#bundleofhate

[craneofmalkier]

You were in my suggested blogs and I am absolutely convinced that I will love your blog forever and eternally, you seem amazing, keep it up ❤

This is amazing to me because I’ve been goddamn awful over here, but thank you so much. I’m glad you’re enjoying my quali☕️ (hopefully that emoji is tea idk)

[what-the-hooves]

@bundleofhate and i went to the paul mccartney concert with mclennon flags just so you guys know

[yokohamasonebraincell]

bundleofhate replied to your post: i just had a moment where i realized that most...

Can you please be my mom? I love that headcanon

i mean, i’m not opposed to more children. you don’t even have to call me mom, i’ll still tell you to go to your room

[afgunst]

bundleofhate replied to your post “how the fuck do you gain weight in a healthy way.”

Carbohydrates, mainly

ellediablo98

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“how the fuck do you gain weight in a healthy way.”

Not a nutritionist, but gaining mass muscle (i.e working out/bulking up) is probably the safest way to go since muscle ways more than fat and is healthier to have more of. I recommend doing research and if you have the insurance/money for it seeing a doctor or nutrition specialist in your network of you can.

giraffrika

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“how the fuck do you gain weight in a healthy way.”

My boyfriend is doing the same thing, and supposedly eating banana a lot helps out. Also drinking full glass(es) of water after a meal helps, too. I'll ask him more tips that his recruiter gave him and give you an update

audinodino

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“how the fuck do you gain weight in a healthy way.”

Potatoes all the way.

I can’t believe I actually got responses :’) Thanks for your help, I’ll definitely look into all this! Except for maybe the working out... because I’m horribly lazy and also have issues feeling comfortable in gyms.. maybe I can figure out a way to do that at home without needing to buy equipment we don’t have money for

And definitely trying out the banana eating and potatoes. I love potatoes. So good. 

[what-the-hooves]

me: *listens to the dangling conversation*

paul simon: can analysis be worthwhile?

me: NOOOOOOOOOOO

me: *throws pile of maths notes around*

me: *sets fire to it*

me: *throws table over*

me: *runs out of the room*

[litpetal]

im changing my blog

this is no longer going to be a black and white blog, starting tonight i'll just be posting cool things that i like and stuff ok? ok cool 

[litpetal]

I FUCKING HATE MYSELF AND I WISH I COULD BE ABLE TO GET THROUGH A SINGLE DAY WITHOUT TEARING MYSELF APART. I WISH I COULD HANDLE THINGS PROPERLY. I WISH PEOPLE NOTICED THAT I WAS NOT OKAY WITHOUT ME HAVING TO SPELL IT OUT IN RED LINES. I WANT THE NUMBNESS TO LEAVE AND I WANT TO FEEL, ANYTHING

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAF8D0ugyVk  

[litpetal]

fucksjsukdbkw

this is a post from Thursday but my mum always turns off the wifi at night therefore I have no way to get help or anything. I kind of just sit in my room wanting to die and screaming inside. I have to way to express my anger because if I slam my door; my mum removes it. if I punch/break things; I have to fix it or buy a new one. if I yell; my mum threatens things. I built up all this agony and I have no way to release it. I'm screaming inside every moment of the day. I really want to die, and if it wasn't for my sister, I would already be dead. see shes the thing that's keeping me here because I love her and she's already lost more than you can imagine at such a young age. I can't leave her, she looks up to me and idk. it's really fucking exhausting to feel everything at once yet nothing at all.. lately I've been sleeping all the time, not going to school, stopped talking to my therapists, stopped showering, been eating way too much. I hate myself to the point that looking in the mirror makes me want to die and purge and just die. I have loads of people tell me that I'm pretty and already skinny and I'm crazy for wanting a thigh gap. I realise it's very unhealthy and unrealistic but I have to do it, I must reach my god damn goal weight. i dont care if im unhealthy, hospitalized, judged, sick... i just want to feel good about myself. though right now, I really want to cut. I've been clean for a little over a month I think and I know I shouldn't get back into it but it just feels like the right thing to do. I feel to god damn hopeless and unneeded... I'm slowly losing my friends again, maybe I'm just not meant to keep people in my life and I'm not just saying this because I'm sad but literally the people I loved the most have left me, or I left them. I'm scared. I don't like looking weak but I'm scared of a lot of things. too many if you ask me. I want to see blood dripping down my arm, I wanna feel it, maybe then I could actually feel something.