Got it, please do that.

Shizuka: Sure.

… Ah, I’m sorry but I got an appointment so I need to leave now.

Sei: I’m also sorry for holding you back for so long. Are you going out?

Shizuka: No, it’s just Aizawa-kun stopping by.

Sei: Oh, Shinobu-kun. Is it the cleaning?

Shizuka: Yes.

Sei: Fufu. I see… When the long awaited early retirement happens, you should look for a place to settle down that’s close to Shibuya.

Shizuka: Eh? But I want to be away from here.

Sei: But, if it’s too far, won’t it be difficult for Shinobu-kun? The transportation cost will also increase.

Shizuka: …Well, when the time comes, I’ll just pay for it.

Sei: Seems like “not calling him” is not even a choice.

Shizuka: I know I’m just repeating myself, but I don't want to get tired doing something I don't have to.

Sei: Meaning that if it’s something you must do, you’ll do it no matter how tired you are. What a wonderful thing to say. 

Shizuka: It’s a matter of phrasing, huh….

Sei: Fufu.

Wherever I go, no matter how far. The messy and unresolved things pile up before I even get to close my eyes.  The reality that becomes burdensome just by acknowledging it. I can only deal with it once it arises.  Build, execute, revise, and repeat until the necessary parts are connected in the ideal way.

After everything is done, what lies ahead, “eventually”--  A place where one is not tied down to anyone or anything. A moment when one can finally rest and shut eyes in peace. That’s my wish.

-END-

Hi everyone. First of all thank you for the proofread kumonkunliker on X. HAPPY 2nd ANNIVERSARY. Hope you enjoy the event and can't wait for all staff song yeay!

Neither English nor Japanese is my first language; any errors are on my part. Advice and comment please send to my strawpage. and I’ll be happy if we can be oomf at twt/IG

[bunnyandcomet]

Yu Personal Story 1

✧ Proofreaders: Aca (@463ce6), Niri

✧ Characters: Yu, Yuzuru, Tomose

Tomose: ……I’ll take you somewhere you won’t have to end things like this.

I swear I’ll get you there.

So…

Someday, let’s leave this town together, Yuhang. 

I was saved by the warmth of that hand, and came to know of the sins of my own.

Tomose is here now because the life he should have lived was unjustly taken from him. This wouldn’t have been possible otherwise.

“If I continue to repent, perhaps I can still find salvation.”

I thought nothing of that.

Because I believed that I was unforgivable.

Yuzuru: Good work today.

Yu: You’re still here?

Yuzuru: I just finished up, so I’m about to leave. How about you?

Yu: Same here. The sauce needs to be cooled a little more before I can put it in the fridge. I’ll be done after that.

Yuzuru: Oh, meat sauce. It looks delicious.

Yu: Are you hungry?

Yuzuru: Ahaha, I’ll admit that I’m a bit peckish….but it’s fine. It seems like the rain is just going to get heavier, so I’ll head home before it does.

Take care when driving home, okay?

Yu: I didn’t drive today. Tomose’s got the car.

Yuzuru: Oh, right. He took your car instead of one of the company’s for his investigation commission, didn’t he?

Is he back yet?

Yu: No. He’ll be back by tomorrow morning.

Yuzuru: Then it’s just you at home tonight?

Yu: Yeah.

Yuzuru: I’m glad I asked. In that case……

Yu: ?

Kise unhurriedly opens the fridge and begins taking things out from within.

Yuzuru: Um……Oh, maybe this? Here. Take this back with you.

Yu: What’s this?

Yuzuru: Chocolate.

Yu: Didn’t you buy this for yourself?

Yuzuru: I was originally looking to get a small thank-you gift for Yuragi, but I couldn’t decide and ended up buying too much for myself……I’ve got more in the office fridge, so feel free to take it.

Yu: ……I see.

(He’d have no problem eating it all if he went only slightly overboard. Did he buy that much?)

Yuzuru: Even if you’re not hungry when you get home, subsisting on cigarettes alone isn’t good for you. At least eat a little.

You tend to skip meals when Tomose’s not around.

Yu: (......Ahh. So that’s what this is about.)

I don’t have a reason to refute him, so I accept the blue box, which fits in the palm of my hand.

Kise nods and smiles, seemingly relieved.

After returning home.

Giving the room a once-over, I confirm that it appears the same as I left it this morning and head to the kitchen.

I open the box that Kise gave me. Inside there are four pieces of chocolate, the same blue that colours the package.

It’s a little too much, I think, while picking up a piece and chewing it.

