#cabot diary

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Drew that a few months ago. Transgendeer. Forcemasc. Doe-to-stag. Grow your own antlers, become that stag.

Stag reddish because alive (idk it makes sense for me), three-eyed because knowledged, and thin antlers because they might not be seen at first sight, but they're definitely there and once we've seen them THEY ARE THERE

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Ao3 forcemasc work - fr

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So yeah uh basically I wrote something on Ao3 like 2 months ago, something lightly forcemasc in English and I just translated into French. (French being my language, but I usually write in English, so it was weird but fun)

So yeah if there's any french reader who's interested, I put it there.

2.2k words, sfw, forcemasc, it's a bit stupid but hey I'm still proud of it: Le kilt fera de toi un homme (I didn't have any better idea sorry lmao) (btw the original english version Under the kilt hides your maleness)

🇫🇷 bon en gros j'ai écrit un truc sur Ao3 y a 2 mois, en anglais, et je l'ai reposté en français (parce que je suis fr haha), si jamais ça peut intéresser qnn-e ici. C'était chouette à traduire

2.2k mots, sfw, forcemasc léger, c'est un peu débile mais hey j'en suis fier : Le kilt fera de toi un homme (le titre est pourri, JE SAIS)

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The urge to go at the park nearby with my snout on and to leash myself to a pole bc i'm a pup without any handler nor caregiver etc etc and I need to show people how lonely I am

Just me with my snout and mutt-eared cap, sitting in the grass as the night turns the sky grey-ish and darker.

And then a guy would see me. Maybe I'd show my teeth at first because i don't know him, maybe he doesn't like pups. He'd say "oh, you poor pup, all alone outside. Don't bare your fangs on me, you're not a bad mutt". He'd ask "what's your name, you pretty thing ?" and he'd know I'm a good boy, because a pretty thing like me can't be a girl, oh no. He'd take my leash and guide me "c'm'here pup, I'm gonna take good care of you now".

And I'd follow him I'd follow him anywhere

Because I know he would do it, he would take care of me, and feed me, and teach me just how to be. Never being alone nor lonely again.

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(battle) jacket

So yeah. Work in progress. Started a few months ago but I've decided to really put my soul in it since a few weeks ago. And I'm really, really proud of it (I've almost never sew ANYTHING at all in my life before). Here we go !

Pictures + descriptions under the pics

Left side : Non-binary flags, trans flag, demiboy flag, LGBTQI+ flag, a badge saying "I'm right" ("j'ai raison") and one saying "parental advisory explicit lyrics", spikes, chain, something like the non-binary flag around a hole, a badge with "he/they" pronouns

Right side: Powerwolf (2 of them), Presley, Sabaton, Iron Maiden, Alestorm, Ghost, Orville (Peck), The Beatles, two paintings of Vincent Van Gogh, "VDF" (Le Visiteur du Futur), a badge saying "queer against racism" ("queer contre le racisme"), spikes, a patch FCK NZS

The back: POWERWOLF, a patch OBEY CONFORM SUBMIT (reference to the movie They Live by Carpenter, 1988 ; adaptation of Eight O'Clock in the morning of Ray Nelson, 1963), a patch TFB (The Front Bottoms) with the knife inspired by the cover of their album Talon of the Hawk, a patch DOG PARK DISSIDENTS.

Not on it yet but soon: a patch "ALESTORM" ; eventually a patch DPD (Dog Park Dissidents) with a puppy play hood but I'm not sure about that one yet.

Thinking about a few patches and badges, but not sure at all yet : FAUVE ≠, Nick Cave, Neil Young, an harmonica, a bat, political patches (maybe something about queer/trans people, or disabled people), Daniel Balavoine, House MD, Les Ramoneurs de Menhirs, achillean flag, and thinking about adding a lot of can cap all along the bottom.

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I'm a trickster

Alright so a friend of me got a strange postcard. We discussed about it with other friends but no one could understand.

We're French, agnostics, and one side is a religious canticle in Italian.

Plot twist : I'M THE ONE WHO SENT IT BECAUSE A FEW WEEKS AGO HE SENT US A PIC WITH HIS ADDRESS. AND ANOTHER OF OUR FRIENDS KNEW IT BECAUSE I TOLD HIM. WE ARE CRYING IT'S SO FUNNY. Because that friend is usually "idc" and very earth-to-earth

HE FOUND OUT THE TRUTH (REDDIT POWER)

Let there be night - by Powerwolf

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Ignore it's just for me

Feels like this scheme will never stop but I think we're about to get somthing more or less stable ! From hetero girl to achillean neutral man

Something like that

Heterosexual (as a girl [she/her]) → Bisexual (as a girl) → Heterosexual (as a girl) → ???? (as a boy [he/they]) → ???? (as an agender) → Gay (as an agender) → Gay (as a non binary man) → Pan (as an agender) → Pan + hypersexual (as ????) → Pan (as a masc neutral) → Achillean (as a binary trans man) → Gay (as a demi-boy) → Gay (as a binary man) → Omniromantic with preference for men + demisexual (as a ????) → Gay (as a demi-boy) → Gay + aegosexual/sex repulsed ? (as a genderfaun boy/neutral) → Achillean + hypersexual (as a genderfaun boy/neutral) → Achillean + ace questioning (as a man [he/him])

By gay I meant MLM

By hetero I meant it WLM

By bi I meant (-)LM+?

By pan I meant (-)L all

By achillean I meant it (-)LM+NB

I can see the (-)LM often comes back

I know I'm not cis, around neutral and boy or something ?

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What's a dream you've had that you haven't achieved yet?

Oh. Hi. And... what a question.

That's a good one, actually. I'm not sure what to answer to that. Do you mean it in a way a dream I still have ? Or one I don't have anymore but that I had ?

I'm not sure so I'm gonna answer both, just in case.

So. I dream I have and not achieved yet ? Maybe doing a road trip with some of my friends (hi Octopus, you're probably gonna read that). Or alone. And turn off my phone while doing it. Just... Kinda, I don't know, live ? Enjoy ? A bit ? But it's a bit of something that can't happen, you know. I don't have a car, not enough money, not enough stability etc... But I'd like to do a big road trip, while being happy, on T/top-surgery done, while being able to appreciate things around, not bothering anyone, just being a random guy anywhere in my country or the countries nearby.

And if it's a dream I had but not anymore... uh, a lot ? Let's being reasonable and saying "knowing at least 6 or 7 languages and being able to write, read, speak/sign them fluently" (tbh today I'm only fluent in French, not so bad in English, but that's all. I started learning other languages but I stopped so I kind of lost most of it... (German, LSF...)). I also wanted to be fluent in ASL, BSL, Dutch, Esperanto, eventually Spanish or Italian... But I'm too lazy haha

I hope it answers your question, thank you for asking 🌿