#caly rants

[hongism]

honestly it’s perfectly fine if you don’t like smut but don’t walk around with this ‘agenda’ or ‘ego’ like you’re better than everyone else for not liking smut like,,,,it’s not Cute or Edgy it’s just you being an asshole. the least you can do is respect that people put a lot of work into their craft just as you do whether it’s for gifs or sfw fics. at the end of the day we are all the same (read: human) and you shouldn’t treat someone like less of a human simply because you don’t personally enjoy what they’re creating!!!

[hongism]

some people on this uglee website are way too focused on numbers of notes and numbers of followers. what happened to just creating for your own joy??? why does it have to be about numbers of notes or followers?? why do you need to know how many followers i have? literally how does that affect you in any way? it’s not your blog, so why do you need to know? why is there a mindset of ‘oh big blog vs small blog’? i don’t share my numbers for that reason, because it’s weird to me how some people will treat you completely differently after learning about your numbers. they either treat you like you’re less than them and they’re better than you, or they start trying to get shit out of you. i have been on both sides and it’s effing sucky either way, so can this mindset of pushing numbers and having numbers or even just creating things to get xx amount of notes or xx amount of followers stop??? just let people run their blogs the way they want to and have goals, but don’t be pushy and try to get info out of them when they don’t wanna give it. 

[hongism]

to atiny:

hey atiny, we’re having a hard time, huh? be sure to look after yourselves and take care of yourselves. if you need to take a step back from social media or the fandom for a bit, please do so. your health and emotions are most important, and you deserve to look after yourself. if you need someone to give you the push, consider this your push!

hydrate! drink lots of water 

remember to eat! eat some fruits and vegetables, nourish your body

go for a walk! (with your mask on if you live in an urban area or if there are people around)

listen to music! i always listen to music, but i find that it helps me when i’m having a hard time as well

spend some time doing something creative! maybe paint or draw, play an instrument, write a story, something to get your mind off things

exercise or stretch! get your body moving and the blood flowing

take a break from social media! things are hectic right now and if you need to take a break you shouldn’t let anyone or anything stop you from doing that

surround yourself with good people! find people you trust and care about, and let them support you if you’re having a hard time

remember that you aren’t alone! with all this strife between atinys and people, it’s hard to remember this, but understand that you aren’t alone

be kind! i understand it’s hard sometimes and our frustrations can get the better of us, but being rude or hurtful won’t do anyone any good

talk to someone! if you’re having a hard time and need to talk with someone, reach out and seek help. you are worthy and deserving of love and support

breathe. it’s going to be okay. you can make it through this, we can make it through this, ateez can make it through this. do what you need to do for yourself, listen to those who deserve to be heard right now, and prioritize yourself. i’m sending lots of love and virtual hugs to each and every single one of you. you deserve the best, as do our boys, and it breaks my heart that this all is happening. my inbox is always open if you need to rant, i’m not great at advice or knowing what to say, but i can listen and i’d be happy to listen to you all as long as it’s not hateful or unkind. again i love you guys and please take care of yourselves 💞

[hongism]

apparently his company logo is one from a furniture shop and the website is fake and hosted by a note taking app,,,,,kim woojin what the fuck do you think you’re doing 😐

[hongism]

if you are a smut author and you don’t have your age shown anywhere on your blog then im not going to follow or interact with you because i personally don’t feel comfortable doing so. apparently minors writing and distributing smut is always going to be a problem, and if i don’t know for certain that you aren’t a minor, then i would rather steer clear just to be safe. there is no issue with minors consuming smut as long as they respect the author’s boundaries and understand that most authors are not comfortable talking to minors about smut, but minors actually producing and distributing smut is something else entirely and it’s not okay, no minor should be distributing adult content, it’s just like porn, and i know some people are into that, but i am not and i don’t think it’s okay.

[hongism]

thank you!

okay HI yeah don’t get too excited this is just a lil thank you post again but i was up late Thinking too much so i spent a lot of time just running statistics on my works and i wanted to share those stats with you guys bc yall are what keeps me going 🥺

so i started posting back on january 3rd 2019 and since then i have posted:

5 series 

7 nct works

11 stray kids works

108 bts works

134 ateez works

256+ works in total

450,000+ words

it’s absolutely unreal to think about how i have written 450k in a bit less than two years and im just so grateful for you all because i wouldn’t have been able to even think about making these numbers possible in such a short amount of time without you all. thank you so so much for the love and support and i can’t wait to see where our journey takes us next 🥺

i have so many things planned for this blog and so many stories that i wish to write and tell. i hope that you guys join me for however long this journey is, and thank you again from the bottom of my heart 🤧

i would like to call some mutuals out who have been by my side and supported me and loved me and helped me grow so so much over time. whether i’ve been following you for one week or one year or longer than that even, you guys mean so much to me and i’m so lucky and grateful to have been able to meet you all okay just take my whole heart, it’s already yours 🥺🧡 thank you all so much, you guys have no clue how much you mean to me and i’m so beyond grateful for all of you 🥺

special mentions: @astraljoon @hobiance @baekhyyun @honeymoonjin @parksfilter @galaxyseokjin @shadowsremedy @luxekook @j-sope @cest-la-tae @a-tiny-8iny