Yu: (......Salt?)

Tasting an unexpectedly salty flavour, I turn over the package and find the words “Sea Salt” written there.

For some reason, I happen to think that Tomose would probably like it, the colour included.

Yu: (Salty chocolate, huh. If I added a bit more spice to make the aroma stand out, he might be able to enjoy it.)

(Playing it safe, it’d be star anise, cinnamon, five-spice……maybe some sansho pepper too.)

I put a second piece into my mouth while turning over multiple options for suitable spices in my head.

Adding the aromas from my memory to what I’m tasting on my tongue, a recipe easily comes together by the time I swallow down the melted chocolate.

I replace the lid of the box and reach for my pack of smokes.

Yu: (......It’s quiet.)

He’s not normally noisy, but without Tomose here, there’s almost no sound at all.

Beneath the whirring sound of the ventilation fan, I can faintly hear the rain.

Yu: ……

At times like these, I sometimes wonder if this is all a dream.

I wonder if when I awaken, I’ll be back in that town; back to being told not to doze off, maybe with a kick aimed in my direction, living the life I used to lead.

But if that were true, then when would this dream of mine have begun?

If it all began, say, when I first met Tomose, then I wouldn’t mind waking up.

If a life where he never met me could become his reality, he’d be better off.

He could sleep whenever he wanted, relish the food he ate, and live a life loved by his family. He’d have everything that made up the happiness he once felt.

Everything he would still have, if only I hadn’t been there that day, in that back alley.

???: …………?

……

“It’s dangerous here.” “Come out. I’m not mad at you anymore.”

A language I couldn’t comprehend, followed by words in English.

Yu: ……

(Click)

Those who are kind and say they aren’t mad at you do so because they’ve decided to kill you.

That’s what had been drilled into me about the people of that town.

So the instant he rounded the corner—without a moment of hesitation, I pulled the trigger.

(Bang)

(Whump)

Yu: ……?

The person who had fallen to his knees and collapsed was neither a member of the opposing organisation, nor someone of my own faction who intended to take advantage of the feud and eliminate me—but an unusually well-dressed man.

Yu: (……Ah.)

“Oh. Wrong person.”

That’s all that crossed my mind.

Even when my actual enemy, attracted by the sound of the gunshot, shot the woman who had been standing a bit behind the man because “she was with me”.

Even when, as a result, that child became the boss’s new “doll” and a denizen of that town.

I thought nothing of it.

Tomose: ……Uehh……hic…

Yu: ……

Almost every night, I would ignore Tomose as he stifled his cries and wept.

I believed that a person blessed with happiness such that he cried when deprived of it shouldn’t be playing the victim in front of me, who had nothing.

I went so far as to resent him, thinking he had stolen the last thing I had.

Without knowing a single thing about who I had stolen from, or how much I had taken.

Yu: ……

I haven’t told Tomose about what happened between me and his parents.

Sometimes I get the feeling that he knows about it all, but if he did, there’d be no reason for him to stay with me.

No matter how much I think, I still don’t understand. And yet here I am, forgiven, beside him.

Yu: (......But that’s fine for now. There are still things I can do.)

Tomose is strong.

The boy who once clutched at my clothes before finally closing his eyes can now sleep in a separate room from me.

He, whose sense of taste is almost completely gone, who couldn’t accept even a morsel of other people’s cooking, can now eat the food I make for him.

Yu: (Someday soon, he’ll be able to sleep alone. He’ll be able to enjoy his food regardless of who’s made it.)

I tap the end of my cigarillo onto the rim of a water-filled can.

Some of the fallen ash floats on the water’s surface, but before long, it sinks, as if chasing after the rest of it.

Yu: ……

The Tomose who needs me won’t last forever.

Just a little longer.

Yu: (......But for now, I still……)

And so I put it off, with the words I’ll say at that time remaining eternally undecided.

In this blue, idyllic “ordinary”, like a midday dream.

[itsukimiu]

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[seo-julie]

[Translation] - New Year 2025 Negotiation Dept.

Translation by: seo-julie (julie) Proofread by: imai (twt), aca (twt) , Misora (twt)

✧

Chapter 5

Characters: Riku, Kyoya, Arima

✧

Riku: …Alright. Now that we've had a nice drink, why don’t we play a card game to spice things up?

At a client's end-of-year event they had this bingo competition and this was the prize.

Kyoya: If we’re going to play, then there's no better opportunity to do so than at a New Year's party.

Arima: According to the manual… It's a game where you name the spirits that are drawn on the cards. 

