One thing i hate is when i dont get to celebrate things how i wished or planned. Like, i planned on being home for dads birthday, but i couldnt be because of work and uni. I planned on things with Matt, despite breaking up, we were okay and i was gonna go to whitby and give him the money to buy the jacket he liked, and then go on a night venture. But we argued on his birthday and havent spoken since. And now, despite my hatred for christmas and my dislike of my family. This year im most likely spending it on my own, as mum and dad want to stay south, which i completely understand - its so upsetting for both of them seeing their mums in the situation their in and i want them to be happy. But i feel like if i joined my aunts side of the family with my uncle and cousins id feel really out of place. So im both dreading it, but also really excited to celebrate christmas on my own.