anyone else who has started getting more gaps after accepting they might not... be as non-dissociative as they thought?
like at the least i know i have dissociative symptoms, if they are complex or not is something i want to get evaluated by a professional, (not because i dont believe in researched self dx, its just a thing of comfort and validation tbh, anything else gives us a massive spike in denial and doubt and only hurts us in our current situation, so right now i just try to accept what comes up with an open mind (also it doesnt hurt to get a dx because we regularly apply for disabled benefits))
but like. even just accepting that we experience these symptoms and the fact that im more aware of things have made us way more switchy and i dont think we have ever had as many gaps as we do lately (also a cause for that might also be the big trigger on tuesday but my point stands nonetheless)...
a video that has also helped us is the "What Being Not Dissociative Is Like" videos from the CTAD Clinic.
"It's okay, i'm, I'm not human." *Benry foreshadowing as the mighty deity that he is lol*
"i was born here."
"they do that? they do testtube babies?"
"This place is ooooold, Gordon."
"i almost died, Gordon."
"Hello, Gordon!" x5
"it's time to taste the pain!"
"I don't think I've brought a rope long enough to get-"
"Hello, Gordon!"
im just writing down the quotes i like. for fun. so. under the read more i will wrote down more quotes from the whole thing.
*screaming while running around* "aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh", "aaaaaaaaahhhhh"
"Hello-"
*Benry sets a scientist on fire*
Coomer: "you could've helped him, Gordon"
"He's encasing him in a cocoon!"
"Nature, is, beautiful!"
"HELLO, G-"
"Be careful Gordon, that's a friend you're shooting at!"
"Hello, Gordon!"
[part 1 end]
[act 1 part 2 start]
"auuugggghhhhh I'm burning!" - "oh I'm fine now."
"Hello-" *jumps, misses the pipes and falls to his death*
*points at Barnacle* "Look, Gordon, Ropes! We can use these to get over big pits!"
"Look, Gordon, Ropes! We can use these to get over big pits!" (honestly have such respect for Dr. Coomer continuing the bit of the NPC repeating his lines lol. His role of the half-broken self-aware ai is rly good ngl)
"Hello, Gordon!"
"How old are you Dr. Coomer?"
"Old enough to know better! Let's Go!" *jumps over railing, fails to hit the box and falls to his death into the darkness*
"It's like a big slide! I looped around and came back up!"
"Don't point that at me!"
Bubby: "I'm not pointing it at you! I'm... indicating that I have a gun, and you should continue looking to me."
"We may be able to this to go around the electrical hazard! Hello, Gord-"
"Watch how strong I am Gordon! Hyah!" *runs into rotor blades and dies (model falls over in ragdoll)*
"Look, Gordon, a rope! We can use- Help me, Gordon!" *Gordon saves Coomer*
"Look, Gordon, a rope! We can use these to help with pits!"
"Gordon, I believe we can use these crates to-"
"t? to? You cut yourself off!"
*Coomer punches Gordon*
"Hello, Gordon!"
*Ceiling Turret shooting.*
"It's okay, it can't hurt you if you're smart! That's why we're all scientists!"
Coomer: "Ingenious!"
(Tommy is very wholesome n fun isnt he)
"They're fuckin up all the time..."
"Coomer, you have any family?"
Coomer: "I did have a wife but they took her in the divorce."
Gordon: "They took your wife in the divorce??"
Coomer: "Hello, Gordon", "Yes."
"Tommy, do you have any family? Where are you from?"
"I don't know, I'm an orphan! But I have a dog!"
"What's his name?"
"Sunkist!"
"They were working on flash-freezing human meat!"
"Eugh, why would they do that?"
"It's perfectly natural, I promise!"
*Bubby goes by on the ceiling thing*
Bubby: "Here I come, Gordon!" x5
"Hello, Gordon!"
"The meat from the frozen goods department has dangerous properties! :)"
"Whyyy?"
"Classified, Gordon"
"We are beyond classification! We have zombies!"
"The zombies are also classified."
"That man's non-euclidean!"
"Oh! He just injected me with drugs!"
*shoots the scientist*
"The drugs are taking effect!"
"Now, Gordon, I know we are going through a crisis but graffiti is never the answer!"
"Hello, Gordon!"
"We'll never forget you, Bipple!"
"I'll help you!"
"I'll help- Aaahhhhh"
"Self-defense, Gordon!"
"what are you gonna do on the surface?"
"Come back down!"
"Why?"
"I made mistakes! I need to perfect my run!"
"Look, Gordon, we made it black into black mesa!"
"Well, Gordon, for 3 PlayCoins™ I could assist you on your path."
"I accept the transaction."
"FEED my my COOOOOOOOINSssss, Mr. Freemaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-"