Flip a card from the deck and each time a new spirit appears, give it a name. When that same spirit appears again, call out its name.

Remembering the names will gradually become more difficult… I guess it’s perfect if you want to liven things up.

Riku: Well then, let's get things started…

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Kyoya: “Catherine"-san.

Riku: That was fast. I was the one who named it too.

Arima: Alright, am I next? (Flips a card) Ah, this is my first time seeing this child.

Since its hair color is amber, maybe I'll name this one “Mikan”.

Riku: Hold on. The red-haired child was “Ichigo”, and the green-haired child was “Mori”.

Aren’t Kiho’s names too simple?

Arima: At the end of the day, it's the simplicity of these names that will save you.

Riku: Ah… That's true.

Kyoya: Seems like I'm next… Oh, it's my first time meeting you. Well then…

Kyoya: “Pygmy Water Lily Sovereign Floating on the Surface of a Lake Illuminated by the Sun”.

Riku: I think this is starting to get weird.

Kyoya: This spirit reminded me of Monet's water lilies.

The words are fairly simple.

Riku: I guess that's true.

My turn? Ha…yah!

Kyoya/Arima: “Mori”-san.

Riku: …… Were you two waiting for this one to appear?

Arima: I'm next.

Riku: “Mikan”!

This child is still fresh from my memory.

Kyoya: Next is…

Riku: Py…

Kyoya: “Pygmy Water Lily Sovereign Floating on the Surface of a Lake Illuminated by the Sun”.

Arima: How unfortunate, I was just about to say that.

Riku: Alright, next.

Kyoya: It's our first time meeting you as well. Well Riku-san, what shall you name it?

Riku: …..

Riku: “Pyon-chan the Blue-eared Rabbit Who Has a Pet Fish With Purple Shoes”.

Kyoya: My my…

Arima: How interesting.

Riku: I won’t let you down, my child.

Arima: Alright, let's move on to the next one.

Riku: ! A rabbit who wears purple shoes…!

Arima: “Pyon-chan the Blue-eared Rabbit Who Has a Pet Fish With Purple Shoes”-san.

Kyoya: Ah, how wonderful.

As expected of you. It's a name with a combination of many descriptions that may be difficult to remember due to cognitive bias¹. 

What an incredible name you came up with on the spot, Riku-san 

Riku: Nice one, guys. I'm suddenly having so much fun.

Arima: It seems like this was more than enough to ‘spice things up’.

Kyoya: Indeed, right now is the perfect opportunity.

Riku: Alright, next!

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¹ Cognitive bias is a systematic thought process caused by the tendency of the human brain to simplify information processing through a filter of personal experiences/preferences. I think the first thing he says in jp, 「紫の靴」 or purple shoes, after Arima flips the next card was the information that stuck with him the most. Therefore because of cognitive bias, he simplified the name into a new one revolving around that information. This led him to come up with his half-baked response.

[tomose]

[what-if]

Yu Nina - 2nd Anniversary SSR Card Translation (implied Onda cameo)

CHAPTER 1

A poet once said, “To live is to encounter. A life without one is a life that has yet to truly begin.”[1]

If those words hold true, then one thing I can say for sure is that mine will come to an end without ever having begun.

YUHANG: (An hour and a half left until the appointed time.)

This business hotel was arranged by one of our affiliates. The room that had been assigned to me as a stand-by spot was located on the lowest guest floor, right next to the emergency exit.

Dispose of the traitor who fled to Japan.

That is the sole reason I have crossed the seas and am standing at this spot.

YUHANG: (The target will show up at the designated point tonight.)

(Taking the train is not an option. I’ll have to leave the hotel on the early side.)

I take a sip of water and do a mental review of the course of action to take for this operation.

None of this is new to me; it's a task I’ve executed more than I could count. But I default to this anyway given there’s nothing else to do.

YUHANG: (Seeing to the disposal of targets is the only function I serve.)

(Where I do what I do poses no consequence; sticking to the method ingrained in me is how I do it.)

In other words, business as usual, with no room for unwelcome emotions and needless reflections. Even the weight of the gun in my holster no longer occupied a space in my mind.

YUHANG: …

With the quick review out of the way, idle downtime filled the room once more.

Other than surveying the entire floor – which I’d already taken care of when I arrived – there was nothing else of relevance left for me to do.

I went through the motions of scanning the room. The case of cigarillo left on the table caught my eye.

YUHANG: (I haven’t eaten anything since morning, come to think of it.)

