#butterflysmoke

[butterflysmoke]

It's hard to be a loving person in such a dark world.

♡ ButterflySmoke

[butterflysmoke]

It's funny cause... you dont expect it. But one day you just wake up and you realize you love him and your world just stops cause... now hes everything.

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[butterflysmoke]

Why do we always gotta talk about reality and the right now? Why cant we talk about the stars and how small we feel when we look at them... or what about what you do and dont like? Why cant we talk about car rides and the places you haven't been and what you wish for? What your dreams are... why cant we talk about all the things that make you laugh, the good times and the bad times? I dont just wanna hear about your day. I wanna hear about the deeper things too. The things that aren't just on the surface because everyone knows those things. I wanna know the things no one knows.

♡ butterfly smoke

[butterflysmoke]

Only my heart knows the betrayal... only my heart knows how to feel this broken by you...

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[butterflysmoke]

And just like that, without a single warning, I fell in love with you.

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[butterflysmoke]

My heart treats me like a punching bag. And after every match my mind poors salt in every wound, making it impossible to heal.

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[butterflysmoke]

Why is it so hard to find real people that talk about real things? Why is it so hard to find people that don't just live on the surface?

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[butterflysmoke]

I wrote this a year ago...

Just when i thought i was drowning a voice said stand up. Man i swaer i thought i couldnt breath. I couldnt get up. I couldnt move. But then i saw my best friend lose it all. From her kids to her house to the one she loved the most. She lost it all. Shes starting from the very bottom. And i thought my card board house was starting to cave in, i thought that things couldnt get any worse for us, i thought i couldnt get up and fight... But then i saw her. I saw her get up with two broken wings and i watched her fly crooked until she hit the ground just to watch her do it again and again until she couldnt bare the pain. I saw her break from the inside out. People looking in on the outside could say everything looks fine but let me tell you looks can fool and thats just from the outside. But take a step inside and youll see that all is falling apart. Scrape away the surface of the story and youll see the truth. This girl tries so hard to keep it together and things just fall apart from one end to the other and all she knows is to sweep up the pieces and try again. Because shes a fighter. She doesnt give up. Her sand castle isnt much of a foundation. But its all she has and shes gotten good at saving the sand to rebuild it over and over. This girl is amazing and how she hasnt given up yet amazes me. Because anyone else would have shattered and crawled into the corner and waved a white flag. But shes still fighting. So for those that feel like its over. Like maybe you just cant give it your all anymore, remember theres someone out there thats got it a lot harder and they are still fighting. So dont give up. Even when youre falling and everything seems broken theres always room to be strong and fight.