#butimproudofit

[littlehorrorscierablog]

Pennywise has limits. i regret nothing.

[pieflavoredpielover]

HO HO HO

MERRY CHRISTMAS

[grumpylads]

been a while since my last post.

the world (ooopps please it’s not human im talkin about. what i meant is those fishes in the sea n those grass untrimmed on the earth who definitely cared about me so much hahha) okay. the world must be shocked to know that out of  nowhere i got into a UNIVERSITY. means that im going to pursue my studies in DEGREE next two weeks. wow

this is so surreal to me that i literally pinch and ask myself for the next three days if there are any mistakes or am i dreaming because i saw a CONGRATS on that website

and the most funniest yet surreal of all is the fact that i got into engineering courses. can u see me in the future playing with numbers, critical thinking aand mathematics? yeap. i didnt see it too. 

it is too damn weird. i never thought that such happiness could happen after so much failure. i go through my foundation year with FAILURES EVERY SINGLE DAY, yeah, 

-i have failed almost every subject

-i studied harder and failed hard too

-people criticize me for my failures (FOR GOD SAKE THEY INSULT ME DONT U KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS ME I STUDIED SO HARD THAT MY PEE SMELLED LIKE NESCAFE AND I BREATHE N SMELLED LIKE NESCAFE EVEN AT NOON BECAUSE I CONSUMED IT SO MUCH BECAUSE I F*****G SLEEP SO LITTLE!)

-getting laughed at when i ask for a teaching

-insults insults and insults

-dead end because i dont have any solutions anymore

-decided to die but it is haram to do it so i became numb

-decided to go with the flow until i get old while still livin in the same curse until i die

-lowest pointer i guess, 2.33 is the lowest among my classmates laaa at least,

-already make plans if i failed this upu application im going to work at pizza hut, saves some money, stop seeing my friends, buy a kancil with cash money from that pizza job and starts back by doing a diploma (seeeeeeeeeeee, i am so angelic and so optimist that i wont let curses bring me down *no matter how down i am in the drain*)

AND SUDDENLY I GOT A CONGRATULATIONS FROM UPU APPLICATIONS TELLING ME I GOT INTO ENGINEERING COURSES, YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

and i always keep that one thing in mind. whatever bad things that happened to me is a TEST. and a LESSON. so that next time if i ever across the same struggles or others are going through it, i can reassure them that life must go on and Allah loves u and everything that happened is full of reasons behind it.

i admits that i almost give up. i teared so much, i cursed too too much. i hate too much things. very little patience, but He still give me CHANCES. 

so my only hope to myself right now is to make sure those chances never be a waste,

amin.

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[lo0selipssink-ships]

So is that what you call a getaway? Tell me what you got away with, 'cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish. I've seen more guts in eleven year old kids.