"You look so pale.." Seunghwa caresses your cheeks, he looks so concern.
"'m okay.." you squeeze his hand, hoping that he would let it go.
You've been away from him quite a long time, both of you ended it for good. As far you know he already moved on too, way earlier than he should be. But you couldn't stop thinking about what you saw today at restaurant, how could he—
"Baby?" Seunghwa calls you out of your over thinking pools. You sure this time he wouldn't let it go, he cups your face with both his hand, "Tell me, what is it?"
Should you tell him?
How?
"Stop zoning out.. hey, look at me." He calls again, "you're so anxious and awfully quiet since we back from dinner, did I do something wrong?"
Oh, Seunghwa..
How could he thinks he’s the one who made mistake while you’re the one who lied to him?
"You didn't do anything wrong.." you want to sound normal but your habit of fidgeting your fingers doesn’t help at all.
"And..?" He encourages you to say more, "I feel it like that sentence has to be finished?" He knows you so well, damn too well for your own good.
"Alright.." he squeezes your hand, "Whatever it is, if it's my fault.. I am so sorry. You can vent it out to me whenever you're ready, okay?" He brings your hand to his lips.
Even in this situation, Seunghwa always manage himself to be mature and sweet. You wouldn't trade him for anything in this world, you make an oath mentally.
"Feel free to throw the pillow at me, better to do it before I change my mind." He smirks earning your smile. Like.. seriously? Who can resist this guy? you can’t, Seunghwa has been always swooning you over with his charms and you couldn’t be more grateful than that. He makes you feel loved, like.. your existence only is enough for him. No one’s gonna loves you like him, only Seunghwa.
"Come here.." he opens his arms so you scoot over to snuggle closer to him while feeling guilty because your past still haunts you.
You could smell Seunghwa’s body soap as you snuggle to him, he doesn’t like to wear perfume and that’s better, because you like his smell. You should forget what you saw at the restaurant, you and him are over, you have Seunghwa and he loves you more than you feel like you deserve it.
Just then Seunghwa’s phone rings loudly, breaking you from your thoughts.
"Who the fuck—" he grumbles and moves to fish out the phone from his pocket, “sorry babe, it's work calling me. I'll be back.” He says then land a kiss on top of your head before walks away to his room.
Dean..
The ex-boyfriend who made you hardly moved on for almost two years, before you meet Seunghwa. You and Seunghwa were on dinner, it was all nice until you went to the toilet and found Dean there, standing at the hallway, waiting for you to come out from the toilet.
“Y/n..” your name slipped from his lips.
“Hi.. Dean.” It was so awkward and sudden, all you know is that Dean moved to LA five years ago and you never heard anything from him.
“Did you change your number?” he asked out of the blue. What is he doing? Suddenly appear and asking your number.
“What?”
“Just want to make sure you didn’t change your number, I want to talk to you.”
“But—” he left you no words.
“Not now, I know you’re with him.” He stated, obviously knew that you came with Seunghwa. What he actually wants?
“I should go.” Better to leave him anyway, his appearance doesn’t make any sense at all. Five years no contact and communication then he came like nothing happen, not because you still have feeling for him or whatsoever. This is just too absurd.
He didn’t stop you when you walk away, but you knew he was staring at your back.
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A loud banging on the door startling you, following by bell rings. Could it be Seunghwa’s manager? But why? You’re contemplating whether you should open the door or not, but seems like Seunghwa doesn’t even hear the bells ring.
You decided to check who’s outside before you open the door, learning from experience.
A very familiar face appears on the screen monitor, but his face looks mess.
Dean!
You rushed to open the door before Seunghwa back and everything will go uncontrollable.
"I told you—" you snap but manage to not raise your voice. Purposely out from the door, hoping you could tell him to go away and end it quickly. Then you notice his brown eyes looks weary, different than when you see him earlier. His nose is red and he smells alcohol and probably had few cigarettes too. Is he out of his mind?!
"Hear me out, baby…" He slurred, obviously the alcohol did the talking.
You decided to ignore the baby part, “Dean, you're drunk.”
“Please..” his voice cracked, those two red eyes staring at you.
"What happen?” you ask, feels like you’re actually asking on yourself just because you know Dean has no idea about what he is doing now.
He takes a breath, “I love you.” He said, then immediately curse after that, “Shit.. I know I shouldn't have said it, but that's the truth. I've been trying to move on from you, forget you, but it doesn't work.” You think he’s blabbing because he drunk but those gaze on you telling the otherwise.
What’s with this sudden confession.
“Dean, you can't—“ how are you supposed to react on this? Your boyfriend might come in any seconds catching you talk with your ex-boyfriend who decided to appear after years and confess you out of nowhere.
“I know, damn—“ he looks frustrate, “I just— I just want to let my heart out, I don't want to pretend anymore. I'm tired, I'm sick telling everyone that I'm over you. I don't want to lie to myself."
Jesus, what is this? You mentally screams in frustration.
“Babe, who's that?" Seunghwa’s voice comes behind the door, and Dean isn’t budging at all.
This is crazy.
"Who's—“ Seunghwa swings the door open and find you both. “Oh, hey man. Sorry, but can I help you?” he looks confuse but manage his best to be gentle and polite.
Dean wouldn’t go that far, right? Or should you tell Seunghwa the truth? At that moment you just want the floor break down and swallow yourself in.
"Nothing man.. I think I got wrong apartment." Dean play along, “my bad..”
Seunghwa nods then offer help, “Do you need help to find it?”
“Nah, I’m good.” Dean smiles, “I should go, sorry for disturbing.” Then he glances at me.
“Nope, that’s fine. Have a good day.” Seunghwa replies while pulling me closer to him.
“Thanks.” Just like that, Dean turns back and walks away from our sight.
Once Seunghwa and you enter the apartment, he looks at you with an expression that you’ve never seen before, “It's him, isn't it?”
