Have you ever wanted someone to understand where you are coming from mentally so badly that you don’t realize how selfish you are actually being? Like I always think I’m doing everything in regards to what someone deserves but like?? How would I know if isolating myself away from my moody self is even like warranted if all they want is my presence? I always believed that I was the toxic one, and maybe that’s accurate but in a different sense. I want someone to love me but yet I push them away. It’s crazy how life makes you feel so many emotions that you don’t make any sense even to your own damn sense. I always felt like I was protecting everyone from myself but maybe I’m just not giving anyone a real chance. It’s so hard when you mentally been so fucking hard on yourself. How do you change the self destructive patterns before everyone leaves?