@hobicomeholla29 @jinned @thatmultifandomhoe @atiny-dazzlinglight @kimnamshiks @atiny-piratequeen @dee-ehn ((do u even know who i am danica ._.)) @blueish-sun @yayhei @wheresmymoniat @odditiesanddeities @keeper-of-the-uwus @atinyinwonderland @yeo-baby ((we’re new moots but ily nonetheless bby and u deserve the Best))

[hongism]

im cackling this whole situation is such a shitshow of blindly pointing fingers and throwing accusations back and forth. literally just stop. 

stop name dropping, stop saying ‘oh you know who’ ‘THOSE blogs’ ‘THOSE people’ ‘them’.

all that does is stir the pot more and make things worse, you are causing further drama because it’s fishing for someone to ask you about it or fishing to make someone pressed. 

so can all tumblrtiny just sit down. take a breather. and move on. it’s literally not that deep. im sorry but there are so many other things to be worried about right now. someone not liking you is not the end of the world. someone not liking your content is not the end of the world. if someone actively sends you hate or slanders you and your work then YES by all means YES that is a problem and you should stand up for yourself, but please for the love of god, stop shade posting and throwing accusations around and be mature about things. if you have a problem with someone, then reach out to them via dm or out of the public eye. 

it’s not hard to be a decent person, but it is hard to actively hard on others. don’t make things harder for yourself and please just stop.

[hongism]

hey guys this is just a,,,,gentle reminder. i am all for chatting about ideas and thoughts and theories concerning my works with you guys. i really love it and i love having that interaction with you guys, and i love seeing what you guys think. however, please understand that i have a plan and a direction for all my works, i have these things thought out in advance, and all the choices i make are choices that i want to make. as interactive as my stories tend to me - the series in particular - that doesn’t mean i give you the right or permission to tell me how to write my own stories. things like “oh it’d be neat to see” or “i’d like to see” are fine. i’m not talking about those. i’m talking about “i need this” “you need to do this” “it would be better if this”. i understand that there are things you guys want to see but begging me to include those things only makes me upset honestly. it’s honestly a bit hurtful to see messages that say ‘you need to develop this character more’ ‘you need to focus on this character more’ ‘you need to...’ whatever it may be.

i have a plan. i have a plan for every character. i have a character arc for every character. i have an overarching plot for the story. i promise you that i have it planned out. i promise you that each character will have a spotlight and will get their own arc. i promise you that they will be developed. telling me ‘but i want it now’ is only going to lessen my enthusiasm about actually writing it. please be patient with me. i am not a machine. i am not churning these out without thought. i have a plan and a set progression for the story. the way the character arcs are lined up is intentional and meaningful for the overarching story. i really do write for you guys and i am inspired and encouraged by you guys, but i need you guys to respect that i have a plan. i need you to please be patient with me. from the beginning of this story i have clearly stated that it is going to be long. it is long and arduous and a labor of love. i told you guys this, i told you it would take a long time, and if i could churn it out in a night for you guys, believe me i would.

it’s a huge knock to my confidence, and i know i might sound like a little bitch when i say that, but really. really guys. just please stop to think about this for a second. yes you are entitled to your opinions and yes you can be as frustrated or impatient with me and my pacing as you want. but please stop verbalizing it to me. please realize that you telling me how to write my story is rude and insulting to me as a creator and my own creative process. 

but honestly. just. honestly speaking. i update this series 1-3 times a week. i know that’s just a number to some people, but i am a full time student and i have been having a shit time in my personal life these past three weeks as well. i’m not a great writer and i’m not great at pacing and i’m just not the best writer out there. while i’m thankful that you’re giving my story a chance and my writing a chance, please don’t read my story if you just want to tell me what needs to happen or what should happen.

i have written 150,000 words on this series since may. 4 months, 150,000 words. i am giving this series my all because i love it. i love writing it. i love getting to write it and talk with yall. i am deadass proud of myself for writing so much in a short amount of time, and i am not asking you guys to be proud of me and im not asking you to praise my writing or to put me on a pedestal, i’m not asking for you guys to treat me as anything more than just another writer on this site. i am just asking you to please treat me as a human being and realize that your words have weight and impact. if nothing else, realize that so you can treat other people better because it’s such a sucky feeling and i wouldn’t wish it on anyone.