#gender questioning

[lex4444e]

I HATE QUESTIONING MY GENDER IDENTITY!!!!!!!!!!! UUGGHHHHHHHAAAAHSHSGSKDVSNDIBSLWJBS I HAVE BEEN CRYING FOR MONTHS OR EVEN YEARS IDK BECAUSE I WANNA BE A BOY BUT IM A GIRL I HATE BEING A GIRL I HATE BEING BORN A GIRL I HATE IT HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!

[boysliketheygirls]

I wish my elder millennial ass knew of a better place to vent. MySpace is gone and haven’t heard of Blogspot in a while. I just need to keep track of this madness and hopefully look back at it in a few years and laugh about it.

I just want to be happy like I was before all of this.

I don’t even understand half what (apparently) young people is talking about in this platform. It all feels like a teen drama I should be well past. 20 years past to be precise.

I just want this to end.

[clownapple]

so i've been wondering something a lot lately and. is it commmon to feel absolutely nothing towards your own legal name andyeah. ive been wondering because for a fair while i haven't felt anything towards my legal name or she/her at all. i know I use they/them in my bio but that was me testing them out and honestly i've been vibing with them like. i haven't changed them but

i just dont know whether i can call myself nonbinary in full confidence or not. i dont know. help

[stormbreather]

just thinking about how gender is super fake but also such a beautiful concept and I can’t wait to get my grubby little fingers around it and make it into something that fits me

like this is my first venture into self expression without explicitly labelling myself I guess and that’s so scary but also so… fun? exciting?

[boysliketheygirls]

I wonder if I enjoy being female or I’m just used to it.

I like feeling powerful walking on heels. Dressing up (albeit in a very androgynous unisex style). Having a soft, smooth face. Singing high notes.

I’m not the kind of person who would enjoy presenting non-binary so if I transitioned I’d reserve those things for kink/play and definitely wouldn’t wear heels to the office.

And I’d definitely miss it.

[boysliketheygirls]

I had to call internet support today. My contract is in my landlord’s name so I used his. First two agents were confused af. With the 3-5th agent (yeah it took like 90mins on the phone) I dropped my voice. They didn’t sound confused at all. Either someone dropped a note in the system (doubt it) or gendering voices is highly contextual:

G3ish voice + male name = for sure a male

G3ish voice + female name = for sure a female

B3 voice + male name = confusing

[boysliketheygirls]

As long as I don’t attempt at intimacy, I’m entirely functional as a female. It all collapses with a partner.