this is just a new ish concept but. its so cool to me. like “wow how did i not see this before but like”.
you know with a story with eldritch beings you'd except a grandstanding world ending event to happen (well, it KINDA gets there but.)
they're taken care of. and then there's that second storyline coming in. that other being on the void. you cant let them escape right? or else they'd cause unfamthable damage, right?
right?
except they wouldn't. they'd just live life. they just want to live somewhat freely. to feel the sun and air again. to see life, while being able to keep over their obsessive guardpost.
so who cares? right? in comparasion to everything else that's happened
what's one life to lose?
and that's what Nameless is so scared of. Because there's all this fuss. There'd be so many complications for IF they just didn't give up and give what Nocide wanted.
I mean, what's one life in comparison to a being who did their best to hold a spirit of violence and fear back from wreaking more havoc (although unsuccessfully?) what's one life compared to someone who doesn't even have a name?
When it would be so much easier to throw them to the void and allow someone else who "deserves" a life more than them.
What then?
The final part of this story isn't about stopping some monster from destroying the world(kinda), it's about realizing that you don't NEED a reason to live. Just live. Just find joy. SO what? So what if you cannot remember anything? When you cry and sob, and that tarry vicious bile starts leaking--and you tell yourself you want, you want to live--you don't want to say goodbye
then it's not time to say goodbye. What's the value of a life? It's the life, the person itself. It seems so small compared to everything else, but that's also you. that could be anyone. it could've been Blue, It could've been Mangie. It just happened to be Nameless--is it the fact that ANY life could be so inconsequential enough to throw away that it's worth giving what Nocide wants? Or is it the justification that the person you'd throw to the dogs has no purpose? No name or soul? Maybe there isn't one.
So who cares?! They take the harder, more turbulent path just to save one life. Just to save one more person from madness and nonexistence.
I think a thing/subject ikari/rpd!universe touches on as well as RT INTERVALS are imperfect victims. not going more since my head feels too messy to continue.
"perfect" victims. i dont really understand or think they exist, people who react the way they "should".
I think the two examples that come to my mind (one for each) is:
RPD!UNIVERSE having Eleven blame Ikari for getting themselves into a bad situation (said situation is literally eleven tormenting ikari). ikari is far from a perfect person, but eleven strips any idea that ikari is a victim wrongly from them, trying to gaslight, even alter reality to make it so that ikari would just. shut up and roll over. the reason i put this here is because I'm almost sure if a full summary were to be put down of rpd!universe/ikari main lore, people would side with Eleven. Maybe. I mean, if you look at it in a way, ikari didn't HAVE to do anything. Ikari is the one trying to punch a utopia in a face after all (but eleven is the one doing unspeakable things to them, blaming their actions on IMMATURITY, PUNISHING THEM FOR BEING IMMATURE rather than anything else.)
RT INTERVALS having Nameless be goaded/convinced into trying to "talk it out" wth nocide. forgiveness and all. (except that nocide is a unrepentant, neglectful, eldritch being with a streak for sadism with severe anger issues. How could Nameless actually look them in the face and say anything RESEMBLING an apology to them?)
i think out of my main trio ironically Mangie is the most representative of "emotion". Nameless is basically running numb the entire time, Blue is also (unconsciously most the time) putting on a mask of cheeriness and literally believes that feeling angry makes them a bad person.
[spoiler character even tho i technically already showed them off ah fuck it. Named is. like relatively normal. what shows is their attempt at empath and boundaries more than big emotions. also ty LostOzain for introducing the term "big feelings" to me. just. wow! i hope im using those two words correct.]
but anyways despite everything, Mangie (imo) is most dredged in emotion. when people think emotional, they may think of"empathetic". Mangie is very much not that for a while. Mangie is trying to suppress most of their empathy/sympathy, but they act the most on emotion. they run on that high of anger and spite.
nameless and blue are tampered down in terms of emotion (though you could argue Blue is the other side of the coin for Mangie) and Named regulates themselves in consideration of others. Mangie just acts on impulse.
like, do you get it? i hope i kinda made the difference clear enough. but yeah mangie is very. sound in big emotions. it's like swinging a sword, i gues. big swings.
blue is like a knife with half of the blade cut off and dulled. (though dulled blades are more dangerous than sharp blades)
nameless is just staring at the knife not really knowing what to do with it
and named isnt trying to fucking stab anyone and they are staring in concern at everyone else ??? this analogy got outta hand...
Also banger song I was listening to that kinda inspired this rant:
also. the middle section with the lyrics..thats cause i was listening to Magdalena Bay- Killshot .... THIER OFFICIAL REVERBED+SLOWED VERSION!! WMAHWHHAHAH!!!
(THE WHOLE SONG, BOTHER VERSIONS ARE A COMPLETE BANGER OMG...BUT THE part i was listening to that prompted the middle section of text was 3:48-end for the slow/reverbed version..but i reccoment listening to the whole thing for the FULL IMPACT... awooza... oh my gawd.. <3
For the original version of the song (not slow/reverbed), it's at 3:10-end but again, i really do recommend listening/wathcing the entire thing for a full dymanic impact!! o my god... everything converging into the other..oh...<3 (and also, the not reverbed version has an interesting mixup of visuals that really sell that part that I'm fawning about!! but listen to whatever you want!! oh my god..this song...)
all my characters are decently personal but blue is personal in a different way, its strange. nameless/named, mangie, ikari are still like insanely personal but blue just makes me sad/angry
its not really like my analogy of dripping oil like anger, but blue just makes me feel. they're genuinely so nice, they did their best and that tore them apart as much as outside forces did
also, i drew nameless cause i feel like mangie's getting too much attention wahhh give the other two of the trio more time
but yeah. blue is that unwavering belief in the goodness of people. they just can't recognize when to stop believing. its a bit more than that but still.
