#c!nocide

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this is just a new ish concept but. its so cool to me. like “wow how did i not see this before but like”.

you know with a story with eldritch beings you'd except a grandstanding world ending event to happen (well, it KINDA gets there but.)

they're taken care of. and then there's that second storyline coming in. that other being on the void. you cant let them escape right? or else they'd cause unfamthable damage, right?

right?

except they wouldn't. they'd just live life. they just want to live somewhat freely. to feel the sun and air again. to see life, while being able to keep over their obsessive guardpost.

so who cares? right? in comparasion to everything else that's happened

what's one life to lose?

and that's what Nameless is so scared of. Because there's all this fuss. There'd be so many complications for IF they just didn't give up and give what Nocide wanted.

I mean, what's one life in comparison to a being who did their best to hold a spirit of violence and fear back from wreaking more havoc (although unsuccessfully?) what's one life compared to someone who doesn't even have a name?

When it would be so much easier to throw them to the void and allow someone else who "deserves" a life more than them.

What then?

The final part of this story isn't about stopping some monster from destroying the world(kinda), it's about realizing that you don't NEED a reason to live. Just live. Just find joy. SO what? So what if you cannot remember anything? When you cry and sob, and that tarry vicious bile starts leaking--and you tell yourself you want, you want to live--you don't want to say goodbye

then it's not time to say goodbye. What's the value of a life? It's the life, the person itself. It seems so small compared to everything else, but that's also you. that could be anyone. it could've been Blue, It could've been Mangie. It just happened to be Nameless--is it the fact that ANY life could be so inconsequential enough to throw away that it's worth giving what Nocide wants? Or is it the justification that the person you'd throw to the dogs has no purpose? No name or soul? Maybe there isn't one.

So who cares?! They take the harder, more turbulent path just to save one life. Just to save one more person from madness and nonexistence.

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RT INVERVALS: Nocide and Dark (Mini-Test comic)

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them again. cannot help it...wanna make em look weird...foreboding possibly...ahahaha...

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playing with art a bit!! more variations below! +

first interaction: between Nameless and Nocide

the first person Nocide saw upon exiting the void

(the first time the abyss started back so reverently)

the first a long time nocide felt something 'strange'

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I think a thing/subject ikari/rpd!universe touches on as well as RT INTERVALS are imperfect victims. not going more since my head feels too messy to continue.

"perfect" victims. i dont really understand or think they exist, people who react the way they "should".

I think the two examples that come to my mind (one for each) is:

RPD!UNIVERSE having Eleven blame Ikari for getting themselves into a bad situation (said situation is literally eleven tormenting ikari). ikari is far from a perfect person, but eleven strips any idea that ikari is a victim wrongly from them, trying to gaslight, even alter reality to make it so that ikari would just. shut up and roll over. the reason i put this here is because I'm almost sure if a full summary were to be put down of rpd!universe/ikari main lore, people would side with Eleven. Maybe. I mean, if you look at it in a way, ikari didn't HAVE to do anything. Ikari is the one trying to punch a utopia in a face after all (but eleven is the one doing unspeakable things to them, blaming their actions on IMMATURITY, PUNISHING THEM FOR BEING IMMATURE rather than anything else.)

RT INTERVALS having Nameless be goaded/convinced into trying to "talk it out" wth nocide. forgiveness and all. (except that nocide is a unrepentant, neglectful, eldritch being with a streak for sadism with severe anger issues. How could Nameless actually look them in the face and say anything RESEMBLING an apology to them?)

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i am almost desperately, feverishly afraid people miss the point of Nocide. I have talked about this before but I will write it again.

originally, in symbolism terms they were depression. just depression. but since nocide is more than that, i expanded that. while they can be called depressed and perhaps they need help their actions still have consequences. consequences that are for probable somewhat relatable reasons--you can see the reasons perhaps in other people or on a smaller smaller scale.

nocide wants to return to older times so they sub in people and project the past onto the present. it's many things going on at once but just because nocide is a character fueled by anguish for the past or for relatable reasons doesn't erase the harm they've created on purpose.

[warning: i have no idea what tw/cws apply. tread with caution.]

they literally deny most or any responsibility and just brush shit off. just because someone has something going on with them doesn't give them free perks to abuse someone. apologies if this post comes off a bit harsh, and again--this is a consequence of having RT INTERVALS so closely related to my experiences. perhaps it was a mistake to make it so. but nocide is both an amalgamation of an era of my life where i was depressed and frequently had thoughts of harm, and partly the aftermath of a shitty "friendship" I was in.

im not saying that like people with shit going on in their lives don't need help or something but like. for this case specifically, nocide is the abuser. im not saying all people with shit going on are abusers. im very afraid of piss poor tumblr reading comprehension (and the fact that i tend to format thoughts/writing into stream of consciousness so writing/thoughts are messy) so I'm putting this down in case anyone wanders by this post.