Hit by a hunger pang, I sluggishly reached for the case of cigarillo. I let my thoughts wander back to the details of my mission as I filled my lungs with bluish smoke.

YUHANG: (One hour to go…)

What a meaningless waste of time – like filling a vacuous void with nothingness.

[1] A maxim by Shuji Terayama featured in his posthumous work Words More Than Your Hands Can Hold: A Collection of 413 Aphorisms (両手いっぱいの言葉―413のアフォリズム, Ryoute Ippai no Kotoba―413 no Aphorism)

CHAPTER 2

In some back alley far from the reach of the city’s hustle and bustle, I wrestled the target to the ground and pointed my gun at him. With both legs now crippled, his chances of escaping were no more.

MAN: Don’t… shoot…

YUHANG: I have no reason to follow your demands.

MAN: Spare me, and I’ll introduce you to a business worth your while. For the right price, they’ll forge you a new identity and erase all records of your past.

The best part of the deal… is that you can make a break from “that person’s” sphere of influence.

YUHANG: Mhm.

MAN: Desert the crime family just like I did! You can live a life better than y–

I tightened my finger on the trigger.

???: … YUHANG: !

In the seconds that followed, I sensed distant footsteps and voices growing audible as they inched closer. Only then did I take my finger off the trigger.

Although the footsteps I heard didn’t seem to be headed towards our location, firing now would likely notify whoever those belonged to.

YUHANG: (Let's wait until they pass by.)

MAN: Agh!

I pressed down my weight on this man and let the sole of my shoe drive into his throat, causing his legs to jerk upward. Only the noise of his struggling on the ground and gasping for air lingered.

That should do. They’ll never hear us from the main road.

I bent down to hide in a blind spot and waited for the passersby to leave the area.

YOUNG MAN: *inaudible*

YUHANG: (One young man and a middle-aged couple.)

Stealing a peek, I saw a group of three well-dressed people walking together. The similarities of their facial features told me they must be a family.

When the young man gave a coy smile, his parents beamed in kind – a commonplace kind of scene you’d find anywhere in this country.

YOUNG MAN: …tomorrow…

MIDDLE-AGED MAN: …let’s go–

I strained my ears to catch bits and pieces of their conversation in Japanese. From the way they didn’t seem to question the promise of a tomorrow, I knew my path and theirs were not meant to cross.

The only thought that came to mind was, “They're unlikely to be our foes.”

YUHANG: (They’re gone.)

I stood up while keeping an ear out for the laughter growing gradually distant. Once the profiles of the three passersby disappeared from the corner of my eye, I then directed my gaze to the target still squirming on the ground.

MAN: Hng… Zave… mhge…

To erase your entire past and start life anew: the idea offers no failproof guarantee, to say nothing of how realistically unfeasible and utterly ridiculous it sounds.

What made him think going back was an option still on the table?

YUHANG: (I fail to understand that thought process.)

I pulled the trigger.

CHAPTER 3

Following the orders given to me, I made a phone call to report that my mission had been wrapped up.

It took a couple of rings before the call was picked up, and only then did I start speaking.

YUHANG: Done.

???: Okay. Is that it?

YUHANG: Yeah.

???: Mhm. In that case, get ready to fly back. I’ll brief you about the other mission I mentioned previously.

As I see it, only you can execute it without dying. Everyone else won’t make the cut.

YUHANG: Copy that.

The call ended.

When I put away my phone, my fingertips brushed a familiar texture. It was the stick of cigarillo I stuffed in my pocket before leaving the hotel.

YUHANG: (Let’s see, smoking area…)

I raised my head to look around for one, but there doesn’t seem to be any within the vicinity. Not an issue. I figured I'd eventually find one after walking around.

Just when I was about to take a step—

???: ?

I heard somebody try to strike up a conversation with me. Keeping my wits about me as I turned around, what greeted my gaze was a child – who I’m guessing couldn’t be any older than ten – standing behind me.

I didn't understand a lick of what the kid just said. He’s speaking in Japanese, I assume.

Seeing no reason to give him the time of day, I opted to ignore him and make my leave. But then, as if he realized something, the kid began to muster up what little English he knew in an attempt to get his message across.

CHILD: “You maybe hungry.”

YUHANG: What?

CHILD: “White…? …, for you!”

I'd been offered what appears to be an individually wrapped piece of chocolate and the kid’s ear-to-ear grin.

His words, paired with his hand gestures, reminded me of how pale I‘d looked in my hotel room’s mirror.

YUHANG: (I look as white as a sheet, so he’s giving me that?)

