this is just a new ish concept but. its so cool to me. like āwow how did i not see this before but likeā.
you know with a story with eldritch beings you'd except a grandstanding world ending event to happen (well, it KINDA gets there but.)
they're taken care of. and then there's that second storyline coming in. that other being on the void. you cant let them escape right? or else they'd cause unfamthable damage, right?
right?
except they wouldn't. they'd just live life. they just want to live somewhat freely. to feel the sun and air again. to see life, while being able to keep over their obsessive guardpost.
so who cares? right? in comparasion to everything else that's happened
what's one life to lose?
and that's what Nameless is so scared of. Because there's all this fuss. There'd be so many complications for IF they just didn't give up and give what Nocide wanted.
I mean, what's one life in comparison to a being who did their best to hold a spirit of violence and fear back from wreaking more havoc (although unsuccessfully?) what's one life compared to someone who doesn't even have a name?
When it would be so much easier to throw them to the void and allow someone else who "deserves" a life more than them.
What then?
The final part of this story isn't about stopping some monster from destroying the world(kinda), it's about realizing that you don't NEED a reason to live. Just live. Just find joy. SO what? So what if you cannot remember anything? When you cry and sob, and that tarry vicious bile starts leaking--and you tell yourself you want, you want to live--you don't want to say goodbye
then it's not time to say goodbye. What's the value of a life? It's the life, the person itself. It seems so small compared to everything else, but that's also you. that could be anyone. it could've been Blue, It could've been Mangie. It just happened to be Nameless--is it the fact that ANY life could be so inconsequential enough to throw away that it's worth giving what Nocide wants? Or is it the justification that the person you'd throw to the dogs has no purpose? No name or soul? Maybe there isn't one.
So who cares?! They take the harder, more turbulent path just to save one life. Just to save one more person from madness and nonexistence.
ahhh its themm..ohh..its them...so long since i drew it felt like..i just have to give them more time.. (ignoring blue NOO i will get to them later..)
but yeah! them...and anger...and thinking what is "right" and then subverting it...so hard to put into words... but they are definitely vindictive and spiteful at times (before regretting the 'high' they get from hurting others, because it is so unfair but nothing is fair)
=i was also orignally going to draw c!Dark in the background...teehee... ohhh, Dark and mangie..
=wrote blurb thing in comment, mostly on spot--unrefined. it's a little more insight onto Mangie's character! hope it's decipherable enough!
song i listened to while drawing YAY: OHH SOME OF the lyrics like BARELY apply to them X,[ WAHHH banger songs though ehehe
you right x luxurious (sped up + reverb) [huh, i usually associate this song with Ikari. oh well!]
I dont think I ever put this up here! its kinda an unfinsihed thing, but mostly finished. iām just gonna put this up here as a little art to go along with a little blurb in my head (mostly because an idea just popped up in my head, and i just really wanted to try writing it out.) the picture doesnt exactly match but...
=Scenario/Event:Ā
-Blue(Unicorn on right, blue/grey hair) slowly gets convinced that theyāre a horrible person by Mangie(Cyborg alicorn,grey/red hair.)
-Mangie deflects Blueās questions on Mangieās lack of sympathy and care towards other people to imply that it isnāt their fault or to lessen the blame.
-Mangie uses this confrontaiton as aĀ ābondingā moment, as a moment between two people who canātĀ āunderstandā how other people feel.
-Mangie makes themselves out to be the better person as they make no effort to beĀ ābetterā, while saying that despite Blue attempting to help people, all they do is hurt other people even when they donāt mean it.Ā
-Character development does not save Blue from being crushed by thier anxiety.
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= writing practice below (tried to...i can do better! i just need to do better)Ā
also i donāt know if i should put any warnings? but its just like a realy small moment kinda compressed into writing. perhaps one day i can write this better to make it more emotional/intense/weird. Also, thereā a lot of the belief below thatĀ ānot understanding emotions/lack of empathy=bad personā below, so just keep that in mind. dunno how i feel about that belief myself, but enough ramble! also like, iāll admit a decent part of that below is based on my own thoughts but it does have relevance in those twoās stories/relationship. itās not very nice, so donāt read if you get uncomfortable easily. i got uncomfortable myself writing this, but i may be sensitive.
Ā āWeāre really, not that different! We donāt understand other people...Or thier feelings...but unlike you, I make the choice to not care! I can change! But you...ā
Mangie smiled.
āYouāre just an inherently bad person.ā
Stop.
āYou try to help other people but you donāt help them at all--because you canāt understand half the things theyāre saying!ā
STOP-
āYOUāRE INCAPABLE OF EMPATHY! YOUāRE A MONSTER, JUST LIKE ME!ā
Ā āSTOP!!!ā
Mangie clammed up instantly, but Blue knew they had lost. A few hiccups escaped Blueās mouth.
āI hurt people because I donāt care. You canāt help but hurt people, even if you donāt want to.ā
ā...ā
No, not now-
But it was too late, and Blue felt Mangie draw them closer into a cold embrace. Blueās sobbing just made Mangie hold them tighter against them.
āThere, there...Youāre just like me, I know it.āĀ
Blue felt disgusting. But...there was nothing left for them to say.
>look in the mirror. it's you, but you still can't remember who was in your place in that moment.
=Heyo!! back from vacation...! so tired...gotta try and communicate and keep touch with people better, heh... anyways, i was listening to a song which just. made me remember a lot and made me think a lot about the ideas/thoughts i had with RT INTERVALS! there's a lot behind it that comes into play that I'm unable to just draw out >_<
but this turned out vague/presentable enough that has those phrases and ideas i just fucing LOVE!!!
I dont like theĀ āhow longā but ehh. wanted it in, and coudlnt make it white color for the font or else it would blend in. but like OMG OMG OMG ITS DARK!!! ITS THE CHARACTER IN MY PFP YOU, SCANDOULOUS FUCKING MURDER SNAKE!!!! i think ill upload my extremely vauge mini comic with him and c!nocide sometime soon.Ā
Lyrics refrenced in background from: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lhfs1CzzUPMĀ (song. thereās also an offical slowed+reverbed version too! the mood and tone of that song is just so different, i just love both versions... )
-the lyrics used in the background arenāt exacltly the most accurateĀ but that section of the song is just one i aboslutely love, andĀ āHOW LONGā is a phrase iāve used before for him and i just couldnt pass it up. ngl, nocide and dark kinda fit well with the song but in different ways.
also, alternate versions below! (kinda like em better)
COME AND GET THAT HONEY, SWEETER THAN I EVER KNEW
TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME, TELL ME TILL MY LIPS TURN BLUE
WALK INTO MY BED LIKE (COME AND GET THAT HONEY)
HOW LONG... (LOVE ME TILL MY LIPS TURN BLUE)
GOTCHU IN MY HEAD LIKE...? Ā (TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME)
HOW LONG, HOW LONG?!
COME AND GET THAT, COME AND GET THAT KILLSHOT BABY