nocide is the FUCKING BAD GUY. the point of them is that just because someone suffered doesn't mean they get to take it out. on the somehwt other side of the coin, nameless' thing is that it's not the victim's responsibility to "fix" someone. you cant do that. like, it's not even a responsibility of thiers at all.

like. "ohh but nocide is so in loveee" SO WHAT they literally are [spoilers] they are KILLING NAMELESS and they don't really CARE enoughto STOP IT love is NOT A SOLUTION TO THAT SHIT it is not a MIRACLE CURE for ISOLATION and EMOTIONAL BLCKMAIL and physical VIOLENCE (in terms of nocide x nameless)

LIKE. if i ever do come out with a full story. i need people to understand that it is a fucking abusive relationship that is one sided. (and anything on nameless' part is. is not "OHHH TRUE LOVE" ILL KILL YOU)

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nocide and (?)

vaugeness.

—

I remember everything. Don’t argue with me, you cur. Cheer up.

You’ve destroyed everything you love

wrong. it was taken from me.

You threw away the rest then.

…

You hurt me. You dragged me in here to suffer with you. Is that all you can do?

i can’t believe you.

why? why did you do this to me?

shut up.

You’re supposed to be like me. you’re supposed to-to-

you hurt me. You did this to feel control.

I know damn well what you are. You’ve splintered me, to the point where i can’t look myself in the mirror and see myself!

the worst part is, i can see a part of myself in you. when i’m here with you, i feel like… you understand.

and i hate it.

you’re just an empty void, because you refuse to go on! you refuse to live!

SILENCE YOU PATHETIC WHELP!!!

I WILL NEVER FORGIVE HIM FOR WHAT HE DID TO ME!!

TO HER! I HAVE TO STAY! T-

Nothing you do can undo what happened.

YOU…

It’s not about forgiveness. It’s about moving on.

I won’t forgive you either you know. But I do feel bad for you.

You sealed yourself in here, and for what?

…

I see. This is goodbye for now, Nocide. I promise…you will never lay a hand on anyone else.

…Big talk from a pet without a name.

I do have a name. Maybe you just forgot.

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i don’t know how to describe c!Dark sometimes. (he;s my pfp btw that one expression is the best thing i’ve ever drawn at the time i still like it RUAGH) 

there’s like. nothing too “special” about him? he’s. “mundane” for a spirit of violence/fear. i think its because i want my main focus to be on c!nocide (who ends up becoming the greater threat) 

with what i have planned so far, they’re like surprisngly passive? i guess they used to sweep through towns to keep up thier reputation, but even they eventually ceased that. that’s pretty bad but sometimes i have trouble putting bad actions into a correct scale. 

he doesnt’ like pull apart anyone, or like eat anyone he’s just dramatic and (probably) psychopathic. he’s more of a fucking “good guy” than c!nocide, the person who ends up fighting him and sealing him into a void. (because only one person here is an extreme nihilist/true to the definition of a ‘true’ nihilist) [OH GOD SPOILERS]

but one thing i can say is that he’s prideful. hes pretty much  narcissistic and often feels extreme selfishness (uh oh). he’s willing to help the main characters, but not for any real reasons until. [oh god spoilers] 

like, he’s prety much a side/background character which i find odd [wait im the one writingt this...which is exactly why im complaining i guess LMAO] 

because he is...such an important part? and hes the motherfucking spirit of violence/fear who has little special/unique powers??? i mean, c!nocide doesn’t quite have anything ‘special’ either directly related to thier titles and like ive built a lot off of that IDEA BUT LIKE

RUUUUAGGHHHH WHY WONT THEY FIT AND MAKE SENSEEE

AND YES, LIKE c!dark is able to like “haha i trigger your fight/flight on my command!” 

and c!nocide....it’s ambigious but like there’s kind of a reason for that

BUT LIKE RUAGHHHH

WHY!! WHY DID I DO THIS TO c!DARK!! I MEAN IT ALSO KIND OF MAKES SENSE WITHIN HIS CHARATCER HES ALSO A LAZY ASS WHO BElEVES IN EFFECNCY OVER MINDLESS DESTRUCTION MOST THE TIME AND HIS lACK OF EMPATHY MAKES HIM MEH SO HE JUST FINDS ThINGS TO DO THAT GIVE HIM LESS TROUBLE

and also he likes chipping away at Nocide’s paitence/sanity But LIKE RUAGHHH SPIRIT OF VIOLENCE AND FEAR.... but also like yay teehee symbolism/message but like RUAHGHH

also i will be like posting some world-lore soon so that might provide more context BUT LIKE

THE GUY IS PERSONIFIED AS A GIANT ENDLESS SERPRENT WHO CAN COILL AROUND THE WORLD AND CHOKE IT OUT

AND HES JUST LAZING AROUND>??? WHAT AM I DOING WITH HIM WWUUUAAHHHHHH