#caleb ward

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caleb: haze? what’re you doing out here by yourself?

hazel: ..thinking

caleb: oh yeah? mind if i join you?

hazel: *shrugs* do whatever you want caleb

caleb: uh, cool.. *sighs* shitty day, huh?

hazel: it’s my birthday..

caleb: what? oh, no that’s.. that’s not what i meant haze. i uh.. i was talking about the weather. i didn’t mean to- shit

hazel: i know what you meant

caleb: oh good, good- wait, so what did you mean?

hazel: i mean it’s my birthday, and i’m supposed to be happy.. and having fun, but i’m not

caleb: ..cause of me, right? cause i insisted on being here today *sighs* i’m sorry haze, i shouldn’t have come. i didn’t wanna ruin your day i just.. really fucking wanted to see you

hazel: you know what’s messed up? i really wanted to see you too..

caleb: you did?

hazel: yeah i did.. and i’ve spent all day just.. hoping you’d eventually come over and talk to me, even if it was just to say happy birthday.. anything really, but you didn’t. it makes me feel like.. like you just showed up to say “hey look at me, i actually bothered to show up, i care” when all you really care about is your new kid. i’m old news.. *sniffles* am i even important to you at all?

caleb: hazel.. of course you are. fuck man, i didn’t come over because i was scared. fucking terrified even. i was scared that you’d just tell me to fuck off, and that you didn’t want anything to do with me. i mean i know you’ve said it to pretty much everyone, but you’ve never said to my face y’know? i think.. i think it’d kill me if i heard it straight from you. i don’t think i’d ever recover

hazel: ..i lied. every time i said to somebody that i didn’t want anything to do with you, i was lying.. because i was hurting. i was hurting really bad, and everyone else around me was forgiving you and i wanted to as well but.. i was afraid if i gave in and let you close to me.. you’d just leave me again

caleb: never. never again, haze.. i was stupid enough to leave you once, and that was the biggest mistake of my life. not getting to see you grow up.. *voice breaks* i’ll never be able to get that back, seeing my baby girl grow into the woman you are now. shit man *sad laughter* i’m a fuck up

hazel: *soft crying* dad..

caleb: c’mere *holds her* i’m so sorry haze

hazel: me too..

caleb: i’m gonna do everything i can to make it up to you, i promise you that

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zelda: caleb, you can let go of me now, you know that right?

caleb: *stressed* no way

zelda: you’re overreacting *pushes away from him* see, i’m fine by myself

caleb: ..

zelda: *laughs* okay, okay *holds her hands out* if it’ll make you feel better, you can hold my hands

caleb: it will *takes her hands* thank you

zelda: *smiles* i’m having a lot of fun..

caleb: yeah i can tell

zelda: ..but you’re not, right? because of what you said to me earlier..

caleb: *sighs* z, i never said i wasn’t having fun with you

zelda: but you don’t want to be here.. with me

caleb: stop. i never said that either. i do wanna be around you, but..

zelda: but it makes you uncomfortable?

caleb: yeah.. *groans* z, can we just-

zelda: *hugs him* ..i’m so sorry *sniffles*

caleb: are you.. crying?

zelda: *shakes head* n-no..

caleb: liar, why you crying for?

zelda: b-because.. it’s my fault

caleb: what? what’s your fault?

zelda: everything.. i’m a t-terrible person caleb

caleb: ..no you’re not, don’t say that. c’mere *pulls her close*

zelda: *soft crying*

caleb: shh *wipes her eyes* c’mon, let’s get out you out of this pool, alright?

zelda: *nods*

caleb: alright, come on.. i got you

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zelda: beer.. really!?

caleb: *laughs* you don’t have to sound so outraged z. this was all the store was selling. you’re lucky we even found a store open at this time of night anyway, and you’re lucky i even agreed to buy you more alcohol when you’re this wasted. and you’re lucky-

zelda: i get it, i get it.. i’m lucky

caleb: yeah you are. i should be home by now, yet here i am at fucking midnight running around after you *shakes head*

zelda: oh come on, don’t pretend that you’re not having a great time with me right now.. *scoots closer* you are.. having a good time, right? *pokes him* huh? are ya?

caleb: *grins* stop poking me

zelda: *laughs* why not? *pokes him some more*

caleb: cause, you don’t wanna start something you can’t finish

zelda: *gasps* are you challenging me to.. a poke off? cause i’ll totally win

caleb: heh, yeah sure you will.. *sighs*

zelda: ..what’s wrong? i’ll let you win if it means that much to you

caleb: it’s not that

zelda: then what? what’s on your mind?