(Or perhaps he meant something different. Either way, I don’t need it.)

CHILD: ?

YUHANG: I'm good.

CHILD: …?

YUHANG: No. Keep it.

I couldn’t understand the reason behind the kid’s smile and why he kept offering me the chocolate. I decided to accept it to get this irresolvable and incomprehensible back-and-forth over with.

YUHANG: Now scram.

CHILD: —!

He probably has no idea he’d been chased away. Without seeing off the kid who sped to run satisfied, I turned my gaze to the snack I held in my hand.

YUHANG: (I could say the same about myself.)

(The smile he showed, why the kid did what he did, and everything about this whole interaction were lost on me. Even if I did understand—)

YOUNG MAN: …tomorrow…

MIDDLE-AGED MAN: …let’s go–

CHILD: “You maybe hungry.”

CHILD: “White…? …, for you!”

MAN: Desert the crime family just like I did! You can live a life better than y–

YUHANG: …

I stared down at the wrapped piece of chocolate in my hand. It stayed solid, as if unaffected by my absent warmth.

Me, leave the mafia? Talk about unfeasible and ridiculous. It’s not even up for debate.

YUHANG: (Let’s go find that smoking area.)

I tossed it in the nearest bin, all while planning steps for my next mission.

Aimlessly, I walked into the night—

HOME SCREEN VOICE LINES

① - Your addition to the company posed no disruption to our operations. I’d say it speaks to how well you fit in the team. 

② - Two years, huh? If you want to look back on the past every time you reach a milestone, that’s up to you. Better yet, it would be in your best interest to do so with the intent of applying what you've learned in the future. Am I wrong?

③ - There is no shortage of events to celebrate at this company as it is, but this occasion must be special in a league of its own. No objections from me. Let yourself have a good time.

2ND ANNIVERSARY VOICE LINE

Your tenure at a company doesn't matter as much as what you've learned during your time there. You should be proud of what you've worked to build up.

[tomose]

Code:15 -Intangible- EN Lyrics Translation

Urara Manami Personal Song 2

ENGLISH:

The lights switch on in the evening as if waiting for someone’s return home From which I turn away in haste

I pretended not to notice the hand I was offered But I could feel its gaze on me

I find myself at the whims of love and affection and all that is intangible A waste of time is what they are I tell myself I do nothing but watch as words and emotions keep piling up, left unexpressed The rain began to fall

The throng of people saunter as if dictated by someone’s pace I jostled through them in haste

The wall I leaned against felt excessively lifeless Robbing my body of warmth

I find myself hampered by love and affection and all that is intangible A waste of time is what they are I tell myself Save myself the chase for warmth I can't caress So that I don’t lose more than I already have Drenched in rain as I am

I find myself at the whims of words and emotions and all that is intangible A waste of time is what they are I tell myself Save myself the pursuit for tenderness I can't perceive So that I don’t lose more than I already have

Better this than looking back and being reduced to a stumbling mess, unable to walk steadily whenever something I’ve cast aside passes me by

I've had enough of yearning for love and affection and all that is intangible only to trip and fall down

The rain shows no sign of letting up

ROMAJI:

Yuugure tomoridasu akari ga Dareka no kaeri wo matteiru you de Ashibaya ni se wo muketa

Kizukanai furishita Sashinoberareta te ga Kocchi wo miteiru ki ga shita

Kokoro da toka ai da toka Katachi no nai mono bakari ni furimawasarete Kudaranai kudaranai Sore de ii Hakidasenai mama furi tsumotteku Kotoba mo omoi mo nagameru dake Furihajimeta ame

Yukkuri nagareteku zattou ga Dareka no hohaba de ugoiteru you de Ashibaya ni toori nuketa

Yorikakatta kabe ga Yake ni mukishitsu de Taion wo ubatte iku

Kokoro da toka ai da toka Katachi no nai mono bakari ni ashi wo torarete Kudaranai kudaranai Sore de ii Furerarenai ondo wo sagasu yori Mou kore ijou nakusanai you ni Ame ni nureta mama

Kotoba da toka omoi da toka Katachi no nai mono bakari ni furimawasarete Kudaranai kudaranai Sore de ii Me ni mienai nukumori sagasu yori Mou koreijou nakusanai you ni

Sutesatta mono bakari Toori sugiru tabi ni furikaette Umaku aruke nakunaru kurai nara

Kokoro da toka ai da toka Katachi no nai mono wo motomete tsumazuku no wa Mou takusan da

Ame wa yamanai