Satisfied
Pairing: Hamilton! Kim Namjoon x Jeon Reader Feat. Jeon Jungkook x Kim Namjoon
Word Count: 900
Warnings: Sibling agnst, cheating, infidelity, mentions of sex, mentions of oral sex, mxm action, lots of agnst
Summary: Jungkook loves you so much, that he never told you how deeply he fell in love with your husband.
The day Jungkook introduced you to Namjoon is a day he constantly relives when he wakes up, goes to bed, and hears him fuck you through the thin walls of his bedroom.
He remembers the glasses perched on Namjoon's tan skin, sun-kissed nose.
He remembers the way Namjoon’s rough hand shook his, the callouses of his palms sliding against his skin. He wanted Namjoon’s fingers to caress more of his skin, touch more of him.
He remembers the way your eyes lit up as soon as he introduced you to him.
He knows his baby sister.
"My name's Kim Namjoon." He wished it was his hand that Namjoon kissed, not yours.
"Jeon (y/n)"
"Jeon?"
"Jungkook is my older brother." The way Namjoon turned to look at him with a glimmer, a tease of what could have been.
"Beautiful, the both of you."
Jungkook watched you play coy that night, pretending as if you weren't falling helplessly in love when Namjoon started talking about his love of reading and astronomy. He watched as months later Namjoon made you cry because he couldn't find the balance between loving you and fixing the country.
Jungkook held you in his arms when you sobbed because you thought you weren't good enough.
You were always good enough.
Namjoon would always pick you.
The day Namjoon got down on his knee in front of you at the dinner table was the hardest day of his life. Jungkook not only had to watch the love of his life propose to his sister, but he had to act happy.
He plastered on a smile, and when you hugged him with pure bliss, he realized you deserved this more than him.
But Jungkook would never be Satisfied without Namjoon.
The day of your wedding left a bitter taste on his tongue, and when Namjoon hugged him and called him 'brother', it felt so wrong.
Namjoon should be calling him husband.
Jungkook would never be Satisfied.
When you got pregnant with Namjoons child, your mother and father were elated. Jungkook had to excuse himself because he couldn't take it. He couldn't comprehend the fact that everyone was moving on, except for him.
Jungkook went to a brothel that night. Got fucked by Park Jimin who swallowed Jungkooks dick as if it was a four-course meal. Jungkook let loose, and for that night he forgot.
When you had the baby, you asked for Namjoon and Jungkook specifically. The two most important men in your life.
"It's a girl." You whisper after hours of pain, sweat sticking to your forehead, and dripping onto the sheets of your bed.
"Jisoo Koo Kim." Jungkook is shocked when you name the child after him,
"Jungkook, will you be the godfather?"
That's when Jungkook starts to feel the guilt. He watches his sister, the girl he promised to protect, kiss the man Jungkook fell in love with. Jungkook feels disgusted. How could he do this to you? Fall in love with your husband? Fall in love with his niece’s father?
When he looks at the tiny girl in your arms, he promises to protect her, and love her. Promises to succeed in ways that he failed with you.
Namjoon’s affair hits the world by storm. His story about having sex with Min Yoongi's wife is plastered in every newspaper, and once Jungkook finds out, his emotions start to spiral.
At first, he feels betrayed.
Even though he isn't married to Namjoon, Jungkook feels as if Namjoon cheated on him, not you.
But once he starts to gather his thoughts, he feels angry. Especially when you show up in front of his door, sobbing and broken.
Begging for comfort from the one boy who has never betrayed you.
If only you knew.
That night the two of you sit in front of the fire, burning every newspaper and letter that Namjoon’s name is plastered on.
That night you don't fall asleep until dawn starts to break, and once Jungkook tucks you in and kisses your forehead he goes to see Namjoon.
Jungkook doesn't knock. He storms into Namjoon's room and is caught breathless.
Namjoon is an even worse mess than you are.
Red eyes, runny nose, and beautiful eyes pleading for forgiveness. The same eyes that he fell in love with.
"How could you?" Jungkook growls out.
"Jungkook, I'm sorry. I love her." Jungkook feels as if he's been stabbed in the heart.
Jungkook shakes his head and imagines punching Namjoon, fuck, why he looks gorgeous when he cries?
"No. I love my sister more than anything in this life, I will choose her happiness over mine every time."
Namjoon freezes at the silent confession and Jungkook steals a glance with his sister's husband. One looks that contains a single message.
‘I love you’
No.
‘I loved you’
"You messed up Namjoon, and you will never find anyone as trusting or as kind as her." Jungkook is thankful to know he speaks the truth, and that day, when he leaves a heartbroken Namjoon, he realizes,
Jungkook will ALWAYS be satisfied if it means you're happy.
Even if it meant he couldn't have him, at least he had you.
