In Front of the Camera: Part 12
Fandom: Marvel (Cam Guy AU)
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Summary: Your friend and neighbor, Bucky, is a cam guy, but you have no idea until your friend sends you a link to one of his live streams.
Part 11 | Series Masterlist
Bucky sat there staring at the Cam4You website. If he went through with this, then he’d no longer be receiving that large amount of cash flow in a while. He’d have to go out and get a real job instead of working from home. But if that meant there was a possibility that he’d be coming home to you waiting for him, then so be.
“One last time,” he mumbled as he clicked on the ‘Go Live!’ button. The camera light went on and he sighed. He waited for a good amount of people to log onto the livestream. He ran his fingers through his disheveled hair and spoke, “So...I’m leaving. I’m quitting this site.”
Nooo!
What?! Why?!
James, nooo! Please don’t leave us!
Bucky sadly chuckled, “Yeah, uh, this is a shock to you guys, I know, but it has to be done. I-” he wiped away his watery eyes, “I fucked up, guys. I was dating my baby doll for months and it was perfect. She was perfect. And I fucked up. I got tangled in some twisted game with some other woman. I went above and beyond what my job entailed and it resulted in losing the woman who-who captured my heart. She broke up with me and she won’t answer my calls or my texts, nothing.
“Sure, if it wasn’t for this site, we wouldn’t have gotten together in the first place, but now...this whole thing tore us apart...I tore us apart. But I wanna fix this. I wanna get my girl back ‘cause-’cause I love her. She’s made me the happiest I’ve ever been and because I was thinking with my dick instead of my head, I lost her. I need to make this right. I’m leaving and I’m finding a better job, one that doesn’t get me involved in all this.” he gestured to the screen.
“So this is it everyone. I want to thank all of you for the amazing couple of years I spent on here. It was a blast. Now I gotta say “good-bye” to the virtual world and say “hello” to the real world...Good-bye.” Bucky ended the livestream. He went to his account and clicked on the settings. At the very bottom, the cursor hovered over the “delete account” button.
“This is for you, Y/N.” he clicked onto the button along with the ‘Yes, I’m sure’ and the account was gone. No more James Barnes, Cam Guy.
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You wallowed in your bed trying to pay attention the best you could to your tv in front of you. When your phone vibrated, you saw that Wanda had sent you a message.
You unlocked your phone to see that Wanda sent you a link to the cam4you website. Why would she send you this after you told her what happened? You clicked on it and it brought you to Bucky’s sight. It hurt to see him. The wave of emotions crashing down on you. You started to cry as you listened to Bucky speak.
“I fucked up, guys. I was dating my baby doll for months and it was perfect. She was perfect. And I fucked up.” Psh. Understatement of the century.
You continued to listen to him summarize the situation and you tensed when he admitted he loves you. He loves you? If he loves you, why did he lie and cheat? If he loves you, why didn’t he tell you what was going on instead of hiding it from you? Is that really what you do to someone you love?
“Now I gotta say “good-bye” to the virtual world and say “hello” to the real world...Good-bye.” the stream ended, leaving you even more confused.
Knock, knock, knock!
You set your phone down and wrapped your blanket around your body as you padded over to the door. You looked through the peephole to see Bucky standing there.
Knock, knock, knock!
“Y/N, I-I don’t know if you saw the livestream, but-but I’m done. I quit the website. I quit it all. I-I know it’s not much, but it’s the first step to me making it up to you. Well, technically the first step was me blocking Dot and deleting her number. So I guess quitting the website was the second-” the door swung open to reveal you, “-step.” he gulped, “H-Hi.”
You moved to the side, opening the door wider so he could walk in. He entered your apartment and immediately went to sit on your couch.
You closed the door, following him, and sitting on the far side of the couch, “I don’t really know what to say other than you hurt me, Bucky. You took my trust and you stomped all over it. You-” you let out a sob, “you made me feel unwanted. Like I wasn’t good enough.”
Bucky’s hands itched to pull you to him, to hug you and make you feel better, but he lost that right, “Y/N, that’s not what I intended to do. I didn’t intend for any of this to happen.”
“Why did it even happen in the first place, Bucky? I thought you were just going to talk with her online only?”
“She said she’d pay more if I did more so that’s what I did.”
“So you did it because of greed?”
He winced at your harshness, “Yes, and no. Yes because I wanted the money and no, because I was gonna put it towards having a future with you. I’ve had feelings for you for so long. Even before we started dating, I knew you were the one for me.”
“Did you develop feelings for her?”
Bucky looked down at his lap in shame, “A little.” he heard you scoffed and he looked up at you again, “But they couldn’t compare to my feelings for you!”
“You cheated on me, Bucky! If you really meant that you love me, you wouldn’t have done all this!”
“But I did it for you! I did it so when the time comes we’d be financially stable-”
“I don’t care about that, Bucky! I don’t care if we’re poor or rich! All I cared about was you and having you! I didn’t ask for you to try to get as much money as possible! I just wanted you!” you threw your head into your hands as you sobbed, “I really thought I was falling in love with you, Bucky. But now I can’t even look at you without thinking of how much you hurt me.”
Bucky wiped the stray tears from his eyes and nodded, “I understand. But this won’t stop me from loving you. I won’t go back to that site. I’m gonna get a real job and show you that I can be the man you truly deserve.” he stood up and walked over to you. He kissed your head, relishing the feel of your skin against his and the scent of your shampoo one last time.
You didn’t look up as he trudged to the door, pulling it open, and walking out, it softly shutting behind him.
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Bucky sat across the table in Steve and Sharon’s kitchen. While Sharon got Jaime ready for bed, Bucky told Steve everything that happened with him, Dot, and you.
Steve stared at his friend disappointedly, “I’m gonna be honest, Buck, I’m disgusted by you. Y/N was the perfect girl for you and you fucked it up because your dick liked the thrill of some twisted game this woman started! I can’t believe you threw away everything you had for Y/N! You’ve pined for her for so long and you go ahead and fuck it up!”
“I know, Steve! I know! And trust me when I say I hated myself every day since!”
Steve took a swig of his beer and spoke up again, “So you start looking for jobs?”
“Yeah, but there aren’t a lot of people looking for a guy who’s majored in art history.”
“You know, Tony’s opening up a restaurant in a few weeks.”
Bucky shrugged, “Yeah? And?”
“He’s looking for chefs.”
Bucky snorted, “I ain’t no Gordon Ramsay or Bobby Flay, Steve.”
“It’s something though. Just talk to him and see how it goes, okay?”
“Yeah. Okay.”
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“So that’s it? It’s over?” Wanda asks on the phone as you work on making dinner.
You sighed, “Yeah, Wan. It’s over. I can’t take him back after he betrayed my trust like that. It’s-It’s too hard. Too much.”
“So what’re you gonna do now? You guys are neighbors. You can’t avoid each other all the time.”
“I’m already looking for a new apartment. There’s a building two blocks from work. It’d make commute a lot easier and I won’t have to see Bucky.”
“I was really rooting for you two, Y/N.”
“Yeah...me too.”
Part 13
TAGLIST IS CLOSED FOR THIS SERIES.
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