caleb: i dunno it’s just.. sitting here with you, it brings back memories

zelda: ..good memories?

caleb: no, not really. i mean they should be. they were good memories at some point, but then you cheated on me left me for another dude, so they kinda just default to bad memories

zelda: i.. i d-don’t-

caleb: you broke my heart z, and then you pretty much just vanished into your fairytale life and left me alone *shakes head* that’s in the past though, and i’m over it. but having you be so close to me again just.. it makes me uncomfortable

zelda: ..i’m sorry

caleb: yeah.. it’s whatever

zelda: *looks around* i’m going for a swim, you should go home to your family *stands up*

caleb: wait what? z.. 

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caleb: almost home. i can’t believe you lost your fucking shoes z

zelda: *mumbles*

caleb: huh?

zelda: th-thank you for carrying me..

caleb: yeah, i’ll always carry your drunk ass home if you need me to

zelda: *tired giggle*

caleb: *knocks on the front door*

holden: *worried* zelda?? jesus, what the hell happened?!

caleb: uh.. wine, a lot of it. and then some beer

zelda: *smiles* hi

holden: it’s 2:00 in the morning, i’ve been worried sick, and you two have been.. getting drunk?

zelda: what’s the problem? i told you i’d be home soon..

caleb: z, not helping. here *passes her to holden*

holden: are you.. wet? and.. *sighs* honey, where are your shoes??

zelda: we went swimming, and i lost them

holden: of course you did.. *looks at caleb* maybe we’ll just talk about this in the morning, yeah?

zelda: *nods* i need to lie down..

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caleb: feeling better?

zelda: yes

caleb: good, so what was that all about?

zelda: ..

caleb: z, just talk to me.. please?

zelda: what exactly do you want me to say caleb?

caleb: i don’t fucking know just.. tell me what’s on your mind or whatever?

zelda: you want to know what’s on my mind? fine. i know that this is all my fault. all of it, everything

caleb: what the fuck are you talking about?

zelda: oh come on caleb, you said it yourself. i vanished into my perfect fairy tale life and i left you behind. our relationship was breaking, and instead of trying to fix it i.. i threw it away, i threw you away for something i considered to be better and easier

caleb: z stop-

zelda: no, let me finish. because if i don’t acknowledge this now, i will never find the courage to acknowledge it. all of this? our strained relationship, your rocky relationship with our kids, the fact that hazel won’t even talk to you? it’s my fault. you were suffering, and i wasn’t there.. because i was too busy being married and.. and trying to have more fucking children. when i should have been focusing on the ones that i had.. and helping them to understand that their dad does love them.. but i broke his heart. i destroyed his life and took his family away *crying* i’m sorry caleb, i’m so so sorry. if i could go back in time and do it all again.. i would be better to you. i wouldn’t have let you down, like so many other people in your life-

caleb: *softly* stop, zelda. look at me *tilts her chin* thank you

zelda: f-for what?

caleb: *pulls her close* for that

zelda: *sniffles* i’m so sorry

caleb: yeah *kisses her head* i know you are z

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caleb: hey z, thanks for meeting me

zelda: sure, of course. i didn’t order anything yet in case you wanted a coffee.. is everything okay?

caleb: i’ll pass on the coffee.. i uh, saw eden today

zelda: *frowns* what did you do caleb?

caleb: whoa, hang on z. what do you mean what did i do?

zelda: oh come on, caleb. i’m going to assume that if you saw eden, you know she and chase are having a baby. so let me guess.. you found out, lost your shit, shouted at your pregnant daughter, she probably shouted back, and you both fell out again. and now you’re here to complain-

caleb: z, shut the fuck up for a second, and stop jumping to conclusions. me and eden.. we’re good

zelda: ..you’re good?

caleb: yeah, good

zelda: oh. so you’re.. okay? with.. the situation?

caleb: no. i’m freaking the fuck out over here

zelda: *smiles* would you like to talk about it?

caleb: *sighs* yeah, and i guess i’ll take that coffee after all

zelda: coming right up!

caleb: you ain’t gonna ask what i want?

zelda: *laughs* i made you coffee for 10 years, caleb. i think i know how you like it

caleb: *grins* yeah, i guess you do