will I ever be able to write a fully sexy porn scene? the answer is unlikely.
I could write Vokriid and Miraak trying to have sex and deciding to bail halfway thru bc Miraak gets sensory overload very easily. that scene is meant to be more sweet and tender than actually sexy, and they p much just chill in bed together for awhile.
alternatively, I will write Kalaron having sex w Solalis the first time they meet and Caessera accidentally walking in on them, and then a few hours later Kalaron showing up to that super important job interview to hopefully get his promotion to a very high-rank of Thalmor agent and then he sees that Caessera is his new boss. who introduces herself as Solalis's mother. and Kalaron just sinks into the floor in absolute mortification.
but an entirely sexy sex scene? apparently not.